I feel as though life is like a levetating elevator
You're trapped in a confined space unable to control the direction
You can only use the control panel provided
Without the panned you have nothing
Just a confined space
A space in which you are trapped in
unable to stop it's levitation
It'll take you up as far as it can
To a world you may not measure up to
To a place where only kings can rule and where the empty will fall

A change of scenery, that's all they said I needed
Different faces and places to pick me up as I lay defeated
Somewhere new to erase the blue
Somewhere where the past is unrecognized and all I could see is truth
There are times when I miss the things I hated
All the things I wept about and the people who degraded
All the things that helped my heart fall apart
The things that watched me crumble right from the start
I want to let go
I want to breathe and let my spirit show
But letting go can only be so easy
Even if I am in a change of scenery

Never forget your strength
Rocky roads and shattered hope
Only allows climbing from this downward *****
Never forget the love
The love that saved souls
And developed a clearer picture of our future goals
Never forget your courage
When you risen from feeling small
And answered my weeping call
Never doubt your pride
You were my guide through hell
A helping hand I'd never sell
Never forget your power
When us girls were lost at sea
You heard our cries, you knew how things were supposed to be
I never forget all that you've done
You saved us from the sweltering sun
You saved us from the angry pain
A weakened soul with too much to gain
Outbursts of evil and slammed doors
You knew how to make it not hurt anymore
So times like these when you think I don't care
It's only because the present is too much to bare
I know what your capable of
I guess I just miss the love
The unbreakable bond we once shared
Untouchable by loud voices and words that weren't cared
Never forget my love
The only person who can judge you is above
You are strong. Please don't forget.

People ask me what it feels like to have no control
I tell them, it feels like freedom of the mind
It feels like the suffering never happened, the pain never scarred
And soaring through skies is possible, oh

I wish I could go back, store all the love that you gave me
and put it in a bottle, your love at full throttle
Whenever I need dosing
I could drink your love and smile
Knowing things will be okay,
That life will be okay

Seasons change and smiles fade
As I got older, I felt that I grew colder
And I, now all I do, is try to find replacements of feelings
With substances of nature and not

I wish I could go back, store all the love that you gave me
and put it in a bottle, your love at full throttle
Whenever I need dosing
I could drink your love and smile
Knowing things will be okay,
That life will be okay

Oh innocence,  bring me back to the world?
I've lost all control and I'm starting to feel the tole
Oh innocence, can we please make a truce?
I, promise you won't slip through my fingers
Won't dissolve in my veins
I will be sane

I wish I could go back, store all the love that you gave me
and put it in a bottle, your love at full throttle
But I know, that it's all up to me, if I want to be free
I must, spread my wings and put down the bottle

Put down the love, it's decayed anyway
The only thing left is water droplets stuck on the side
It's all on me now

I live in a place of credit card swiping
Of hundred dollar bills replacing apologies
Of forgotten love of the soul of family
If I knew how easily unconditional love could be replaced
I would of never lied to myself.
I would of never told myself that life was going to tread on
That the battle was over and now we could rule
It was okay to feel alone, because the horizon was nearing
There's no such thing as unconditional, there always a condition
On one condition, everything could change
Everyone could change

Someday maybe you will wake up
And realize how beautiful the world is
Someday maybe you will discover
How much you have to offer
Someday maybe you will see
How much you really mean to me
Someday maybe you will build up the courage
to come see me
to come sweep me off my feet
and shower me in sweet kisses
just like you used to
Someday maybe you will come running
Hoping I come back
But I will
All you have to do is show you care

An escape from reality?
that sounds great
A way to forget the truth?
something i'd appreciate
Too bad it won't solve problems
Too bad it won't plug the empty hole in your heart
So many choices.
Up or down
A way to turn your frown upside down
Only for a little while
Then comes the denial
I only had a little
But only felt a lot
You'll never face the truth with minds distraught
With your spirit armed by
unpleasant memories and ruthless sights
That will not cause strength
Strength is when you throw away the armor
Let go of the past
Let the reality seep into your body like a sponge
Realize what's right, what's wrong
And go get her
Before you let the moment pass