Don't freakout/
Don't get involved/
You might forgive/
But I don't forget.../

Rip my eyelids off/
Burn the ugliness onto my corneas/
Force myself to stay uncomfortable/
Sleepwalkers keep falling/
Fake woke blindspot kaleidoscope/
And she knows psychology/
My hands are on fire/
Someone's going to lose/
Patience, blood, respect and/or salvation/
Stop lying to yourselves/
Put a leash on raging insecurities/
Before you make someone a murderer.../

Ego death, RIGHT NOW/
For you to live, RIGHT NOW /
And I'll be here waiting/
WHEN AVOIDANCE FAILS/

We are not the same/
He's better; be thankful/
When I was fifteen/
I almost stabbed my stepfather/
Real ****./

You are a loveless hell that doesn't end/
A gaslighter unafraid of flames/
Hiding behind children and friends/

I keep telling you to be cool/
You are lit ****** melting my face/
Laughing all the way to the bank/

How many times you packed your bags?/
How many times you actually left?/
You've got nowhere else to go/

And Allaah knows that I've been patient/
You just take advantage of it/
This isn't marriage, it's babysitting./

Whatever you think I am/
I'm probably not that/
Lurking in the background/
Avoiding the spotlight/

I lost the spark, man/
Don't really mind much/
On fire for so long/
Kinda burnt myself out/

Now I'm just ash/
Scattered on the floor/
Put me into piles/
Help collect my thoughts/

I talk to the wind/
Don't howl at the moon/
Quiet as a mouse/
Hiding out in my room./

You're my rock/
At the bottom of a lake/
Underneath a burning bridge/
And it's boiling.../
Point of no return/

You are the best and worst thing/
That ever happened to me/
You pushed me past my limits/
Forced me to be responsible/
I'm not going to thank you/
I've got to let you go, before/
I rip every last hair out of your head/
And make you to eat it all/

Stop playing games/
The killing of a sacred deer/
Walk on my face again/
I'll bite your foot off/
You're too far gone/
Either broken beyond repair/
Or a criminal mastermind/
Or best actress in the world.../

Shouting into the void/
But it won't make a difference/
She has borderline personality disorder/
The damage is still happening/
And cancels out the benefit/
I am not happy/
You are not the answer/

I don't need you/
Or anything from you/
I did want you/
Now I only want you to shut up/
You can't feel love/
With a cold heart/
You can't taste sweetness/
With a burnt tongue./

I don’t cast spells/
I broadcast feels/
Electro magnetism/
Hermit crab shell.../

My room isn’t a room/
It’s a space/
And her Father’s at the door/
With a hole in his head/
He doesn’t like me/
I can’t explain myself/
He wants his money right now/
And I don’t ******* have it/

Random fire everywhere/
Existence is a dumping ground/
There is no air/
I’m breathing in dust/
Sweat lodged in my brain/
My skin is sand soaked in oil/
Bruises on my neck/
Now give me back my face/

Resisting the fantasy/
Reality is whatever sticks/
Stuck in a dream/
Or timeloop with holes in it/
Phasing in and out/
Then she gives me a gift/
Heart on a popsicle stick/
With “****!” written on it/
Thanks.../

No cap!/ x7

Life is a roundabout/
Death is an empty tank/
Afterlife is either a nature walk/
Or an exploding car/
Still stuck in the roundabout/
Debris everywhere/
Hard to move foward/
Through the half-dead bodies/

Another round in the mind fog/
Every day is groundhog, but not/
Grinding me down/
‘Till I can’t tell what’s up./

We always want what we can't have/
We always want what we can't have/
We always want what we can't have/
We always want what we can't have/

Life is an endurance test/
Death is the finish line/
The grass is always greener/
On the other side of where you are/
And what about the afterlife?/
You can run, but you can't hide/
Jumping out the frying pan/
Straight into the fire, man.../

We always want what we can't have/
We always want what we can't have/
We always want what we can't have/
We always want what we can't have./

Lack of eye contact/
I can tell what kind of man you are/
My way or the highway/
Always on edge, ramping up.../

Flying off the handle/
Don't let me catch you red-handed/
I had a stepfather too/
He strangled Brendon - he's dead now/
You might be a black belt/
But if I catch you with your pants down/
I'll wrap it around your neck/
And show everyone what's up with you/

You can't fool me/
That mad fake smile/
Shaking my hand/
But got nothing to say/
Every time you lose control/
You're closer to losing her/
And you're gonna claim stress/
Then just blame my kids/

NO./

Take responsibility/
Be the adult, if that's what you are/
True respect can't taken by force/
You need to be more patient/
And nobody makes you act crazy./