Can you classify my recent week as a binge week?
The burn makes its frequent returns down my throat
Holiday savings all thrown into the bottle
"Go to sleep, Lauren"
Sleep, where he returns
Where he kisses me ever so softly, and lays my back on his bed
Blacking out is more comforting
No dreams
No memories
Only the morning regret

That's the word my mother used
When she found me passed out of the floor
Pill bottle next to my drooling face
Budweiser at hand
As if it could have been my gun
I woke up in my Sunday's best in my yellow coated sheets
I had always preferred beds without sheets
She used the word again, now that I was conscious
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"I thought you two were still friends"
Like he would ever want me
I am the liar
noraA is the thief
5'1 isn't tall enough to hang a noose
I see no reasons to stay
But they're making me
So, goodbye Hello Poetry
Greetings, all white walls
Wish me luck.

It came out positive
I can't breathe
I wish I could faint
But my body stays conscious
Was it worth it, Luca?
His eyes on your body for those twenty minutes
His lips on your neck
His breath on your ear
I don't look different
I don't feel the life growing inside of me
Do I destroy the object of our bond?
This isn't an object...
This is a person
This is a baby
This is my baby

know that when you leave
i will be lifeless
for now you make your frequent returns
the lust is mutual
it keeps you close to me
so i allow being used
the sly smile you give me when you want something
something only i in the moment can give
i have never rejected
anything for you to stay
even for the interim amount of time
the action that was once acted out to show the greatest arount of love is now the dirtiest secret
your focus on me for the brief amount of time is worth the weeks of tears
your concentration is my most prized possession
please for once give into my needs...

Could you ever love me like I love you?
Something as simple as your name being said gave me pleasurable shivers up and down my spine
Your warm breathe on my neck...
I can feel it now
Your arms enclosing me in the warmth of your love
Mmmm...
But it's all gone now
You'll never return
I'm hungry for your kiss
Your touch
My tear stained cheeks are camouflaged by cheap cover up
My sorrows are lifted by THC
It's a dangerous thing for me to be left alone with my thoughts
I am at night
The makeup and the marijuana fade
True sorrows come back to haunt me
You're gone...
And you're not coming back...

I could try to forget you
My most beautiful, reminding muse
My reality check, my way of reason
The one who have revealed the disgusting truth to me
My baby, my first, my supreme
My protector
You made sure everything was perfect that night
Save me from regret
With the movement of your hips
Your lips creating cursive poems
Touch her or don't
Just let her know where you've been
Most perfect, darling H

you're suffocated with me
but i can't breathe without you