wandering through the city streets
snow hits the pavement
rhythmically
is this what it feels like to be alive?
cross my heart and hope to die
stare into the ever-changing sky

but today it’s gray

love me until my blood has dried
and my heart is shriveled

love me until i cannot see anything but black

love me until the dirt fills the spaces between my undeserving bones

love me until my lungs aren't breathing, my heart isn't beating

satisfy my soul

attached
like these words to this piece of paper
the leaves to the trees in spring
a butterfly and the butterfly's wing

stuck
between a rock and a hard place
you're so far
and i'm so worn down
won't you come and find me?

i lost myself
in fields of blue daisies
cherry blossoms falling from the sky
they knew not of themselves or me
but they continued to be
blue
i cried
for they would never know of
their existential beauty
they cried 'cause i'd never know of
mine

i found myself in a field of gardenias
yesterday evening
the petals spun 'round each other while
i spun around the thoughts in my mind
after 'while
we became one
me and the thoughts
the flowers and i

the faint light of the moon
illuminates your dark eyes
bringing your secrets to the surface
i dig deep
wondering what i may be able to find
You are so beautiful
i can only fathom
how intricate
the depths of your mind

light
that makes you see
darkness
that makes you feel
light
that screams
truth
the brightest light
unforgiving
unrelenting
unending

oh dear oh deer oh dear
oh deer oh dear oh deer
it is now the next morning
surely you have ventured off by now
to some other time and place
in my mind i see you running
through a green field
as you grow, as you learn to know
WHY. did you have to go?
you ran back across the street
a beacon of light
shot down
in a matter of milliseconds
sadness fills my soul at the thought of you
trying to escape (the ditch)
alive
you are in my memory