fariha

fariha Apr 20

a lover

people keep telling me to text him less,
dont reply immediately,
let him search for me,
let him call me first,
but why?
why do i have to show less love to be treated properly?
when i have all the love inside me to give?
even if it will end up hurting me one day,
it will be his loss at the end of the day,
because why?
he didnt realize that someone was capable of loving him more than he could ever give to himself,
and i am not ashamed of loving.

#lover #love #situationship

fariha Apr 11

too much

i feel too much all at once,
i am confusing myself.

fariha Apr 9

a month and a week

i still have so many things to talk to you,
so many questions left unanswered,
so many that my heart yearns for it,

my feelings towards you has changed,
im growing more and more uninterested of being treated like this,
and more and more at adapting of leaving you,

i dont want to admit that im kind of afraid of losing you,
thats why i keep ties and binds you to somehow hold you still,
but i cant restrain and hold you back any longer from growing,

i will leave when i am truly satisfied,
and when i feel like you don’t deserve any of my love anymore,
though a sight of you will probably make me fall back to square one.

#poem

fariha Apr 6

Rekindling

all that peace talk i had with myself everyday,
finally break down,
with just a message,
to rekindle back our painful memories,
oh i wish i am numb and dull to emotions,
but i am fragile as a bubble,
as the wind blows me away, i will dissipate into air
eventually an apology will be long forgotten.

fariha Mar 8

Time

tik..tok-
the clock is ticking,
a glimpse of you has passed.

tik..tok;
the clock is ticking,
another silence follows,
with tears burning inside our heart.

tik..tok;
the clock is ticking,
the idea of me leaving you follows,
and my eyes are still smiling,
afraid of crying.

tik..tok;
the time has come,
and i need to leave you behind,
everything we had summed up in that silence,
a silence that kills,
a silence that we both will miss.

tik……tok;
until my clock stops.

fariha Mar 6

Surabaya

I wish I can sit once more,
interlocking our eyes,
with none of the words were said,
so much for talking with our heart,
i do want to see you again.

fariha Feb 28

Our plant of life

if and IF,
i grow up being watered with loves and affection,
i’ll turn out less withered than i am now,
too much is more than enough and too less is never enough,
nevertheless;
i am trying to water my own life,
with what is less and what is enough,
so endless flowers would bloom,
regardless of what seasons i am in.