Guess I am single
Maybe ready to mingle
Yet
Every time I put the effort in
My heart is taken for a spin

Downtown
Where I’m left to drown
Smiling
Because I told myself no
That this happiness would all be a show

But I guess I’m too easy
Cause your silence makes me queasy
Today
All I wanted was our old talks
Or even go for a little walk

We could talk for hours
Underneath the showers
Of stars
Brightening my day
Because I thought it'd all be okay

I warned myself to never trust
Or turn myself in to this lust
Inside
For your sincerity
Instead I’m turned into a new parody

What I find the most out landing
Is the way you left me standing
In the tears you let me shed
Alone at night in my own bed

It’s funny, you see
How YOU got the best of me
And every day I try to think
About what I saw inside that wink

And when I come to think about it
There isn’t a thing I miss one bit
Because you ignored me for your friends
And the hurting would never end

Because you always told me you fought
And soon it then became a thought
That maybe you really were trying
Maybe you weren’t lying

But during this manipulation
I also had some fluctuation
With all of my different moods
And what could count for food

But I refused to see
That you couldn’t be the one for me
Because as you’d always say
You would never run away

Please take notice
As I choke this
Rhyme onto these pages
I’m done paying my wages

To a ‘man’ who couldn’t be
Or grow up enough to see
That love was not a game
And I was not one to tame

I give him credit, he did try
But when the tears came to my eyes
He wasn’t strong enough to lift
The pieces as my mind fell adrift

Don’t get me wrong though
I wish there’d be no awkward hellos
Or shifted glances
But I’ll take my chances

On taking initiative
Hell, I’ve already forgived
Because I now know it wasn’t made to be
It just took awhile for me to see

Finally, I can now move on
I am no longer your pawn
So king me
Cause I am free

I’m not sure how I’m supposed to feel
Because everything seems so unreal
Maybe I should have fought
[for everything I was never taught]

Sometimes, you get to me
But only because I couldn’t make you see
How I am broken
[with the words left unspoken]

Building and piling up
To the surface- where a smile lays on top
Because you should never forget
[but also never let them know your regrets]

Leaving untold emotions
As calm and unsettling as the ocean
Underneath those sad blue eyes
[a smile is your best disguise]

This feeling inside is stirring
But I’m not quite sure what’s occurring
Inside of this blonde bombshell
[deep in the pits of her secret hell]

She is starting to decay
Because the past is still yesterday
But I am thinking about tomorrow
[wishing I didn’t feel any of my sorrows]

There is no love in ***, honey
Here we only do it for the money
We do it before we become old hags
We do it for that feel good drag

Bang, bang, choo choo train
Wrap her up into those chains
Give her your best shot
What about those gels you bought?

Maybe we should play a game
You be the bad boy I should tame
Teach you a lesson
No asking any questions

Make her moan
She’ll make you groan
Until a knocking at the door
And the next day she’s called a *****

So says the media
Everyone wants a piece of ya
*** shorty shake it down
Show them how you run the town

She’s the queen bee
There on her knees
Hey, he said down in front
So now she’ll have to make him grunt

**** that, I make them say please
They all think I’m just a tease
But I like it
So I won’t quit

**** me like a rolling stone
Go ahead feed me the bone
Nice girls finish last
Good thing nice girl’s in the past

I know I’ve said erasing it
                Is not facing it
And that to face something takes bravery
Well, I’m done crying
And I’m sick of waiting
For something that will never happen

I’m sorry I missed you
And that I fell for
                “unconditional” love provided
Through thick and thin
Until the final spin
When you split

Slowly but surely
                You erased the happiness
The love we had
For one another
Slide it under the cover
To be buried with me

Now, it’s my turn
Never thought it'd come to this
                So much for learning to trust
Instead ill learn to erase
And delete every last place
I secretly hold you in

I faced it
                And I took the beating hard
While he ran
And left me standing
On a ledge looking up, praying
For answers

I’m done hurting
Done with thinking you won’t leave
                That you couldn’t have left
So I’m going to block you
From my memories for a new
Day that I will get through

My wires are
tangled up
Strangled up
And tied tight
To the chains
Keeping me down

Its time
I know
I saw the flier
Time to
Get some pliers
**** this wire

Disconnected
But the freedom
Feels too good
To go back
I wont go back
Never again
Cant hold me down

These scars
Burned on by
Hot wires strangling
While I was dangling
Above the surface
No arms
To catch me

Twisted
Red to black
Blue to yellow
Orange to white
Wrong, wrong, wrong
Get your head
******* on right

**** these wires
And your jeans
On fire
Cause you’re the liar
While I fought
But im done
I wont go back
I wont feel that


No going back
im too wired
to look back
just head forward
dont look back
chin up straight
blood is pumping
time for something

I’m running on empty
Numb to the roughest touch
But if I wasn’t, you wouldn’t hear me scream
Despite the fact that you haunt my dreams

I woke up in tears the other day
Wouldn’t mean anything to you though
I think about you all the time
But the only way you’d hear me is through my rhymes

Even though I know you never read them
Because when you shut me out
I was shut out for good
To get your attention I did everything I could

But iv never found anybody quit like you
And every day I realize I gave that up
When I went down my path of hell
And you bid me your last farewell

You used to love me
I never thought you’d stop fighting
I cried, and I fought for you
I never realized how much I loved you too

You told me to never give up
To especially never give up on somebody you love
But you gave up on me first
And I think that’s what hurt the worst

I try to block you out
‘Im working on just being okay
But I feel like there still so much left to say
And I just wish you’d come back more everyday