I may not be the one you want,
But I am the one you need.
The one who will lift you up,
When I'm blind or drowning in the sea.
I have the strength to make you whole,
I will be your shield.
Protect you from everything that scares you,
Lay with you in grassy fields.
I may not be the one you want,
Give me chance and you will see.
I can make you happy,
Help you stay strong and believe.

I look in your eyes and I lose myself,
All my pain melts away.
All my anger subsides,
I get lost in you.
I wish I knew how you think,
I want to cross your mind.
Your eyes have stolen my heart,
You have runoff with me.
I want to lose myself with you,
I want to hold you again.
You have no idea what you have done to me,
If only I had the strength to tell.

I bleed my words onto this paper,
My pain,
My thoughts.
Crimson red flowing,
Forming each letter carefully.
Every word,
Reveals my true self.
Bled out onto paper,
Nothing but words,
Nothing more.

There's no place like the road,
The place I used to call home.
For four summers long,
I will sing this song.
The places,
The faces.
The sweat and the tears,
Hasn't been seen for three long years.
Going back on the road,
There's no place like HOME.

I woke up this morning,
Began to write this all down.
Couldn't seem to find the handle,
As everything began to fall apart in my hands.
Jumbled thoughts,
Mashed up feelings.
I just can't seem to shake it,
I've lost my touch.
Shake off the rust,
And get back to the basics.

Gone from my mind,
Left everything behind.
No trace of disappearance,
No bread crumb trail.
Vanished without a trace,
Just to escape this place.
This place of emptiness,
Hole of lifeless despair.
Find the clean crisp air,
Hide from the city lights.
Burst into the sky,
Fly with angels on high.
I will be gone from thought,
If only for awhile.

I can't go on living like this,
I can't go on being this way.
When I walked out your door,
Inside me I wanted to stay.
Hold you tight,
Kiss you softly.
I hate to sound cliche,
But you made me this way.
You are the drug I need,
I hate not letting you know.
But this ran through my head,
As I walked out the door.
Too proud of my heart,
Unsure of my actions.
This isn't puppy love,
But full on attraction.
You have me hook line and sinker,
And you don't even know.
All these things through my head,
As I walked out the door.

Cloudy day rolls through,
Light drizzle of rain.
Eyes closed to feel the gentle mist,
Sense the cooling droplets.
Silent intensity in the breeze,
Chilling to the bone.
Cold winter day,
Bitter winter night.
Once green grass,
Becomes a blank white canvas.
Deep breathe of sharp coldness,
Exhale the warmth of a spring day.

If I walked the world with my head held high,
Would I see the horrors of the world?
Will I see the light through rose tinted glasses,
Could I fall for her and not get hurt?
Is the grass always greener,
Is there always a silver lining to the darkest cloud?
Or am I just dreaming about things that can only be found,
Somewhere over the rainbow.

I quit,
I'm done,
I can't go on.
The bell has wrung,
The fight is over,
The war not won.
I stayed strong as long as I could,
The smile on my face has run its course.
I cannot keep the facade up anymore,
I quit

As soft as the gentle rain falls,
Is how much I've fallen for you.
Gentle it may seem to be,
But with force and vigor it truly is.
You have stolen me completely,
And I am forever your gentle rain.

She stood outside in the cold and drab darkness of night,
Looking to the starry heavens.
Her clear blue eyes filled with tears,
Her lips trembled and quaked in despair.
A gust of wind picked up,
And her blonde hair flew like a flag in a storm.
I see her in the distance,
And cry out her name.
Nothing but silence leaves my lips,
She stares on through my call.
I try to run to her,
But my legs feel like jell-o covered molasses.
I reach to grab her arm and pull her towards me,
She is miles away and out of reach.
I feel as though I have lost her,
I turn and quietly disappear.
She was standing right by me,
I failed to see her...

She is perfection,
Wrapped in an enigma.
With passive aggressive undertones,
Shrouded by brilliance.
She is the dew on morning grass,
So thick and hard headed.
Molasses filled blood stream,
Slowing her heart to a crawl.
She is everything I want,
Hazel eyes filled with tears.
Looking for a way out,
Walking away from the world.
She is,
No longer mine

She looks through me,
Like cellophane.
In her world,
I don't exist.
But she,
She is my whole being,
My universe.
If I could help her see,
Maybe,
Just maybe.
Only that chance will never come,
And if it did I wouldn't take it.
To drag her down with me,
Is not what is meant to happen.
She is meant to fly,
But I,
I am meant to walk.

To lay under a sky so blue,
Watch the clouds stroll on by.
A dog,
A horse,
Cumulus,
Or stratus.
Waiting on the sunset,
As the fluffy white monsters absorb the colors.
Radiant reds,
Or subtle pinks.
Troubles all washed away,
Laying under the sky.

lAying my Head down, cloSing my eyes, wishing to awake and find a surprise. Of you in my arms, no cause for alarm. Wishing these dreams to come true, as I dream of you.

There is something in the way,Trying hard to put my finger on it.Is it in your eyes,That I have wanted to look deep into.Is it in your smile,That makes me heart pick up tempo.There is just something in the way,You make me feel out of this world.Your smile,Your eyes,Just you…

Befuddled,
Tongue Twisted,
The things I become when I talk to you.
In hope of finding the right combination,
The exact thing to get you to smile.
Flabbergasted,
Twitterpated,
Feeling something I haven't truly felt in years.
Butterflies in my stomach,
Twisting and knotting trying to contain something.
Fighting myself,
Unsure what to do,
When all I can do is think of you.

Watch the world from star filled eyes,
Guilded souls with fire on high.
Floating through the cloud bursts,
Lightening striking to enhance the sights.
Golden sunrays,
Black and silver clouds.
The people on the ground dancing like ants,
Birds flying through the air like the swimming fish in the sea.
Hold my hand and we'll take flight,
Just as long as you're with me tonight.

Lust for a taken woman.
Wanting to unleash my carnal desires,
Ravaging her softly.
Willing to sin,
Corrupt a friendship.
Destroy lives.
I am no longer myself,
Giving in to the flesh.

Sitting in my dreary room,
Cold and drafty.
Space heater pumping out warm air,
Still I am chilled to the bone.
Shivering as I attempt to type,
Sounding out words with chattering teeth.
Physically drained from a long day at work,
It will lead to my untimely demise.
Searching for thoughts of comfort,
A reason to smile.
A text,
I smile.

Sitting in the darkness,
Wanting nothing,
Needing nothing.
The emptiness surrounds me,
No light for miles,
No hope to be found.
The darkness breaks me down,
Drains my spirit,
Drains me of life.
The darkness makes me cold,
Consumes me,
Corrupts me.

Push back the night,
And crack the sky.
Have you ever stopped,
And wondered why?
Why stars fall into place,
Where is love's true embrace?
For the sake of all,
For the GLORY of none.
With all thoughts aside,
There is still only one.
One reason to fear,
Only silence to hear.
Stretched across the distance,
Pulled through the air.
Could leave you floating,
Would you even care?
Care for the one who falls,
Listening to old telephone calls.
Awake in this place,
Of silence and despair.
Only to find,
No one is there.

It's been two long months,
I need to see your face.
I want to hold you tight,
Your body against mine.
I don't want to hide anymore,
This secret is killing me.
Emerge in the warm sun,
Your hand in mine.
Please don't refuse me,
Cause darlin' you'll lose me.
I miss the sound of your voice,
Your laugh.
Soft blue eyes,
Smile.
I've lost my train of though...

My heart is guarded by stone forged steel,
To let no one in I shall not dare.
Break down this wall,
Bring me into the light to shine.
To be one with the world again,
To love,
To feel,
To be.
I don't want to hold back,
But I fear I must.
To call upon the world again,
To only fall upon deaf ears.

The words I've written,
The words I say,
Bring me comfort on a rainy day.
Your presence felt,
Your presence lost,
I'd try to hold you at any cost.
As the sky falls to the ground,
And no one hears the mournful sound,
I shall go.

I can't seem to sleep,
You make my heart skip a beat.
I avoid eye contact with you,
Because it's me you see right through.
You make me flutter,
And stutter.
I really wish you knew,
Exactly what you do.

You send shivers down my spine when you walk in,
Cause the butterflies to flutter like mad.
When you look in my eyes,
You burn right through me.
You are the sunshine when my skies are clouded,
The light when I can't find the good in the world.
I could be all that you need,
You are all that I want.
My stomach knots when you are next to me,
You make me nervous and giddy.
I smile at the thought of you,
Quake in your presence.
You have all control over me,
And you don't even know it.

I've run out of things to write about.
Everything is going nowhere,
But everything is going somewhere.
Out of form and context.
Different approach to something defined.
No more heartache,
No more pain.
No more want of love,
No more want.
The inspiration lies within,
But it also lies without.
Everything from nothing,
Nothing from something.
Void