Someway, somehow
I think writing
will bring me closer to you
somehow

I'm just writing to you
and you silently watch my words
like a ghost

How is it possible
that I know everything about you
and nothing about you
at the same time?

when you were gone
i missed you
when you were sad
i kissed you in my thoughts
when you were mad
i thought it was cute
shocked at how all
in love i was with you

it was never lust
and i don't ever think i ever said
that you were someone
that i trusted
but i felt close
just a bit
now i am withered down
and rusted

left me in the dust
cause' your life is such a rush
thought we were best friends for real
how would it make you feel?
if i always blew you off
and acted it was wrong
that i was so in love
thinking that
we were close

well i was wrong
missing you
i sing this song

i wanna come back,
but the same thing'll happen
you'll just forget about me faster
i see myself get in the car,
the seat belt i fasten
probably crying to the music im blasting

i was wrong
missing you
i sing this song

I hold you
in my mind
close to
the afterlife

teach me
how to unwind
teach me
how to rewind

you are
so divine
I am
human, blind

to the
spiritual ecstasy
so perfect next to me
vision, vision,
vision in my mind
teach me, teach me,
teach me how to die

How to die
teach me
teach me
how to die

Can you make my eyes roll to the back of my head?

when my eyes are aching and tooth is throbbing in my jaw? and I'm clenching my teeth at night and stressed out by being in love with someone who wouldn't care if

Additional thoughts:

I got eaten by a saber tooth tiger?

use my power,
use my will
to burn you against
my own grill

my own heaven,
my own hell
where you bleed out
in my jail

i'm so ******
i'm so cursed
because i like it
when you hurt

make you suffer
feel the release
the revenge
of the beast

the beast within me
bites and gnaws
gives you shivers
makes your skin crawl

widen my eyes
and open my jaw
take a chomp
grab the saw

i wont lie, i want to create a hell
and drown you in my wishing well
i wanna you hang you by a hook
let you take one last look

the reflection of your face
regret as you fall from grace.