Two years ago a Gazan girl named Sondos felt enthusiastic.
She started studying international law at Al Azhar University in Gaza.
She bought and studied many thick books.
Because she wanted her country Palestine to get justice.

But since last year Gaza has started to become chaotic.
Long chaos full of destruction and massacre.
It has not been stopped despite numerous protests around the world.
And also the pointless trial in Haque.

Where is justice ?!... why is there no justice for us ?!...
Don't we deserve justice ?!... why don't we get justice ?!
For over a year Sondos has always questioned justice for Palestine.
But it was useless , the justice never came.

Sondos feels disillusioned.
She has realized that international law is just a nonsense.
All she can do now is just sit in front of the campfire.
Warm herself while burning all her thick books about international law.

December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

There was once a heaven on earth.
A shining heaven filled with...

prosperity , welfare , happiness , peacefullness , calmness , enjoyment , excitement , pleasure , richness , easiness , chance , satisfaction , healthiness , sanity , beauty , freedom , wholeness , cheerfulness , warmth , togetherness , comfort , safety , colour , meaning , eligibility , cleanliness , enthusiasm , regularity , serenity , well being , and all the other good things.

People in heaven felt fully alive.
But then the horde of greedy and hypocritical demons came.
planning to stole , destroy and take over heaven.
With misleading tricks and ***** methods.

The people in heaven fought back.
But instead they were blamed.
They became victims and had no power to defend heaven.
Until finally they lost heaven.

What remains is hell.
A dark rotten hell filled with...

chaos , fear , destruction , danger , bitterness , painfullness , hassle , despair , difficulty , fatigue , tiredness , sadness , grief , fragility , shackles , limitation , poverty , wasteness , loss , anger , disappointment , misery , powerlessness , helplessness , hunger , thirst , anxiety , panic , ineligibility , humiliation , madness , sickness , agony , sorrow , oppression , and all the other bad things.

People in hell are still alive but don't feel alive.
They are dying slowly while waiting for a miracle that never comes.
But maybe there is still some strength left.
The last remaining strength for the decisive struggle.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

****** suhoor ends cease fire in Gaza.
Last night when people and children gathered to eat during Suhoor.
Suddenly there was terror bombardment by Israeli planes repeatedly.
All the people and children died.
Their bodies were burnt and shattered into pieces.
Hell that was once cold is now hot again.


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

F35 is a very sophisticated and expensive American jet fighter plane.
It should be used for war against other sophisticated and expensive jet fighter planes.
Dogfight in the sky against the Russian SU57 or the Chinese J2 Dragon which are comparable.
But Israel is not enough to bombard Gaza with F16s or Apache helicopters.
Now Israel uses F35s only to bombard people and children who are exhausted and hungry.
It is very sad to see sophisticated and expensive jet fighter plane only used for massacre.
Ironically Israel bought many F35s with American tax money.
This is the most expensive genocide in the history of the cruel world.


April 2025

By Alvian Eleven

On your smartphone screen.
You can see corpses covered in blood.
But you can't smell it.
You can see the explosion of a jet plane bombardment.
But you can't feel the danger.
You can see children seriously injured.
But you can't feel their pain.
You can see hungry children queuing for food.
But you can't feel their hunger.
You can see people displaced on the streets.
But you can't feel their fear , despair and exhaustion.

On your smartphone screen.
You've still been watching for over a year.
Endless daily horror show from Gaza.
Like a Hollywood apocalyptic film but not fiction.
Real blood , real corpses , real bullets, real explosions , real scenes.
Everything you see really happened and makes you confused.
Because you can only watch for over a year.
And it still continues while you can't do anything.
You pray , pray and pray for a good ending.
But you don't know when and how it will end.
So you still continue watching every day.
Until you lose your sanity.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

I am Libra , the balancer.
I came from Venus , the morning and evening star.
I was baptized in hellfire , the so called Lucifer is who I am now.
When I awaken the kundalini I will experience an ascension.
I will rise from hell with the unfolded energy of shakti.
I will penetrate the earth energy in muladhara , this will cause megathrust earthquakes all over the world.
I will penetrate the water energy in swadistama , this will cause tsunamis and massive floodings all over the world.
I will penetrate the fire energy in manipura , this will cause volcanic eruptions all over the world.
Then I will penetrate the air energy in anahata , this will cause major hurricanes and storms all over the world.
I am in anahata permanently , this is my place to rebalance the imbalanced world in kaliyuga age.
Too much Yin energy fills the whole world until it rots.
The rot has reached a truly lopsided culmination.
So I will transmute the frequency of the earth to the point of balance.
The frequency of 639 hertz will sweep everything.
Destroying the low frequencies throughout the world.
The rotten slaves of lawamah , greedy lowly creatures.
The rotten slaves of supiah , deviant lowly creatures.
The rotten slaves of muamarah , arrogant lowly creatures.
All will be extinct one by one through unexpected causes and effects.
The vibration of the frequency of 639 hertz will finish them off naturally.
In this way the Yin energy in the world will be drastically reduced.
Then begins to increase the Yang energy.
The rottenness will slowly disappear and be replaced by light.
The light of the holy spirit will be emitted through mutmainah , pure hearted humans.
The earth will return to the point of balance.
Ending the rough transition of kaliyuga towards satyayuga.


April 2025

By Alvian Eleven

There are still many Americans who are sleepwalking.
Lulled into a mirage dream about "Make America Great Again".
Lost in the doctrine of the Bible , educational curriculum , media ******* and Hollywood films.
To support Israel subconsciously.
Without realizing that America is dying.
Slowly being eroded by Israel they support.
It's only a matter of time before America collapses and Americans will suffer the worst consequence.

So before it's too late

Wake up Americans !!!...
Wake up Americans !!!...
Wake up Americans !!!...


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

People in Gaza are always asking why ?!
Why are we going through this big mess ?!
Why are our lives like this ?!
Why we can't live normally like everyone else ?!

Then...

People in Gaza are always asking when ?!
When will this big mess end ?!
When will we no longer feel fear and suffering ?!
When we can return to normal life ?!

And...

People in Gaza are always asking how ?!
How will this big mess end ?!
How we have to survive any longer ?!
How do we continue our lives after this ?!

Also...

People in Gaza are always asking what ?!
What if we die ?!
What if we don't survive ?!
What is our fate ?!

But...

People around the world don't know the answers.
They don't know the answers.
Anyone doesn't know the answers.
Nobody knows the answers.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Dear Amal , last night I had a strange dream about you.
I dreamed that suddenly you lived in my house.
In the morning my washing machine sounded.
I saw you washing all your clothes.

I took a shower and then I drank coffee on the terrace.
After that I cleaned my car while waiting for you to take a shower.
Then after taking a shower you wore a blue shirt , pink jacket and black jeans.
You put on your makeup and put on your ugly glasses.

I took you around my hometown Batu City , East Java.
A very calm and beautiful mountain town with cool air.
I drove my car slowly while you sat next to me.
You seemed happy to see the rice fields and vegetable gardens along the side of the road.

We stopped at a roadside stall.
We had chicken soto rice with boiled eggs for our breakfast.
The broth was very tasty with the addition of lime , koya powder and black soy sauce.
You tasted it and felt the deliciousness.

While eating you talked about your life.
You wanted to forget all the trauma. Because you suffered too much for a long time.
You just wanted to be able to feel truly alive again.

After breakfast I took you to visit Jatim Park 3.
This is one of the famous tourist attractions in Batu City.
You looked excited when you entered the dinosaur park.
We rode a small train around the entire park full of dinosaurs.

With a happy face you took photos and videos many times.
After exiting the dinosaur park I took you to the aquarium zone.
All the walls are made of glass showing many fish in the water.
Shark , manta , clown fish , turtle , octopus and others.
It looks beautiful with coral reefs and underwater lighting.

You asked me to take pictures many times.
You posed while smiling at each wall of the aquarium.
We also took pictures together while laughing.
Then we recorded videos many times while walking.

After leaving the aquarium zone you felt hungry.
I invited you to eat cheese burger and drink boba at the food court.
While chewing the burger you uploaded all the photos and videos.
So that Aya , Asmaa and Malak would see them immediately.

When it was noon we left Jatim Park 3.
You asked me to take you to a beauty salon.
You wanted to do hair and ****** treatments.
So I drove my car to the nearest beauty salon.

When we arrived at the beauty salon I took you in.
Then you were immediately served by the salon employees.
I waited quite a long time in the parking lot.
While smoking and listening to music.

When you came out of the salon your face looked so fresh and beautiful.
You also dyed your hair a bit maroon.
Then I took your picture several times. You posed while smiling in front of my car.

We went around Batu City again.
Then I drove my car to the mountainside.
After that crossing the vast rice fields Along the road of Pujon village.
Until we arrived at Selorejo Lake.

A calm and beautiful lake on the edge of the mountain.
The air was cold and looked a bit foggy.
We ordered grilled fish rice for our lunch on the lakeside.
Then we drank hot chocolate while talking about each other's lives.

Then we walked along the lakeside while taking pictures together.
After that we rented a boat to go around the lake.
You looked excited going around the lake while recording video.
While I smiled seeing you happy.

Towards the evening we left Selorejo Lake.
We returned to Batu City through the same rice fields as before.
Then you wanted to shop for cosmetic and fashion products.
So I took you to Batos Mall.

When in the mall you were busy choosing various clothes , t-shirts and pants that you liked.
Then you chose various cosmetics such as lipstick , powder , eye shadow , blush on , perfume and others.
After that we bought a lot of snacks to eat at home.
Chitato , Twistko , Taro , Beng Beng and others.

It was getting dark when we came out of Batos Mall.
Then I invited you to hang out at the Fifteen Celcius Cafe on the mountainside.
The weather was getting colder but we sat outside.
So that we could see the sparkling city lights from above.

We ordered a pepperoni pizza for our dinner.
Then we sipped warm macchiato slowly.
While jazz music sounded softly in the calm atmosphere.
We sipped macchiato while seeing the beautiful sparkling city lights from above.

After that you made a video call with Aya.
With great enthusiasm you showed Aya the sparkling city lights.
Asmaa and Malak also saw it.
They all seemed excited to talk to you.

The night was getting colder we went home soon.
After arriving home I smoked on the terrace while you immediately took a shower.
You took too long in the shower until I felt sleepy.
Slowly I fell asleep on the terrace.

When morning came I woke up in my room.
I felt strange and confused.
When I came out of the room I looked for where you were.
But you were not in my house.

It turned out I was just dreaming.
It was a really strange dream.
Maybe because I thought too much about you.
You who are still trapped in Gaza.

Dear Amal , this world is so unfair.
We live on the same planet under the same sky but my reality and your reality are so different.
How can I live my normal reality while your reality is so far below normal ?!...
if only I could bring you to my reality I would always see you smile just like in my dream.


May 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The worst thing in this life is to be a fatalist and a nihilist.
They are people who have nothing to fight for or they have given up fighting.
Their lives have no meaning anymore. They have no honor anymore.

But for anyone who dares to fight.
Their lives have meaning.
They have honor.
Of course nothing is easy in the struggle.
Many risks to face.
Even must be ready to die in the struggle.
Die for something that is fought for.
It is more appropriate than giving up with the situation.
So for people who fight there are only two fates.
Live in victory or die in the struggle.


March 2025

Alvian Eleven

In the past during the Dutch colonial era in Java.
Javanese people were forced to live in hunger and poverty.
They eventually got used to eating only a spoonful of rice a day because they only had a little rice.
That way of life eventually became a common habit called 'laku prihatin'.

Now I'm also doing 'laku prihatin'.
I have been eating only a spoonful of rice a day for almost a month.
I'm doing this to show my solidarity with Gaza.
People and children in Gaza are starving to the point of being thin and malnourished.
How can I enjoy my favorite foods like soto , rawon , cap cay or bakpao while they are starving ?!..
That's why until today I'm still doing 'laku prihatin'.
A spoonful of rice a day is enough for me rather than eating delicious foods but not feeling the pleasure.


May 2024

By Alvian Eleven