I understand now
That you have some
preconceived notion
That you are special
Well please, do tell all
From whom told you this
Do you even recall

Well...eh.....it's hard to explain

Well out with it boy
Who gave you such fame

It wasn't a man like you and I
Nor was it a voice for all to find
But a direct message
Like a light from inside
A glow in all of us
Just dimmed until it's your time
They are building an army
But not of the traditional kind
But an army of believers
Conceptual conceivers
The artists, the poets
The true believers
This whole world in its design
Was meant as a test
For all human kind
But left to our own will
We chose destruction
We chose to ****
So it's time to intervene
redirection through misdirection
For our protection
( I mean look at the election)
I am to help lead this army
To help take off this Neisse
Cause our existence
So minuscule
But to us
It's our proof

Oh so you say
we're in a downward spiral
Like **** Daniel this virus
Is about to go viral
This light as you say
Wants us to change our ways
And make life a little more worthwhile

Exactly

Haha don't be silly boy
Your just messed up in the head
Your daddy just dropped you
Or you ate paint with the lead
I own half of the oil in the Middle East
I have 84 cars
And 20 homes at least
I am the American Dream
All aspire to be me
So from what I've retrieved
This little voice in your head
Is as crazy as you seem

Ah man... This is going to be
Much harder than you explained
It to be.

I can't be what I want to be
Cause to fail is easier
Then to fail to succeed
My generation is a new breed
Ready for a revaluation
But tripping over our own two feet
PTSD, ADD, ADHD
VHS , DVD,  MP3
I'm sick of these mental anomalies
Drug dealers with doctorates
Pushing band aids
For a brain aneurism
That may not even occurred yet
But your diagnosis
Is their proctosis
To line their pockets
With decaying presidents
So they don't feel a need
To take that SSRI
that to you they so desperately feed
Welcome to America
Home of the crave
And land of the greed
Hope you have enough stolen
Souls in your pocket
So that you may succeed

I know it hurts
I know you want to help
But most likely you'll make it worse
I know my pain transfers
Through empathetic encounters
Or the pathetic way I cope
With all these ups
And downers
I know my lies
Destroy these ties
The knots that hold us together
The endless whys I know you've cried
Feeling helpless
Well so do I
Just for much different reasons
Cause your pain is your love for me
And my pain is being stuck in between
The need to be high
And the want to be clean
So how do I change a want to a need
And feed a need to be free
I can never fix this affliction
No pill can cure this restriction
just contradiction
Just pills to feed this addiction
Some find solace as a Christian
But I can't devout myself
To a book I believe to be fiction
So where does that lead me
The next step
One day at a time
These cliches
Make me cringe
My recovery is mine to find
Cause if I just go with the masses
Without belief in their structural design
I'm surely destined to fail
Death could be my sentence
Life would be my crime

Do you ever catch your self briefly
Driving down a highway
And have the urge just to
Spin the wheel violently
Not in a suicidal way
Cause I sure don't want to die today
But just because you know you can
So much control
in the palm of your hand
Or maybe you crave
This road your on to drastically change
No matter the consequence
As long as it's not the same

At least I can never say I'm lonely
Even though the company
I indefinitely carry
Are for the most part
repetitive and bleak
Constantly and consistently
Pointing out my every move
Which I know I made
An insignificant groove
Maybe its others you wish to inform
But mine and mine alone
You are my mental thunder storm
Acid rain precipitates from my amygdula  to my cerebral cortex
A perfect storm creates
The perfect weather
My last bit of sanity to the stem I tether
For better or worse
Well I'm sick and I'm stuck
With you
But I didn't, and won't
stand at an alter with the likes of you
And willingly say the words I DO
Cause I don't
but since you had the shotgun
And I just had my lil **** in my hand
Then I guess you win for now
Cause they say the ***** is mightier than a shell full of little metal projectile BBs that sole purpose of creation is to take the life of anything it's forced at but I've got a trick up my hat and rabbit up my sleeve just waiting for the perfect moment I've been craving

I love the creativity I perceive
From a sleep deprived slightly tweaked
Over zealous mental freak
Physically weak from nothing to eat
But mentally about to reach my peak
And then to jump off
Who knows how many more feet
Til I hit the bottom
Be careful its rocky down their
I hear
From ones that took the plunge
And emerged alive
Unlike so many unlucky or just ready ones
Some get everlasting bliss
While some gain some knowledge
About themselves but still have to return to this earth we call hell
I've come close to that fall
I've even tripped a stumble to fall
But I guess I'm not ready
To be enlightened or set free
I'll just keep a float until
God or the devil decide
Who gets soul custody

Step one: DONT DO ****
(Especially if this mental disorder is really a drug induced psychosis causewd by **** with a hint of illuminate induced fibrosis)( but we don't talk about that)
Step two: if step one fails don't panic
Step three: stay cool don't get frantic
You may have increased the voices HP
from 87 to a million plus three
Strength doesn't matter just remember this key
1. The voices are not you friends
They want to see you hurt
Screaming for the pain to end
Through minipulation and lies
They get your trust on their side
Just to beat you down
Chained, whipped, and gag tied
2. They will always try to bully you
Don't react that is a bully's food
Train your brain to not care about a thing, it's strange to not care but caring will just lead you to a knife and a vein just screaming for them to go away
But the more you threaten the more they gain.
3.(step3 maybe??). Try not to give them the time of day use books or music to keep them away. And if you feel a need to reply a witty insult or a your mom joke will do just fine
(Refer to section 2 not caring)
4. As you can see I am as sane as sane can be, or at I appear to be on the outside at least.

Follow these steps and I promise the progress that you profoundly seek
Will be in you grasps within a week
You you money back( no guarantee)