"i'll save you, always." his voice was full of emotions, as he drowned in the depth of brown irises in front of him.
"No you can't...
you can't always save me" the flakes of darkness tainting her angelic voice brought him back in time
and it was when he realised
she was right.

She was the one
always working hard
obeying the elders
never letting her heart lead
sacrificing her wishes
suffocating the dreams
as she was the good girl
They told her
to follow her heart
always ...
to let go and
live to the fullest
only complicating
her already arduous life
as it made stronger
her rebellious side
making it hard for her
to obey the orders
for once she listened
and let her heart have its way
and it was then
they called her a **Bad girl

One early morning,
standing on the seashore,
facing the horizon,
watching the sun rise,
aware of the waves making the wet
sand move under her feet as they
leave after kissing her feet ...
The saltish air adding to the
heaviness of atmosphere ..
Feeling the early morning breeze
cold against her pale face...
Staring at infinity ...
Folding her arms across her chest,
inhaling deeply, closing her eyes ...
ignoring the only rebellious tear
rolling down her cheek,
she made her decision ...
To be strong ...
To face reality ...
To smile ...
To shine ...
Leaving her soul to drown in deep
blue sea as she walked away to face
life.

What it feels like
To feel like a deserted path
that no one takes
because they have fears
because they dont know where it leads
and are afraid to take
the risks ...
To feel like an
abandoned ship
stuck in the middle
of strom struck deep
blue sea ?
To feel like
a jumbled up puzzle
with a missing piece
destined never to be
found ...

I don't know how or why
but he saw himself in her
though they were miles apart
destined to remain strangers
forever...
He felt protective of her
because he knew
what pain could do to her
as he had been there
at the verge of pain
He feared her suffering
from self torture
because he loved it too,
he tried his best to save her
because by saving her
He was Saving Himself !!

heart yearns for peace
a drop of which
would fill the soul
up to the brink
the kind that is not found
under purple skies
but
in the smile of a new born !!

Sometimes
i want you
to be the Title
of my next story
but then
writing your story
would mean
telling the world
about
your scars
that never healed
your wounds
that always bleed
your battles
that never end
your pain
that you always hide
it's only then
i dont want to
write your story !!

Ragged breathing, tangled legs
Beating hearts, a crazy mess,
wrinkled sheets, so you'd know,
Two souls basking in the afterglow !!

Standing all alone ...
in the middle of a dark day ...
feeling nothing but, ...
a bit grey ...
Watching the colors ...
as they fade away ...
mind full of words ...
but left with nothing to say ...
loosing the silver lining ...
her eyes were about to cry ...
fighting with her mind ...
the heart begged ...
GIVE IT A TRY!! ...
her lips fluttered ...
as she was falling grey ...
running out of time ...
her only option was to pray ...
Prayer whispered ...
listened ...
& answered ...
Feeling blessed ...
she found a new way ...
as now it was a colorful bright
day !!

After a long journey
He was finally there,
now surrounded by
locked doors
destined to remain closed,
high walls
never giving a way in,
blue sea
created to be never crossed,
he gave up one day,
never realizing that it was all
a figment of imagination
as he was trapped
in the illusion of reality !!

Night starts fading,
stars begin to yawn;
time slowly drifts towards
the most awaited dawn...

They called him
procrastinator
but he only was
apprehensive of the fact
that his words
may go unrewarded
he always was so reluctant
to mold his feelings into words
and voice them out
that was only why
she never heard one reason
of why she should stay
losing her all hopes
tired of aimless wait
she decided to leave
he tried to say those words
but it was too late
drowning in the sea of regrets
his apprehension transformed
into full blown fear
about his words
going to waste
and remain unnoticed
it was then he decided
to follow his heart
and to never let his fear
make him lose
what he loves !!

Surrounded by the darkness,
with no light to see,
She felt her shadow leaving,
setting her free.
with growing emptiness all around,
under her feet there was no
ground.
she decided then
to call her friend,
but she got no answer
from the other end.
left in the darkness
all on her own
she began to fade
reason being alone
fading into nothingness
she realized a fact
not a real friendship,
but it was a mere act.
finding a fake friend
was written in her fate
but to get up and move on
it's never too late
giving up on this world
she created her own
with no fake people
and no hatred grown
in her new world
she found friends then
they were the white paper
and the deep blue pen.

Darkness
consuming my sanity,
leaving a crack in the soul
for
demons to gain access
to the
inner world !!

the rain drops knocked at her
window
drawing her attention
to the night sky
covered by dark
clouds that reeked blue.
Holding on to curtains
she slowly closed eyes
inhaling deeply
she filled her lungs
with air allowing blueness
to get absorbed in her blood.
waiting for blueness to stain
her soul,
forced smile appeared
on her face
as she saw a tear
escaping her eye n hiding
among raindrops
Rain provided her with a shoulder
to cry herself out,
Unnoticed,
no questions asked,
roaring sky muffled
her sobs
to keep her secret

He was like
an ancient book
she wanted to
read him
word by word

He was like
a mysterious castle
she wanted to
explore his
every path

He was like
a jumbled up puzzle
she wanted to
solve him
piece by piece

He was like
an old wine
she wanted to
taste him
sip by sip

He was like
a locked door
she wanted to
open so,
kept on knocking

He was like
a lost soul
she wanted to
find him
but never could !!

no one knew about his demons
and so he kept it  
a secret
that he never shared
even with himself.
His demons grew stronger
feeding on his only fear
of getting exposed
to world as
man with demons
trapped inside,
they bit and
clawed his soul ...
And now the world
knew him as
man with ragged soul !!

The moon,
peeking through
my window
raising tides in my mind
urging me to write
your story !!

Sometimes i wish for fame,
so that every body knows my
name,
but then i have a fear..
To which no one gives an ear.
The Fear i'll be known by all
making it easy for them to make
me fall ..
I fear how this fame thing ends ..
Person stands alone,
left with no friends.
the fear that hollow people will
surround
leaving me with no place to go
around.
the fear they'll call me lame,
the fear i may lose the game...
And then i don't want any fame
so that NO ONE KNOWS MY NAME ...

and then there were nights
when she craved pain ...
cause a pain stemming from
a **** on her arm could save
her from the ache
originating from her heart

and then there were days
when she begged death
to set her free ...
cause in those moments
she felt her heart entrapped
in cage

and then there were his words
all soothing and caring
it was when she wanted
nothing but to live
protected in his arms
listening his heart, beat ..

and then there was edge of light ..
where she was standing
right where darkness begins
waiting for him to decide
either to save her soul
or let the darkness take over !!

And sometimes i wish
to hide
to fade
or just to evaporate
leaving behind
no trace...

She knew,
she was different
and that
she wont fit in
they'd never accept her
as the real her
she knew
there are boundaries
always to be kept
and
there are lines
never to be stepped on
that there are limits
never to be crossed...

They knew
she was different
and that
being different was
not here choice
it was in her
like an instinct
and knew the chances
of her dying
if they tried to
change her
but still
they ordered her to
change !!

Surrendering to them
just to be accepted
and
to be normal
like others
she decided to change
and
after fighting a war
killing her dreams
and a part of her soul
she was finally able
to supress her
wired side and
was Ordinary
like others !!

Those
winter mornings
when
air stands still
sky feels grey
trees hold their breath
sun covered in mist
silence drips from clouds
like they all are
grieving for
a broken heart
or
a dead dream !!

One dark night with no moon on sky ...
With stars failing to lit up the night
...
He was sitting by the window of his
room, allowing darkness to engulf
him ...
holding the burning
cigarette between his fingers - the
only light in room.
Exhaling his inner bitterness, the
rings of smoke leaving his lips
making air a bit more impure,
His eyes darkened to a deeper
shade of black the fire he was
holding in was causing the oceans
in his eyes to evaporate ... Leaving
behind nothing but the dry sand .. A
barren desert.
The only voice shattering the thick
silence of room was of his soul
cracking as he witnessed the death
of his dreams.

she watched the clouds,
taking over the sky.
she watched the sun,
going down the horizon.
she watched silently...
everybody leaving her side.
she watched the words,
loosing their meaning.
she watched the crystalline,
drops falling from sky...
and then she decided
to let the dreams die.

The darkness
trickled down
the window pane,
temperature dropped down
a bit,
silence grew thicker
as her heart skipped
a beat,
atmosphere reeked fear,
she ****** in a breath
as she heard her
inner demons knock
at her soul's door !!

when the falling rain drops
generated purple music
and last rays of evening sun
painted the clouds crimson,
she felt nothing but blue !!

The change in air -
Marking the new beginings
as the summer sun
starts weaving its cocoon
and weather morphs
its nastiness to Charm

#Winters

What if i tell you
its not the Writing
that i'm addicted to
its the Power
the power to create
the power to make reader
feel for the characters
that dont even exist in real
the power to convert letters
in to words,
words in to sentences,
sentences into story,
story doped with feelings
that make people laugh
that make them cry
that makes them sad
and happy too
whatever YOU want
them to Feel !!

Spread the wings,
Dare to fly.
Come with me;
Lets touch the sky.
Follow the light,
let darkness die ...
Just live the moment,
Dont ask me why ...
See the world ...
With a different eye..
Face the facts,
With head held high...
Cherish this life,
Dont just cry;
The sorrow will fade ..
In the blink of an eye.

If only lucky ones
get a good
or a best friend
then surely
i'm the one with
Worst Luck !!

They ask me if i'm hurt
they ask me if i'm angry
they ask me to give them reason
they claim to know me much
i smile
becausewhat they don't know  is
i'm never that kind of person
who will tell them what wrong they have done
and discuss that problem away
rather i'm more like
if you dont know
what your mistake is
you dont deserve to know
kind of person ...