I am on a boat
Skies black and smokey
They tell me to go to my room
But I can’t
She’s there
They tell me I’ll die if I stay on deck
I’d rather die than to look upon her face again
Go, they yell, there’s no one in your room, but I know
I see her
She sees me
I go, I have to, I’ll confront her, I will, I have to, she haunts me
I approach, the room is dark, she’s there, she doesn't make a sound
I enter the room and lightning crashes, I see her, standing in the corner
I see her
She’s there
She runs at me and grabs my shoulders, I freeze, her face melts in front of me, she screams
The noise is piercing and unearthly, her nails dig in, her mouth black, her eyes hollow, her bones bare
I Try fighting, she's too strong, she moves her black face towards me,
I try to claw at her eyes, push her away
*But I can’t
She sees me

his mom gone at only eight,
a child lost and confused
his only clarity found on a mix tape
that if he could be in control of one thing was his name -
"starlord"
so innocent for twenty-two only to regain
his past.
shoved and pushed into a fish-eye view of the universe
trying not go insane
maneuvering his way around the stars
navigate
orienting his only human body into something inhumane
a guardian
people would call him,
he would hug his steel helmet around his brain
and see his world as it really is:
bright red
suffocates
but still manages to plaster a smile,
dumb jokes in his teeth to entertain
that if only somehow his scrabble of a life could turn
"fright" into "light"
but for god's sake
there is no light in black holes
a view opaque
only galaxies revolving around them,
other supernovas about to collapse
to conceal their fate