Why is it so difficult to leave my life alone
Cast that last stone
I feel like Frankenstein the monster
And your a mob of angry county officials
Getting high on locking away my roster
Big Man you are with you excess of power
Targeting helpless youth
Who only aim to survive
To escape imprisonment alive
To everyday simply strive
For some acceptance
To be be beat down literally abused by your hand
Because our hunger over took morals
What is right
Is right being cold and hungry every night
Is right being forced into institutions
You've already chosen my life's conclusion
My dreams depict my happy illusion
Our financial status fusion
Causing an eruption of misguided confusion
I'll win this war
When when it seems every battle I'm losing

The feeling of being in trusted in the lies of another's deception
Another story
Another alibi
Just another lie
Regretting my ability
To always forgive and forget
To get burned to the 3rd all to quick
You deserve this
This is what you get
You choose to trust you ******* idiot
You pitiful sadness is really selfishness
Your hurting the rest of us by depriving your gifts

Misunderstanding the complexity
Of the simplicity that is my life
Your eyes a window that cuts into me sharper than any knife
Next time I'll think twice
Before I pay that final price

Relaxation is so distant
As my mind races question to thought
Shadows in my eye jump
Left then right
I think I'm losing my cool
Sleep
Is the last thing on my mind because
This poison coursing through my veins
A drug no man can tame
But almost all that try it
Change
Change from a human to a monster
Craving one more high
(Feinding)
One more to get out alive
Steal, sell, trade, ****
Anything to escape the real
But if real is hell
Then why do I catch myself in regret
Wishing to die everytime, NO, everytime
I exchange needle to vein
Once I do I change
The real me was fine
The real me is fine
Change, this change
This ugly rotten still destroying
Every good part of me change
Will really take the real ness of heaven
Real is what I want
cause **** is hell
Cause while high I'm in hell
**** is the leader, the dark prince,
The devil disguised
But you can still smell his chemical stench
**** is the devil
And I am the lost angel
Searching to find My way home
Back to the real that you so abruptly
Had to steal
Stop the damage and allow My wounds to heal
So I can have the strength to go home
Family, friends, my heaven, My home

Written before time
But now they appear
Reqruitments combined
With total fear
Scared of the unreal
Why won't they appear
Outlined in black
All details obscured
Supernatural tendencies
Or acrobatic abilities
Infinite locks
But only one key
Open another door
And more secrets you'll see

(chorus)
I'm crying out for help
But everyone passes by
I feel I've lost myself
I shout a silent cry
I feel so much alone
But I forget what alone's like
Crying out for help
But a crowded street
Leaves me to die

In the middle
Of a crowded street
I scream for help
But no one hears me
Is this world real
Or am I still asleep
do u think u would find help
Screaming in a crowded street
" Oh god will someone
Please come and help me"

Our culture is all ****** up
Cause you'd think
in numbers were tough
But a crowded street is rough
Scream for help around a few
And they are sure to come rescue
But when hundreds hear the call
They look to their neighbor
Expecting others to trip and fall
To be the hero
But noone come to help
And the womans life soon falls


(repeat chorus)
I'm crying out for help
But everyone passes by
I feel I've lost myself
I shout a silent cry
I feel so much alone
But I forget what alone's like
Crying out for help
But a crowded street
Leaves me to die

We've got to change our world
Or were speeding to our doom
Everyone needs to act
Don't expect someone else to
Cause if we all think that way
Our lives will end soon
One person can show the way
But it take a world to progress proof

think its time for an intervention
Seems I've , Lost all attention
Your plans insane, just repetition
You all just complain, from your invention
Deceitful games, the truth unknown
I can't live on blind faith alone
Expectation of trust, you must be ******

This burden of knowledge I now hold
People would **** to hear what's told
In times of doubt its GOD you call
But here's the truth, theirs no GOD at all

Biological recall, brain can't be fixed
Your solution is torture and cruel mind tricks
Forced to surrender, forced to submit
you fight for equality
You ******* hypocrite
In need of complete control
Your lack of confidence makes me sick
Quit playing god on this greedy power trip

In case you were wondering
Your going to die unloved and alone
Your best friends already working to steal your throne I don't want your money
No need for your fame
Cause selling your soul to the devil
Is the worst cheat in the game
Now Pack up and go
My mind's not your home
Its been two years now
I deserve some time alone

One word, one sign,
One small gesture of love
would be so Devine
To rise above
But the torture and tricks
Put up a wall
My trust u need to fix
rules are meant to bend
and sometimes break
When these rules made by one
Is putting my life at stake

As I sit alone the darkness my home
Blankets my eyes my thoughts to roam
Out of my control
Leaves me feeling my soul has broken
And can never be full, can never be whole
Like it once was before the drugs
Before the need to fill a void
That wasn't their to start
The hole created by the devil himself
Camoflauged as a cure for the heart
But it only ripped me apart
To put me back together
I'd rather die then play your games
Under the shadows I awake
To prove you were always fake
A virus born to destroy
The life of a helpless young boy
Who only saw with blankets as blinders
Got tricked and picked the life
The devil cut into stone with his own knife
To heal to feel to live to be without catastrophe
As I sit alone the darkness my home
Blankets my eyes my thoughts to roam
Out of my control
Under the shadows I awake
From a boy to a man
Under the shadows I awake