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Apr 22 · 254
Lø Spirit
Cassian Apr 22
Listening to a song

Makes my heart pound

Felt kinda lost but

His voice makes me feel found

I was at my limit

Felt like giving in

Had some trouble breathing

Hid in the pain I  was in

Drowned in the dark

But the night..

It blooms, doesn't it?

- Silas
Cassian Apr 22
I didn't know..

Making you hate me could come so easy

I didn't know..

You'd walk away after promising to stay by my side

I didn't know..

You threw away the rest of our lives

What could I have done...?

To keep you as mine

What could I have done...?

To have you here by my side

You said forever...

But now I sit feeling empty

Did you stop writing poetry...

Or did you just block me?

I didn't even get to say goodbye...

I might still love you til

The day I die
#heartbreak #longing #loneliness #goodbye
Cassian Apr 4
In the pulse of your words, I find a quiet hum—a call to feel, to think, to simply be. You speak of blooming, not amidst the clear fields, but in the grey, in the cracks of urban stone. It's here, in the lost corners, that life claws its way through—like the city, vibrant with life despite the steel and dust. You capture something fierce in your "urban blossoms," a defiance against the mundane, an insistence that spring can bloom in a place that should know only cold, that amidst all the grey, there is still green.

Then, there’s the intimacy of light, the warm embrace of a campfire shared between souls. I can feel the crackle of the fire in the words you paint, the dance of yellow hues upon skin, the flicker of fleeting moments made eternal in your mind. There is such beauty in the simplicity of it, the quiet that hangs in the air between breaths. It’s as if, for a brief second, the universe collapses to a circle around the flames, and everything is just right. The light on skin, the soft touch of shadow, all of it wrapped in the warmth of what is remembered, what is never quite forgotten.

But then, you speak of a darker thought, a reminder that not only are dreams out of reach—but so too are the nightmares. Reality pulls at us, a tether we can’t escape, as much as we wish for fantastical flights of fancy. We’re torn between wanting to leap into the sky and being dragged back to earth, to face the nightmares we buried beneath the pillow. How hard it is to know which is which, sometimes, isn’t it?

And there’s the fog in your mind—opaque, as you say—where words slip through like mist, elusive, forever just out of grasp. It’s in those moments, standing at the threshold, that you long for clarity to knock, for the door to swing open and show you the way. How often do we feel that? The desire for our own thoughts to finally make sense, to understand the unspoken, to know what’s real and what is just a mirage.

You bring me back to the question of love, that elusive thing that slips between fingers like water. The line between friend and lover—so fine, so blurred. You wonder, what is it really? And here, in this space between thoughts, I see a reflection of your struggle. Can love ever be just love, without the weight of expectation, of something more? Can a friendship really be just that? Or do we always yearn for something beyond?

Then, you capture the stillness of the night—the ticking of a midnight clock. There’s something haunting in the sound of time slipping away, isn’t there? The soft rhythm that both comforts and unnerves, as if time itself is watching you, waiting for you to make a choice, to decide whether solitude is your refuge or your prison. In that moment, when the world sleeps and you’re left with nothing but the ticking clock, you are both free and bound, caught between decisions that are yet to be made.

And, you—you haunt me too. The simple thought of pretending to love, or imagining what it would be like, always brings you to mind. A face, a feeling, an echo that refuses to fade. It’s as if, in the quiet moments when no one is watching, you find that piece of yourself you didn’t know you were looking for. The space between thoughts, between friends and lovers, is where you linger. And I wonder, is it truly love or is it just the mind weaving stories where none exist? Still, you remain, a shadow in every thought, a lingering presence, both impossible and inevitable.

You talk of complicating things, of building webs of thought only to find there is no spider, no reason, no rhyme. And yet, isn’t it the nature of our minds to tangle ourselves in complexity? To weave stories that spiral out of control, hoping for something to hold on to, even when there’s nothing but empty threads?

In the end, your thoughts linger like a quiet hum, a whisper in the noise of the world, trying to make sense of it all. And perhaps that’s the beauty of it—the uncertainty, the quiet chaos, the searching. You remind me that sometimes we don’t need answers. Sometimes, it’s enough to simply be in the middle of the question, to live in the haze between clarity and confusion. To allow the flowers to bloom, even in the cracks of the grey city. To let the fire burn, even when the world around us is dark.

So, I’ll sit with you in this silence, this wondering. Let’s wait for clarity, but in the meantime, let’s keep speaking, keep feeling, and keep watching the blossoms unfold.

- Akari
Cassian Apr 4
In the silence between the lines,
A storm rages, unfurling the mind.
There’s a whisper of chaos, soft and clear,
A quiet scream that the world won’t hear.

A broken mirror reflects the pain,
Pieces scattered, washed in rain.
Yet still, through the cracks, light seeps through,
A reminder of the things we knew.

The "lack of you" echoes loud,
A void too deep, too dark, too proud.
And yet, the fury we carry, deep within,
Pushes us onward, through thick and thin.

Fire, water—two sides of a flame,
Two hearts, one soul, but never the same.
We walk through crossroads, choices to make,
Stumbling, falling, yet still we wake.

Demons may claw, and nightmares may roam,
But through the darkness, we still find home.
Starved for meaning, hungry for light,
We search for answers in the middle of night.

Prison walls built from the past,
Yet freedom is found when we let go at last.
Through brokenness, through every tear,
There’s a fire inside, burning clear.

So, yes, we’re all broken in some way,
But we stand, and rise, and find our way.
For peace may come after the storm,
And we find our hearts, in a new form.

You speak of demons, of being starved,
But within those words, the truth is carved.
We’re all just fragments, yet still we fight,
Chasing the dawn, seeking the light.

In the fury, the "lack of you," and the breaking—
In all these words, there's life still aching.
A poem for a poet, a soul like you,
Who paints the world with every hue.

- Oliver
Cassian Apr 4
The moonlight whispers, soft as air,
Its glow will vanish with the dawn.
We fade as shadows everywhere.

The fire burns with red and gold,
It crackles like a restless dream.
The winds will carry what’s untold.

Beneath the pale moon, I stand alone,
The sky holds secrets left untold.
Its light upon the earth is shown.

The night will swallow all that’s bright,
And silence falls with soft regret.
In shadows deep, we lose our sight.

The wind it howls through empty skies,
It carries whispers of the past.
Its call is one we can’t disguise.

The sea is silent, dark and wide,
It calls the lost with gentle sway.
Its waves, they crash against the tide.

The watcher waits beneath the sky,
His gaze will pierce the soul of man.
He sees the secrets you deny.

The path is dark, the trees are bare,
Yet still, I walk, despite the cold.
The shadows whisper, filled with care.

The crown is broken, shattered, torn,
Its pieces scattered in the dust.
A king’s last breath, alone, forlorn.

The fire burns, but none can see,
Its warmth will warm the hearts of few.
Yet still, it calls to you and me.

The road is long, and none will stay,
Its path is winding, ever lost.
Yet still, we walk, despite the way.

The song is hollow, lost, and weak,
Its notes are empty in the air.
Yet still, we sing with voices bleak.

The throne is empty, cold, and bare,
Its velvet seat awaits a king.
But none will claim what’s in the air.

The night is endless, full of pain,
Its shadows stretch from dusk to dawn.
Yet still, we wait to break the chain.

The storm will sing its lullaby,
With thunder loud, the skies will cry.
Yet through the rain, we’ll learn to fly.

The watcher stands in silence, still,
His eyes, they pierce the darkest night.
The winds will bend to his command.

The bridge is broken, yet we cross,
With feet unsure, with hearts entwined.
The water rises, deep and lost.

The rose is withered, petals fall,
Yet still, its scent will linger near.
The wind will carry it through all.

The stars have fallen, lost in space,
Their light has dimmed, their beauty gone.
Yet still we chase them, time and place.

The echoes fade, a distant sound,
The voices lost to time and space.
Yet still we hear them all around.

The path is dark, but we will go,
Our feet will trace the ancient way.
With every step, we learn to grow.

A whispered name upon the wind,
It calls to hearts that know the truth.
Its voice will never fade or end.

The song is forgotten, but it stays,
It echoes softly in the mind.
Its melody will never sway.

The mask is shattered, broken, torn,
Its fragments scattered on the ground.
Yet still, we wear it, bruised and worn.

The dream is silent, still and cold,
Its beauty lost to waking time.
Yet in our hearts, it will unfold.

The dance will never cease or end,
It swirls and turns through endless skies.
Yet still, we twist, and still we bend.

The eyes are hollow, full of pain,
They stare through time with vacant grace.
Yet still, they seek, yet still, they gain.

The soul is dark, but still it burns,
It waits within the quiet night.
Yet in its depths, the fire churns.

The wing is broken, yet it flies,
It soars through storms that rage below.
And though it falls, it never dies.

The hope is lost, yet still we pray,
It flickers faintly in the dark.
Yet still, we fight, and still, we stay.

- Hex
Apr 4 · 34
The Wind’s Lament
Cassian Apr 4
The wind it howls through empty skies,
It carries whispers of the past.
Its call is one we can’t disguise.

It weeps for days that slowly rise,
For moments fleeting, yet so vast.
The wind it howls through empty skies.

The world has watched as time defies,
Each breath a storm that cannot last.
Its call is one we can’t disguise.

Through every dream, the wind complies,
It guides us where we stand surpassed.
The wind it howls through empty skies.

Beneath the clouds, the soul it tries,
To find a home, yet remains cast.
Its call is one we can’t disguise.

In quiet hearts, the wind replies,
A song of loss that’s fading fast.
The wind it howls through empty skies,
Its call is one we can’t disguise.
Apr 4 · 37
Echoes in the Dark
Cassian Apr 4
The night will swallow all that’s bright,
And silence falls with soft regret.
In shadows deep, we lose our sight.

The stars will dim, the moon’s alight,
Yet still we hear the softest threat.
The night will swallow all that’s bright.

The echoes of the past ignite,
Each whispered word a cold duet.
In shadows deep, we lose our sight.

Our hopes are lost, our dreams take flight,
And in their place, we feel the debt.
The night will swallow all that’s bright.

The world is veiled in endless night,
Where silence sings a cruel vignette.
In shadows deep, we lose our sight.

Yet still we long to end the fight,
And so we march, our hearts in debt.
The night will swallow all that’s bright,
In shadows deep, we lose our sight.
Apr 4 · 42
Beneath the Pale Moon
Cassian Apr 4
Beneath the pale moon, I stand alone,
The sky holds secrets left untold.
Its light upon the earth is shown.

The night, a dream, so cold as stone,
Its silence whispers, faint and bold.
Beneath the pale moon, I stand alone.

The world will fade, the winds have flown,
And time moves slow, yet hearts still hold.
Its light upon the earth is shown.

Where shadows dance, and stars have grown,
The stories of the lost unfold.
Beneath the pale moon, I stand alone.

I wonder if the stars have known
The way my soul has grown so cold.
Its light upon the earth is shown.

I search the sky, but find no throne,
For kings and queens are bought and sold.
Beneath the pale moon, I stand alone,
Its light upon the earth is shown.
Cassian Apr 4
The fire burns with red and gold,
It crackles like a restless dream.
The winds will carry what’s untold.

The burning sky will soon unfold,
Its flames, they rise with steady gleam.
The fire burns with red and gold.

A tale of ancient wrath, so bold,
The sky ignites with a scream.
The winds will carry what’s untold.

Beneath the storm, hearts will hold,
Their strength is more than it may seem.
The fire burns with red and gold.

Through ash and ember, stories old,
We walk where shadows softly beam.
The winds will carry what’s untold.

In heat and fury, we are sold,
Yet still we chase the fleeting dream.
The fire burns with red and gold,
The winds will carry what’s untold.
Apr 4 · 36
The Night We Dream
Cassian Apr 4
The moonlight whispers, soft as air,
Its glow will vanish with the dawn.
We fade as shadows everywhere.

The stars above are never fair,
They flicker, then they all are gone.
The moonlight whispers, soft as air.

I walk this path with a lost prayer,
The silence presses, dark and drawn.
We fade as shadows everywhere.

The night's embrace, it fills with care,
Yet time betrays, it lingers on.
The moonlight whispers, soft as air.

In dreams, we find a world to share,
But by the morning, all is gone.
We fade as shadows everywhere.

Our souls will dance beyond despair,
But death will call and take them on.
The moonlight whispers, soft as air,
We fade as shadows everywhere.
Cassian Apr 4
Beneath the silver moon, she walked,
With whispers trailing through the trees,
A girl who never spoke aloud,
But knew the language of the breeze.

She wore her secrets in the folds
Of midnight’s velvet, soft and deep,
And with each step, the shadows swirled,
A dance they promised never to keep.

She wandered far from city lights,
Where lanterns flickered, dimmed and died,
And in the forest, dark and wide,
She sought the place where dreams reside.

Her name was lost to memory,
A name she’d never dare recall,
For in her heart, she carried grief
Too heavy for a name to hold.

The stars above her whispered low,
Of things she’d done, of things she’d seen,
Of all the roads she walked alone,
And places where she’d never been.

Once, she’d loved a golden boy,
With eyes as bright as summer skies,
They danced beneath the dawn’s first light,
And kissed beneath the evening’s sighs.

But time, as cruel as time can be,
Tore them apart with bitter hands,
And left her standing at the door
Of a love that never had a chance.

Now, her steps were soft and slow,
Each one a silent plea for peace,
To find the place where broken things
Could finally, gently, find release.

The forest knew her heart’s desire,
It knew the pain she tried to hide,
And in its arms, it wrapped her tight,
And let the night become her guide.

For here, within the whispering trees,
She found her answer, soft and still—
The world would break, and time would flee,
But she could heal, if she stood still.

And so, beneath the endless sky,
She let the darkness take its claim,
No longer lost in past regrets,
She danced alone, and spoke her name.
Apr 4 · 104
My identity
Cassian Apr 4
I want to cut my hair

Not just as a change of style

But to express how I feel inside

To make myself more comfortable

Living in my own skin

I want to cut it short

Shorter than ever before

More boyish than not

I want to cut my hair

A short, fluffy wolf cut

Even if it means more people

At school will mock me for

Being queer as they throw

Their slurs at me like stones

I wonder if those idiots know

That before it was used to describe

A gay person.. The word ****** meant

A bundle of sticks used for fuel

And in some countries

When talking about a

Cigarette they call

It a ***

I wonder

Who is

The

******

Now.

You thought I didn't hear you?
Apr 4 · 53
Today
Cassian Apr 4
I don't feel awake without the rain

Perhaps a misconnection in my brain

The sun makes me groggy and unhappy

But the shadows are my safe space

And sometimes I wish to say

Not today, but they wake me up

Toss me around

Throw me outside

Let me fall on the ground

Wish I didn't need to do it today

But, my friend, have a good day

Because today is another day

- Hex
For Cloudydaze
Apr 4 · 89
Hey, there, boy
Cassian Apr 4
Hey, there, boy

This one is for you

Your words are far

Too mature for your age

I find I might just love your brain

I could read all your poems

If you'd ask me to

Turn them into a song

Make a playlist and play them

All night long

You write for your friends

You write for your family

You write for love

But my favorite poems of yours

Are when you write for yourself

Your poems are beautiful.

- Hex
For Abbott J Hardison
Apr 4 · 114
Hey, you...
Cassian Apr 4
Hey, you...

I think you're beautiful

Such a lovely girl

Your poems make

Me laugh and cry

Smile and think

Graceful as a

Skater on the rink

I love your mind

The words you use

The imagery is

Lovely

It's

True

- Hex
To all the girls I've followed on here
Apr 4 · 57
Marbles In My Pocket
Cassian Apr 4
Marbles in my pocket

Little ***** of glass

My pieces of light

From the sun

Marbles in my pocket

I think I could love

The one they were from

Marbles in my pocket

You picked em just for me

My smile, you like to see

Marbles in my pocket

And you

Sitting

Next

To

Me

- Raeyza
Apr 4 · 40
Nice to meet you
Cassian Apr 4
Nice to meet you

Let's be friends

You're so cool

It's true!

Let's see how this ends

You're not a fool!

It's true

Long ago, you became

The love of my life

But nice to meet you

I'll just love you again

Remind you since you

Have forgotten now

The feel of my hands

And my lips

My voice

And name

Sometimes

I hate the

Human

Brain

- Aspen
Apr 2 · 50
drifting away
Cassian Apr 2
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The words drift, like liquid streams,
Catching the light, reflecting dreams.
A soft hush in the swirling air,
Where echoes of silence softly care.

Through winding paths, the rhythm flows,
Whispers of stories the current knows.
In every curve, a tale is spun,
As time dances with the setting sun.

Let the o’s become the beat,
The commas, pauses where hearts meet.
Each turn and twist, each fleeting rhyme,
A dance that moves through endless time.
Apr 2 · 38
cat and mouse
Cassian Apr 2
You think I am a fish
Meant for you to catch

You have the bait
Dangling before my face

You expect me to come
To let you claim me

You believe I am
Meant for your sharp claws

A game of cat and mouse
You think you are in charge

But the roles have been reversed
I am the predator now

So run while you can
Before I do what you'd asked

And I go to take your hand
You used to say to...

Catch you if I can...
Apr 2 · 67
girls at school
Cassian Apr 2
You're questioning my mental health

But you don't want to help

You feel better being seen with me

The exposure makes you feel pretty

I am not so desperate that I need your

Hollow friendship or your fake words

I have one friend, and I will put them first
Apr 2 · 46
How do I say this..?
Cassian Apr 2
How do I say this?

I am not perfect

I am not always happy

Life doesn't always feel worth it

And sometimes I want to cry

But there's so much left to do til I die

There is so much left to do til I die

I was born with my mother's eyes

My father's nose and a smile that glows

Sometimes life is hard

And sometimes it feels empty

Some people left me feeling like...

A discarded ball in the backyard

But if I stop to think

And listen without noise

I feel like I may be quite petty

Complaining about all the

People who don't get me

Life isn't cupcakes and rainbows

But I still think the sky is pretty
Mar 27 · 100
Forget Me Not
Cassian Mar 27
Hands clasped on my chest

Eyes closed to all the rest

Boquet pressed upon my breast

My love's been put to the test

Forget me not, dear dreamer

I still wish to hold your hand

Always such a light sleeper...

But I'm still your biggest fan

I'll always wish to be your man

Do you remember the day...

Where we first met?

Of course you don't...

The second time you've

Forgotten me now

But I could wait

A hundred years

Just to see you smile

But darling...

Forget me not

Even if its

Too late

Now..
For E
Mar 26 · 67
Not mine
Cassian Mar 26
Breathe in, breathe out

I am not quite sad

For I am not without

You are by my side

Even though it's

Different this time

And your happiness

Is my source of pride

I don't care that you

Are not mine

All I want

Is you to

Be fully

Happy
just keep smiling for me - Mune
Mar 26 · 45
Honestly...
Cassian Mar 26
Honestly, I do not feel sad

No, not quite, and I am not mad

You hurt me, but did not break my heart

For I can still love you when we're apart

Healing is a process that will take time

But warmth fills my heart, remembering

When you were mine, and so I shall sit

Happily and free, as I remember you and me

One day we'll try again, and if not, we'll be friends

Your smile is all I desire to see, and your happiness

Has always been all that matters to me
- Obsidian
Mar 26 · 59
I fell
Cassian Mar 26
I fell from my podium

The tightrope string

It simply snapped

They all sat in shock

Then everyone laughed

I was so young... like a bird

I used to sing

Then uncertainty tapped

Upon my door

He threw a rock

I fell off my raft

Sank on my way

To shore

I was so naive

Believed in everything

My sanity they sapped

Listening as they talk

Perhaps I was quite daft

I fell for a lie

And now I cry
Mar 26 · 87
Sink or Swim
Cassian Mar 26
Sink or swim?

You never know

So it is best

To take it slow

Go take a break

Go get some rest

It's a piece of cake

You should just blink

Dont jump in on a whim

Will we sink or swim?
Mar 26 · 431
As did you
Cassian Mar 26
I fell in love

As did you

I clung too tightly

As did you

I dreamt of a forever

As did you

I swore to keep it strong

As did you

I tried to make it better

As did you

I sat there crying alone

As did you

So let us try to be friends

Maybe try again

Back to when it began

Before I fell in love

Before you did too

Because one day around the bend

Maybe twenty years from now

I think I'll say I loved you

You'll say you loved me too

Maybe we'll just stay friends

Or get married in distant years

Cuz I can say I fell in love

And as did you
sometimes you just need to try again
Mar 26 · 43
As did you
Cassian Mar 26
I fell in love

As did you

I clung too tightly

As did you

I dreamt of a forever

As did you

I swore to keep it strong

As did you

I tried to make it better

As did you

I sat there crying alone

As did you

So let us try to be friends

Maybe try again

Back to when it began

Before I fell in love

Before you did too

Because one day around the bend

Maybe twenty years from now

I think I'll say I loved you

You'll say you loved me too

Maybe we'll just stay friends

Or get married in distant years

Cuz I can say I fell in love

And as did you
sometimes.. you just need to restart, right?
Mar 4 · 105
changed view
Cassian Mar 4
Sometimes, at night, I sit and cry

Not giving a **** about life and wishing to die

But then I met you and got to make you mine

Started to convince myself everything'll be fine

But still, that darkness creeps in with hands so cold

And it asks me, "What's so great about growing old?"

In the morning I see you again and on your face a smile

Perhaps it would be okay to live for a while..

My world is now dyed a whole new hue

After you appeared and changed my view
Mar 2 · 64
not now
Cassian Mar 2
..Waited all day for presents that never came

As all my hopes were washed down the drain

Maybe they'll arrive on Monday is what they say

I guess they just don't understand how important

It is for a teenager to get presents on their birthday

Mine from them is a surprise, which I hate beyond

Demise, they say, that I'll find out at the end of April

But that is a month and a half away from now....
Mar 1 · 203
:>
Cassian Mar 1
:>
Happy Birthday to me?
Now I am seventeen

What present will I get?
Guess I gotta wait and see
Feb 28 · 85
Does anyone know?
Cassian Feb 28
When did I stop being a Christian?  
Was it recent, a slow unraveling thread,  
Or years ago, when innocence first bled,  
Or was it when I was just a child—  
A child who learned to hide,  
To lock the questions deep inside?  

I wonder now, in the stillness of night,  
If I ever truly wore that name,  
A child of God, with hands to pray—  
Or if it was all just a game,  
A story told to make me whole,  
While I searched for pieces to fill my soul.  

I preferred the cold whispers in the dark,  
The voices of ghosts, who never turned away,  
Their secrets wrapped in shadows,  
A quiet comfort in their disarray.  
They never judged, never shamed,  
They simply listened as I called their name.  

The demons, too, had something real,  
A certain power, a certain fire,  
That spoke to something raw inside,  
A hunger that matched my desire.  
They didn't try to fix my wounds,  
But held them gently, like forgotten tunes.  

And in the light, I found no grace,  
Only empty words, a hollow space.  
Pastors spoke of love and light,  
But I couldn't find it in their eyes—  
Only promises that never met the sky,  
Only answers I knew were lies.  

When did I stop believing, I ask—  
Was it when I first saw the cracks?  
Or was it always there, a flicker, a breath,  
That pushed me toward the edge of death?  
I no longer know what it means to pray,  
Or if I ever truly did, anyway.  

I am the child who wandered away,  
Chasing things that didn't stay,  
Now left with echoes, silent and cold,  
Wondering where I lost my hold.  
The ghosts and demons are still my friends,  
But do they heal? Or just pretend?  

So here I stand, with hands unmet,  
A soul that’s tired, but can't forget—  
The longing for something pure,  
The search for something to endure.  
Maybe I stopped being a Christian long ago,  
But the question still haunts me—*does anyone know?
Feb 28 · 139
I don't care about God
Cassian Feb 28
I know there are many here who pray,  
So if my words aren't yours today,  
Please turn away, for this is mine—  
A truth I carry, yours not to define.  

When they speak of God, their voices pure,  
I can't take it in, can't feel secure.  
For God was not there when I called,  
In moments dark, when I had fallen.  

I search for answers in the silence, deep,  
Wondering why I was left to weep.  
So when they speak of faith and grace,  
I question if it's just a trace.  

I don’t deny their right to believe,  
But in my heart, there's a different weave.  
For God was absent when I needed light,  
Leaving me alone in the longest night.
Feb 28 · 123
Sold my soul
Cassian Feb 28
I sold my soul when I was twelve,  
Whispering wishes to the stars above,  
Asking for love and wealth untold,  
A dream too heavy for a heart so bold.  

At fourteen, I worked beneath the sun,  
Chasing the promises I thought I’d won,  
Each dollar earned, each task I’d do,  
Building a life I never knew.  

But now, at almost seventeen,  
I see the truth where once was green—  
It wasn’t riches that filled the void,  
But the love I found, the heart I enjoyed.  

So here I stand, both lost and found,  
A life that swirls in endless sound,  
For in your eyes, I finally see,  
The love I sought was meant to be.
Feb 28 · 54
What right do I have?
Cassian Feb 28
What right do I have to light their way,  
When shadows cling to me each day?  
How can I offer joy or cheer,  
When inside, darkness is all I fear?  

I stand and smile, a fragile mask,  
Hiding the weight of each unspoken task.  
What worth are my words, my soft embrace,  
When my heart drifts in a hollow space?  

Yet still, I try, despite the storm,  
To bring warmth, to help transform—  
For in my giving, I too might heal,  
And find in others the strength I feel.  

So even broken, I’ll still give,  
For sometimes it’s through others we learn to live.
Cassian Feb 28
How can I make you smile, I wonder,  
A flicker of light, soft as thunder?  
A word, a gesture, simple and true,  
A quiet moment shared with you.  

Should I paint the sky in hues of blue,  
Or gather stars to light your view?  
Perhaps a song, so sweet and mild,  
To stir the heart, to make you wild?  

Could a laugh, like wind, break through,  
The clouds that veil the sun's warm hue?  
Or a touch, so gentle, yet sincere,  
To calm your soul, to draw you near?  

How can I make you smile, my dear?  
With every breath, with every tear,  
I search for ways, with hope, with grace,  
To light your heart, to warm your face.
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