I'm tired of these lonely nights.
I just want it to end.
Simple words, or complacaited.
cannot describe how I'm feeling.
There is no one who understands.
No one shares this pain, this absenceof happiness, this great devoid loneliness.
And no one knows that I'm feeling this.
No one realizes that i'm slipping into my madness.
What would happen?
If people knew. What if i tell someone?
Would they listen? No.
It wouldn't matter anyway. You, sheet of paper, white with such straight blue lines, are my only friend.
I spill myself onto you.
You know all of my pain and sorrow and heartache.
You, you are the only thing fit to judge me.
And that is too fine.
As harsh as i judge myself.
I can't imagine me from the outside.
I cannot imagine the brutality that could only come from you, my love.
My only true love, my true savior.
And still there is another.
There is another who has shown me her love.
But I could not, without great repercussions,
Write hondreds of thousands of millions of words upon her flesh.
And i miss her, For her absence
Must be (What could it be?) the source of this loneliness.
Not this everlasting agony and in my soul,
no.
She is the only one to come close to you.
She is the only one with the capabilities, the patience to east my hurt.
And now i must go, for she has to come to relieve this lonly feeling.
Farewell, my true outlet.

Ten thousand forgotten souls,

a shadow lurking in the background.

I am caged inside walls of darkness and evil.

Who will release me from my shackles of pain and sorrow?

I wonder who the atrocious and beastly creature is.

Divine, yet so fiercely courageous.

The fear itself is getting to me,

I must face this entity.

The horror of silence is deadly,

the brute becomes ashy and pale from the full moon.

It’s fierce howl shrieks terror,

bringing mortality to even the most immortal.

It has brought misery and torment to countless before us,

an unspeakable horror so as if it were death itself.

A glance in the mirror only to see the monster approaching me,

but the sun rises, the moon goes down, and the monster with it.

A glance down and a glance back to realize,

the monster is never gone, for it lives inside me.

I am evil and I bring terror,

I am a fiend eternally.

A tear shed for the pain I have brought,

and another for the pain I am about to bring.

I am forever a monster,

cursed to deliver hate from alpha to omega

It's a lonely road upon which i travel
and i know not what lies ahead
uncertainty waits around every bend
each twist and turn fills me with dread

i was once sure-footed, making this journey
there were signs and markers along the way
i've lost my compass and companion
and can't distinguish night from day

more arduous are the hills and valleys
while every stride seems twice as long
within my words i still find comfort
but i've lost the music to my song

the melody drove me to madness
when you stopped singing harmony
you lost the meaning of music
so, now, who will accompany me?

somewhere a song is being sung
just longing for that kindred voice
and should i find that perfect note.
i'll sing along...for i have no choice

perhaps someday two paths will cross
whose travlers shall sing as one
melody and harmony converging perfectly
to beautiful to ever be undone

we'll put together our words and music
then, two halves a whole, we'll sing along
and we will walk this path harmonious
completeing each other...completing our song

but for now i walk this empty road
at times i write, other times i still sing
not knowing when i'll hear the voice of love
all along the way i'll be listening.

Do you know that feeling?
That feeling of doubt?
or that feeling of depression?
I know, it's like something that kills you from the inside.
But you can't tame it or make it behave.
But there's that one person that makes it all go away.
She brings the happiness to my life.
She brings everything that i ever wanted.
But....She was just using me.
And then...Everything shattered.
My sanity is drifting away.
Now all you can call me is insane..or even mad.
The darkness is my only savior now.