We have a saying in my house
"It's not ok but I forgive you"
Although corny it is always true
Because what you did caused me pain
Something I know I will feel again
Even though you did what you did
How much I love you will never change
So, I forgive you
But it s not ok

Tossing and turning
Wrapped in the sheets
Scared to close my eyes
Fearing what demons i'll meet
Tossing and turning
Alone in my bed
Thinking of all the things you said
The things you could have said
What I wanted you to say
So I toss and turn
Waiting for a new day

Fight me!
Meet me out back
Fists up let's scrap
I'm ready
And **** right I'm mad
Fight me!
Don't just sit there
Glaring from across the way
Say it
If there is something you need to say
Pretending it did't happen won't make it go away
So fight me!
Good old fashion one on one
I don't care who you are
Or where you're from
I'm angry
I'm ready to go
But deep down I know
I won't fight you
I know the truth
But if you mess with me again
Just know
I'm coming after you

The way I feel with you
Is like nothing I feel with anyone else
I feel warm, comfortable, safe
Like I am protected from all things bad in the world
The way we fit together
I have never fit with anyone before
In the darkness behind closed doors
Up watching movies all night long
Not wanting to part in the morning
No matter what, I know that you will be there
Waiting for me when I get home after a long day
And with you
Will always be my favourite spot

I grew up around boys
Brothers of all ages
All I wanted was to be like them
I wanted to be strong like them
I wanted to be tough like them
To be good at sports like them
To be included in the games
To be a part of the conversation
So I tried to change
I stayed quiet about things that hurt my feelings
I played basketball instead of jumping rope
I avoided all that was considered girly
Just to be accepted
But as I got older I realized
I could be accepted by them
And still be like me

Do you think I'm pretty?
Am I pleasing to your eyes?
If you were to win something
Would you be happy
With me as your prize?

I am different
This is something I know
I don't hide it
I let it show
I am different
You can see
And you are also different
Compared to me