i broke me
my soul
i hurt myself
again
no one to blame
just me
and the whispers inside
dear self,
i tore you
i’m sorry,

So today i cry myself to sleep again
and again i doubt my self
For the choices i have made
For the reasons i thought were right
Were they really?

Sometimes my mind is off
and i’m not there
neither here,
sometimes i’m just a ****** burden, not much of a help
my mind, like a constellation, there’s just too much in there that i couldn’t bear
sometimes i just want to sink, disappear from all the things that exist
but you my love, you’re exceptional that despite the destruction of my soul and my mind and my body,
I will always be there, when you need me,
or when you don’t

You were the star she never looked
You were the path she never took
You were the wind she never touched
You were the story
she never told
But you are
to me
the page
I never tore

you, and your sad songs
me, with my good byes
the sunset
the dress
our foot steps
us, and our miseries
words, i cannot bear
thoughts you cannot share
sentences become hums
silence become memories