River Scott

River Scott May 2015

I discovered what love is.

Love is a concept
That most adults
Can't explain in simple terms

But at the age of 17
I realized what it is

Love is understanding
Yourself
And the other person
And realizing,
Neither of you are perfect
And that life is hard
But as long as the other is happy

You can be happy too

-r.y.s

"It takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it to know what true freedom is" - Lana Del Rey

#love #freedom #happy #ryan

River Scott Apr 2015

Rainy Day

The rain pours
And pours
The roads flood
The ground turns to mush

And yet I spend my day
Not in the rain
Not in the lost thought of sadness
Not in the fear of death

But in the thought of you.

-r.y.s

It rains and pours and you keep me from the eternal sadness that follows

#fear #death #day #thought #ground #flood #rainy #roads #ryan #sandness

River Scott Apr 2015

Self harm

self harm takes many forms
from wrist lined in white
to burns on thighs

but i learned
it's much more than that
it's holding everything in
it's those negative thoughts i think
it's when I bite my inner lip
to remind myself that
any day,
i could decide i don't want to live

self harm is
so much more
than those white lines
or burn marks.

-r.y.s

I was never one to put a blade to my skin, so I found other ways instead.

#suicide #cutting #self #harm #suicidal #burning #selfharm #triggers

River Scott Apr 2015

Untitled

i write my words
to show the world how I feel
and yet,
i refuse to share them.

-r.y.s

I got asked to read my poetry at an arts thing and I'm scared to do it.

#poetry #writing #sharing

River Scott Apr 2015

Kryptonite

its funny
i've always told myself
weakness is tears
and emotions
that threaten to show
your true self to the world

but i've slowly learned
it's not just those things
my weaknesses are so much more
they are things like bad days
things like bad moments
things like good days
and good moments

my biggest weakness
i've discovered
is you

you have complete influence
over me
and you don't know it
you are my first waking thought
and my last conscious thought
my dreams revolve around you

i know no greater weakness
than my love for you.

-r.y.s

I hate feeling weak.

#love #first #truth #tears #days #good #bad #emotions #moments #weakness

River Scott Apr 2015

Packing

i pack my life
the past 8 years
into boxes
and into a car
and as i drive off
i realize how
little and insignificant
you are in these years
and yet,
you were the most important memory.

We moved and everything reminded me of you.

#life #years #insignificant #moving #little #drive #ryan #packing

River Scott Apr 2015

You are missing

there's something missing
a hole in everything I do
a hole in my existence

i hate to say it
but sweetheart, you
you are what's missing

i try to deny
that i miss you
day in and day out

it's hard to move on
when that's emptiness is there
and you seem to be all that fits

i just want you
back by side
to love me forever.

-r.y.s

I keep trying to move on, but I can't do it.

I'm trying to write everyday now. I stopped and I hated it.

#love #life #soul #you #on #hole #miss #move #sweetheart #ryan