The need to wake up early
But I can not sleep at night
My mind is too **** swirly
Full of pain from a harsh bite
A chunk of happiness, gone
The wound not healing soon
I remember them every dawn
Are they remembered by you?
Probably means nothing to you
I stayed up to provide comfort
This is where our bonding grew
Me helping when you are hurt
These nights remain haunting
The pain from before; taunting
It never faded from my head
I feel as if I am now just dead
When I have a full night of sleep
I will be dead in my own grave
I'll sleep once my body is deep
And there is nothing left to save
Sleepless nights haunt me now
And will continue until I'm gone

I try hard at all I do
Yet I always fail
I try to pay attention
Yet I still doze off
I try to walk proud
Yet I slouch in pain
I try to be composed
Yet I break down
I feel worthless now
No value left in me
I am a wasted soul
Walking amongst the world

As time passes by
I sulk in my misery
I try hard not to cry
But it destroys me
Losing many tears
My soul is now dry
As over these years
I continuously die
From birth to death
I feel pain repeated
Like I am on ****
Until I am defeated
I fight what I can
And avoid the rest
I am a lonely man
With a heavy chest
I see no end in sight
Life moves too fast
I must rest my soul
To end, good night

A sweet and tender smile
Crisp and beautiful eyes
Luscious long brown hair
A simple and petite frame
Making my time worth while
Beauty even when she cries  
Wishing she was always there
Forever and always my claim
A laugh that enlightens my life
On my mind day in and day out
Talking all that we possibly can
Staying up late to discuss our day
She pulls me out of everyday strife
There anytime I give her a shout
Never leaving me for another man
I promise never to harm her in any way
I wish now to find the girl of my dreams
I will find her somehow by any means
She will make my life seem complete
And I wish to not face more bitter defeat

The lavish red of amaryllis
To the dullness of a full fern
Nature is full of true beauty
Letting others have their turn
The smooth blue of hydrangea
No match for the sweet carnation
Full bloom excites the active mind
Much more that a grand vacation
The daffodil's eye popping structure
Is unlike the chrysanthemum spray
Pointed edges point in new directions
For you to be able to follow every day
The orchid with it's numerous variations
Can not be tamed by the colorful tulip
The stem of the orchid shows a long life
Full of tranquility only at a tequila's sip
Enjoy the beautiful flowers around you
Everyday, you will see something new
You may see rarities seem by just a few
And you'll see something you never knew

I miss all of those deep feelings
Of caring so much for someone
Telling them "I love you so much"
Thinking and dreaming about them
I miss thinking about them all day
Nonstop thoughts drown my head
About how beautiful she is to me
I imagine how other people see us
"They are such a beautiful couple"
"They are so cute together" I imagine
I wish I had all of these feelings back
Sleeping well at night without a fright
Relaxing days go in to peaceful nights
Only if I have all of these feelings back
But, I do still have some of these feelings
They never left my dying heart and soul
I often still think and dream about her
She still haunts me when I tell her to leave
I still have nightmares of you and death
I can't destroy these now unwanted feelings
I only wish now, I had someone else to see
Someone else to call beautiful and sweet
I wish that now, I can find happiness again
And regain all of the lost feelings I once had

I honestly do not have a clue
I always seems to feel strange
When I see or think about you
It seems out of realities range
I haven't felt this way in awhile
I think I'm beginning to like you
It may just end with me in denial
But it's a risk I'll take for us two
I feel like waiting for the right time
But that time we may never see
These feelings are in the prime
And it's now life or death for me