I've built a Bridge
All of my strength  can not cross over.
I stand at the edge
The end of a road I have followed
Sinking!
From the weight of my own world
Wanting!
The waves of your ways to wash  my feet.

Healing water
Healing water
Solace flows
Through the river of forgiveness to my soul
Oh, I need you
Healing Water


Pour over me
Water to clean all my intentions.
Baptizing stream
I swim in the freedom of redemption.
Floating on the sea of purity.
Knowing i can dive in the love that rescues me.

kinda strange to show affection for a person over-seas.

Now I'm walking  threw your waves   and this pain is getting deep.

When you lie and hold the bait I wouldn't know unless you speak.

But we don't !! You act like Skype is not for free or text is miles away!
Well kik ..okay ..okay....

I been losing sleep just to tell you about my faith.

After that it's me listening to another "oh okay."...

If I had it I would fly a plane or get on to a boat, But I fear it will be the same like I was joke

Go nd laugh but my bad my bubble just broke I'll be fine even when I need you the most.

I'll be fine I'll be fine
When I need you the most

It follows me it follows me,
Why you follow me?
I can't run to fast or go to slow without it following me..
The funny thing is I should be chasing it,
I should be...
It let's  me know, it let's me know
It won't let me be...why you want me?
I can't go so high or go so low without it flying high or going deep..
And The funny thing is I should be embracing it,
I need to be....
I need you please I need you please
Please run to me.
And the funny thing became my serious refuge
When I stopped and waited for you..
I'm glad you came to join me
Because foreal I couldn't do nothing without you
Mercy...
Don't leave me don't leave me
Please I need you

Oops I have fell to deep
Oops I have fell to deep in it
My love has become trapped in it
Oops my friend I can't tell you how sorry I am
My love has become bread crumbs
Oops my life is fighting to stay alive
I don't know where this strength comes from
Oops I am praying to deep
Oops I have open my eyes in it
Oops I'm soo tired  of falling in this
Oops I have faith I can make it out
Everyone falls!
I'm falling but everyone falls
Will I stay here with the bread crumbs or will I ...
Oops I have faith now

Short poem
Big problem
Knock knock it's my lust again.

*******
Can't stop it
Hello, please come on in.

You play me well like a guitar.
Give me head yours thick
But my love is too sharp.

Out in a bout picking up my mom some sweets.
As I walked by I saw you before I'm just glad you notice me.
My smile was bigger then the  butterflies in my stomach.
My desires are changing
My mind is flipping
I just want someone to hold me
I just want you to talk to me
You came to the front just to see me
I came to the store just to follow you
Why are we playing tag in a place where...dame! your so funny..
When you looked at me I almost dripped on the floor.

Next time we talk I don't wanna just talk, I wanna Trust.
Next time I come I wanna come getting you...and next time you smile I want it to be because you saw me come threw.

Blues eyes!
With your blue eyes..
Oh blue eyes I think I have a crush on you.

I don't want to
I rather not
I hate to
What's the point
You gotta point why?
It keeps my hands tied
And all the words out my mouth is "well I tryed"
Walls close in on this side
Once again ima leave without a trace,
I hate to trace back in what I made
I rather not listen to the try's that I say
It's not that I don't want to,
...wait yes it is I don't wanna stay in this lustful place I made.

I'm in my deepest parts of my mind,
For 20 years I have seen foot prints broken thoughts that die.
Follow your dreams they say but if we were doing that what about the nightmares of the brain?
See A thought just broke again..
Picking up the pieces in a day-dream
I look for lust like a smokers offspring.
I know it's bad for me to "smoke" but when I put it down the world stresses me out and I go back to the relaxation of coughing.
If that makes sense
I'm addicted to having a bad habit to love,
And your heart gets broken all you want is to light up a good ol "lusting"
Knowing that it's temporary so is *******,
But I won't stop I need to love for I need loving!
Rehab is the only choice I'm breaking thoughts if I'm not I'm "smoking".
God ..
Help..
Me..

Hiding in the shadows calling my utmost.

Baby this is a battle for I have a saddle who wants me to *******.

Listen I tell you here cause I know everybody got issues.

Keep your tissues cause honestly my tears these days are mental.

Private talks away from the perfect view and you get my imprecations on Skype talking to a guy or ....you.

But you...what are you hiding? Yeah you...can we be talking or just be poetically cool?

The medicine injecting the knees in the room, what I mean yes I'm saying I pray like there's no tomorrow.

Walking really close to the highest in the clouds you start to really see how your life is written down.

Most of the people don't know or like or even have read this all the way down.

But ending with this note....if I ever played piano, IM MOVING MY FINGERS FROM THE LOWKEY AND LETTING MY WALK SING TO HIGHER GROUND.

Oh please
say this to me,
Someone's out there will hold my hand.
Don't think
I go to sleep and never dream of being your man..

I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

My friends are closer to me then leaves that's on the branch.

So think
When me and you speak I feel like we are like atoms and wind.

I wanna hold your hand.
I wanna hold your hand.

In a pool of *****
calculate the dreamers
the fallen angels that hate children
its temptation yet its agreement.
Can't stay off ceilings
the Demons don't haunt they scream it,
then you come to suffocate anything thats breathin
as you pack off my kid
i'm left in the darkness thinking..
thinking
thinking
I pray to a Light in the sky
to a Power thats Perfect
repentance in my eyes
in my heart i do not disguise the Love i have for the fire in the sky..
that's maybe why they come at night screaming,
thinking
thinking
my strength don't come from
incubus your snares don't  hurt anymore
I will die in purity
so will my kids you stole from me
He's coming for them
Hes coming

My tongue is a sword and my heart is a shield,
My hands are here but the government has cut my fingers so my freedom is being chopped off.
It's deep I'm still bleeding from I'm a black man ...but to be honest I don't think no one is safe cause.
El Chapo in prison, Martin Luther is dead
Scarface I still watch him and my presidents black.
Do the math before I say it do the math I think you get it.
Marshal law is on the Game Tekken,
But somehow you never see him in the new games they don't present him.

It's getting deeper are they trying to dig up hell?
I'm losing sleepers I'm glad your awake if not in other News ..hi I'm zeal

I robbed before I did
I lied before I did
I kissed her once I kissed her friend I kissed him to I've loved a man.
I'm sick!
Never killed a person but I hated
Suicide thoughts always **** him
He was ten years old ima ******
There's blood on my hands yes I did it.
I seen stuff that I should of told
I heard stuff that they never known
I ate stuff that hurts my soul
I gave stuff that I know was wrong!!

Do I believe in demons
Yes
They talk to me they say "look at this mess!"
Do I believe in angels
Yes
They walk with me until Glory come shine on us.

I need a God cause you can judge me but I judge myself every breath.

Existence is irrelevent
Living is like the opposite
Faith is better then religion
And relationship is greater then coexistence.

Friends with benefits is dumb
But what man you know would drop that
Me?!
You call me like a boyfriend but we’re not together so I have to pick your brain to see who I am today
I came to pick you up to see my friend but my friend wants to **** me
trust me when I saw the pattern and my head clicked I was like in slow motion “ oh ****” then drop the lunch meat.
and stared at the wrapper with the price saying 1.29
And was like “Is that what you value me?”

You could of got The premium pack where it comes in all three...
Love, *** and everything
I believe friends with benefits is Like a guy or girl going into the store with a basket full of the expensive stuff and looks at you the premium stuff and say nahh I want the great value in you

I am the one
That made you cry
I am him
That made you lie
You fantasied
You want my sky
You want my clouds
You want to fly
You took a pill
Then hop on a plane
To come and find
I am the rain I’ll make you reign.
You okie , I’m okay
Make a right , I’m alright.
Are you down to ride ?
Smell my scent and my life
You can but deny
I am him
I am him
The one you despise
The one you like.

We have done a lot we have but what is a lot if you never had? Having something that the other don't do you think you have more? Should I  resale what I have if I do would I have less to get more ?

Run Like it's Coming
Run Cause it's Coming ya..
Run For the Purpose
Run to the purpose Ya..

Let's be honest
I'll be honest..can I be?
My life *****...literally.
If it wasn't for A Son of God I couldn't be..one
It took something to make something
But I feel like I'm nothing and you still say I'll go for nothing?
Wow why am I sounding like one if those crazy Christian type people ?
Maybe because I'm ready to lay this sin of mine down
Cause I'm down
But you say to lift this nothing selfish man up?
Oh God help me guide me to be the man you wanna see one day face to face ..
Cause honestly I believe that's heaven to me.

Truth cries as I lie
I lay down with the fantasy taking control of my life
I don't stop to look up for you no I,
Keep going further in my head where the stinch of fairytales buzz in my bed
How I love when there dead.
Then I can go to sleep in my bed
Without the dreams and this mess,
I hope this sleep be the end and I wake up to your fence
White pearly gates as the open
I'm looking now in amazement

Fictional people want to be equaled
Practice there happiness but I know what I'm in need of.
Do I gain the world and lose my soul?
Do I let let them in on a heaven note?
Angels sing and horns they blow
I'm to far out God bring me close!!
I'm fear God like wouldn't know still I have days where it dosent look like though..
All my silver and platnuim and Gold my idols my thoughts my actions I throw down if I can step back in to reality.
Step back in where you need me to be
I'm so alone when it comes to me.

He say he want to be my fictional boyfriend,
The other makes me feel like I'm poison
No joke but I'm steadily Joking
I tried I tried to tell him
I lied I lied and said it
This is soon to ended I should just walk away and forget it forget it there i go again!

Fiction words to get a pic
Real words I think your dead ...
I like your smile now ******* kiss
I don't think I'll be here again..
Cause miss love not happiness
When you get mad then don't talk to him I think it's for the best.
But I won't leave without you been giving a chance to come to reality..

I just wanna run to a place where I'm back where reality sets in.

Do you see elephants?
Whatever you do don't think about elephants!
Sense were talking about them, can I speak to the ones that's in the room?
Don't talk about this cause it might become true..
What's new under the sun but mens faces to society?
Where am I going with this?
Your asking to many questions...
Stop looking out of the curtains
Stay inside the prescriptions
For if you pop Molly you will never have to think about life lessons.
Wait...did you see the elephants?
No...
I'm finding out there in my head again

The world stopped when you came in,
My krypton my poison
I'm caught up I'm lusting
I come to give you a menu
That smile was my issue
The walk away was tissue
Had the clean up my revenue
Oh man your in line you had baby wait..let's rewind you can't be you
Can't be it can't be yours.
Between the ladies that talks to me
You look up and you smile at me
Then look down are you scared of me?
I'm scared of me
I'm scared of me
I don't know who that was was it your brother? Please say yes..
I wanna know man I need some help
No butterflies just over time of looking threw your shorts and umm ..
Oooh ..bye I know you leaving but
I hope you come back
Hope you do
I clean your table and think of you.
Man I need help

Two Stories of Minorities

Growing up in the hood as a mexican
You learn your no good and your pedestrian
Now we have trump running for president
So now "a mexican will *** offend our women" and "they're all drug dealers that dont deserve to be residents"

Growing up in the Suburbs as a african
Martin Luther King speech was ran down like a pedestrian
Trampled over by those skin colors who chose the first black President
And a african will steal anything just keep family in mention, they're all low food stamp having Residents

We are hard workers, we helped build the country
We arent shady lurkers that ship drug loads filled with some tree
We had our grape boycott like the americans at boston with their tea
In reality we're no different from the white man, despite our cultures we are human completely

We are the anchor of alliance defining us would be passion of soul
The beat to another's code, we're not different from the white man, despite past offences
We all walked the trail of tears and picked cotton
Different languages came from the Tower of Babel the immigrants alike we fell from ourselves

If I can just rest
Rest in your presence
Behold the beauty of your face.

If I can just rest
Rest in your presence
And never leave this place again.

If I can just rest
Rest in your presence
And leave all my cares behind me.

I will be whole
I still believe
I would just lay
Lay at your feet.

Sometimes I don't know
Why do I leave.
Even my friends
My friends all has left me.

For I will behold
I still believe
I'm gunna just... gunna break
Break in your arms cause I know I need to be free.

You call me your own
So Lord I give you me.
You call me to come
I come broken but it's me.

Over crowded but so alone
My demons met me at the cornerstone
And Jesus Died on the cross bone
So death is easy but you go first..
Faith lives when your walking on it's single verse
I'm excluded and including my angel even my angel dust
Cause my addiction trying to prey on me
See it lies and it tells me that I will set you free,
When it's really just drowning me
Lake of fire never felt  so good
But it burns when I think about your love.
Luciferians Christians and paganism
I'm fighting religions nemesis is really just men trying to govern this
This world man I need a real analysis
But let me shut up and get back to the basics..

"Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven".

"If this cup can pass from but not my will your will be done."

It's like nobody needs me anymore I have become the get around guy
You kno the friend that drops you off from place to place.

But what if I disappeared
What If I didn't call back
What if I dispear?

Sounds like a plan

Febuary 1, 2015

I wanted to end it all cause i couldn't Rest in Peace.
I wasn't doing anything right i suppose or ...I believed.
My Best Friend was to far my Mom well..time showed me a Holy viper with the worst sting if you ever gave it information i mean..
My Dad Yells At things That I can't see though He Saw That I was There and I did everything That he told me and yet 2 Days ago he Screams at me like I'm Nothing like i didnt do anything, Do I do anything right in his eyes ? It's not His heart but His eyes i don't belive.
Maybe it is me and I just can't figure out Why ...We Hurt each other but love at the same time.

10:00 p.m. I leave like I have Something to do.
Caught up with a broken Man being beaten by questions to.
The Christian In me is Named but the Love the drives helps me to pick him as i slowly taste the Mascato's rain.
We go back and forth about Running in Place, though a hug is all i really want, maybe if I Hold him this numbness will go away.

12:00 a.m. Second Doubt of How i would escape.
It's a scary road when you know Demons are sitting with you but they can't see a thing.
Were laying in his bed as I drop the **** on the Floor so i picked my Gun up and started to walking out the Door.
The handle was moving it told me to Go, woke up aDragon and the other the one my mom kicked out the one that almost ready to go, Leave from his road...wished i never would of told her about you Forgive me and your Dragons Fire isn't Hot as Mine So i know that hurt when she drove you out just to get by.
Yet Here I am in a pool of smoke telling it to rise and Help me Rip out my throat.
You don't run to Demons when you want something to Heal you Do you?
Okay so....

2:01 a.m. Left my gun but the Dragons caught up with me, this road was so Sudden.
Being around with the angels and God you start to know "I'm the Brightest One"..
Lucifer will tell you but Satan won't. "Pride Comes before a fall".
You heard from the Zeal second and the Greatest Host First.

2:36 a.m I can't breath and hell Is Closed?
Dragons turn to men and Police turns Into Cyclops,
My Breath is there and My Mind was..I don't Know
Some Say He's Lost it and He's  hallucinating.

3:00 A.M. I'M DYING!!
My breath is Leaving me
If i stopped Yelling it would of Flew by me!
Here Lies Stephen Branch, Mr.Zeal Has Left..

5:20-ish and i woke in a Hospital
I can't...I don't..wait I can't remember anything.
The Viper is crying The River is in the camp, The "Yeller" is holding my hand but This is My family soo..Yeah.

I'm up
I can breath
Gift of a ticket and some bruises that are stuck on me.
A **** in my head that will be there for weeks,
as I Say "I Lost it and Now I have Found my Mind today".

I never said this like i did but I truly thank God today,
Worst LSD Day..
the Day I lost Everything
Don't know what i smoke
but i lost Mr. Zeal My Friend My companion the one that loves me and helps everyday.

"I TAKE MY THRONE BACK AND GLORY TO GOD HE IS REAL TODAY."

I've been cursed out of light,
The angels followed me.
All the words that I said,
They just gathered to look at me!
I became all got and all I got wasn't me,
All these demons I adopt as my angel came to see,
He left without a remark ...
Why would you do this to me!
I'm in darkness now
I'm the darkness now
But I can go where he be
I can sit where he feeds!
Who is his creation
Maybe just maybe
I can make them .....
....like me.

.....let's see

If there is a will there's a way where there is a way you will be okay.
The night don't last forever only if you let your choices and your demons bring you to condemnation,
But there's no condemnation who's in The Lord.
Watch what you make God it will be the same thing that will save you from your self.
This is not for the religious cause I'm not your thoughts or a pastor just motivating why you do what you do before the actions...
Sleep in peace so you can rest when the world fill backwards

Laying on my bed ain't real rest.
I think about the night darkness can you hold my hand?
Feeling like I'm august I'm the only one to fall
Picking out myself again like black panthers do there Afros
Twisted, tangled and pulling all these thoughts again oh no
Can't keep running Forrest you just got to let it go.

your my obsession
Your My obsession
Your skin is golden
I left my taste on your body
I left my eyes on your body
***** my life with your probably
I'm drenched in love hope you like me
I'm drenched in love hope you ride me
Unlock yourself until tried me
You lock yourself until you saw me
You can't stop smiling hope you like me
Open hearts we locked our bodies
Naked love exotic bodies
I want your hand You sniff my "try me"

Have you ever seen the fall before somebody fell
Or knew the answer before somebody told the Question?
My heart is hurting before they know the pain,
And what you do you smile because there smiling and swallow the truth...
Above all you love them not because you know what's coming soon but after to be there when they say "I never needed you"!

Trying to hide the things in my mind
So quiet but I'm screaming inside.

I'm a fool I'm sick and weird to everything,
Everything told me to stop being somebody..
Somebody said if you're breathing you can't be a nobody
Nobody just watched as the tears gave birth like ovaries.

Yeah the sad thing about it is I lost a friend and gained a community.
Funny how we never joke and work hard for this" dying man to be".
Too make clear Money is dead and yet we still need it.
I need a job man I need a job
It feels like my heart was mobbed it feels like my past will always haunt.
And the Good thing about it is God is on top...
Sleep why
Eat why
Count the days I have broke off,
Count the months I have tried to get it right.

I thirst water
I thirst for real.

My fake gets covered by corse joking still.

My thirst is stronger
For Elohim

I stay to ponder,
I'm on my heels..

Is that how you feel?
Is that what you mean?
Say I got you do you got me?
clingy but zealous though,
Is that what you hate?
Let's be foreal..
changing  my ways because These days you need to be deep.
Listen for giving never for keeps.
Time is borrowed
this is  not cheap.
Ask How I know though
Look at tree!
Look at nails!
Why would you think..?
Why would you speak..?
Dead men are dead
Alive is the meek..

Off of the topic come back to point,
Is that how you feel?
Is that why you speak?
Is that why you're zealous?
Is that why your clingy?
Is that why you love cause you know time is cheap?

Yes

I'm on my way to the iceberg.
My ship has drifted to a cold place
A hard place..
A heavy place to breathe.
My hands are shivering
My hands are shaking
My knees weak my faith is breaking come quick my tongue is whitening
Then I saw you...in the mist of my inner being who would of known that a iceberg would be home would be safe would be hot would be cold as my ship hits it I saw IT!! I saw it!!! The Sun Rise

do you realize
That you have the most beautiful face
Do you realize
That Beauty is vain.
Do you realize
Your heart is home ..to me
Do you realize
Can't hold all this weight

Do you realize
Everyone you know someday ..will die?

Funny if I  leave today I wonder if you will let me go!
I wanna stay and hold you like we use to but it's hard you know,
Cause once upon a time you was my everything
Far away from home I'm thinking should I stay..?
You left me now I question what did I do so wrong"!

If there's a way God if there's a way
If there a place God where me and him can talk fr can you take my soul ?

This is killing me
Suffocating

Try to hold time
Try to hold love
Try to take Joy
Try to open mud and fuze the water molecules with atoms so it won't float up.
Try to create you even the bad parts
When your mom died, or your sister cried or your Dad leaving the family cause he had somewhere else to go.
Try to ..
Try to prepare the heart.
Try to make the sky before the  stars
Try to keep smiling
Try to keep still
Try to be a son when you was in a womb
Try to be a water
Try to create a fog

Oooh I wanna see this
Try to be God.

I never knew what i would do if anybody try to take you away,
and your beautiful boy won't wait for you because hes busy with the stars and the Fame.

And i don't know why i breath its taking to long for me,
Can we speed up the process Please!
or show me the one i need

I need somebody...Someday crazy enough to tell me
i will love you till we, till we are buried
Our  bodies ...our bodies buried  close together

in the Cemetary weather...

Point out mistakes
But never celebrate your achievements is a mistake.
Miss things we use to do when it was tapes and innocence.
Running in the ditch though it was filthy it was fun and great.
Still I couldn't shake what I made to be unshakable.
7 years old ******* **** but I didn't know!
I swear I didn't know what I was doing my nieghbor was just to old..
Now I'm too old..
Thinking bout things that's to old.
But I wonder what I can do new to get this conscience removed.
Jesus Christ was the only thing that was identical.
But I read now
God I always pray now
Even though my adversary likes to stay down,
But he is way down
Sorry bobby this is why hated when I stayed now
Dame why did I stay now..
Knew that this would haunt me.
I ghost now hoping for my soul and there counting on me to fail wow.
Still wake up every morning just to bow my head and thank him for this life and these days cause life is a achievement and  I will celebrate what God has for me
Rather then mistakes I made.
In both I'll give him praise.

Struggle just to keep my car rolling,
You struggle just to keep my mind open..
The walls are sinking and I'm soaked by what we have perfect but what is perfect ...yeah who is perfect?
Kiss of ****** and the touch of black angel. I bot my myself a shirt to cry on and a thick muzzle. You're lying and I know it! Evicted now we're open! I wished it but so hated the fact that the truth is not gunna come out now I look to a boyfriend that sad and full of maverick should I let it go like he said or become his black angel and never hold my wings again?

Could it be you calling me down
Dressed in wax when I heard the sound
Zeal! The wax of my ears jumped and my heart pound..
Like a dog in the dog pound looking at a old master that familiar word of mouth
I'm asking for too much now
What is up must come down
And your voice that old familiar sound
Like raised eyebrows
Excited for the moment
For the moment
The moment..
Moment?
Our moment is gone as I scrolled down your picture was old news But I love the moment
Such a familarface gone wrong
*scrolls down

Lately
I've been eating lies
Can you help me.

Fighting all my rights
I don't know why run from the light
I can't! I can't! I can't!
Watching all of this darkness got me hiding my lamp.
So I ran and I ran
But there just gunna **** me so what am I afraid of.

Lately
I've been holding tight
To the right things
Before he touch the sky
I'll get it
We will get it right

I wonder sometimes about the former friends
Then I look at you and I don't want you to be a former friend.
I never want you to get unexcited when I come.
Or slowly don't text don't call no more "hey let's hangout friend".

Yes I'm scared if you leave me for another friend.
That's why when they chill I stay distant or over talk you to act like there funnier then you.

I only write this cause you do it to me
You make me feel bigger in something's but smaller in others.

I sound weird but your awkward
Dang if you leave that's a ******..

I can't feel my faith
I can't tell what's fake
The sky or me above?
The lows look like there tape.
My mind talks all day
Losing all control
There I feel so safe
Words touch deep there ****
Words so deep there ****
I can't breath I'm *****
Tried and tried but I can't wait
Slowly thoughts penitrate
Slowly drifting away
Slowly drifting away...

Drones are UFO
UFO ain't real bro
Stop lying to me you're fake Brodie how come you say what you won't ***
She's hot man just hit One!!
You gay dawg I know huh..
It's okay bro you like butts
They stole the rainbow from Noah's Flood and they hang on it like Pride umm..
You should shut up zeal YOU don't know nothing
You're a Doom & Gloom so please back up..
Why do they hate me when I'm trying save someone?

I use to come home close the door to my room and ******* just to convince my mind I wasn't alone.
Yet I was so alone
I use to sing to the walls and they use to echo after me it was the closest thing to me they convince me I wasn't alone.
Yet when I stopped talking I was so alone.
Promises broke and I drunk to many
My friend commited suicide and I'm so empty confessions I'm so ***** my nails are ***** my past is with me and I'm really done with myself completely stuck in a war of am I straight or gay
Yes I did it and I can't point the blame
Coming home to silence I use to be in Love with this Madness. I'm finding out this madness is me

who am I?

Like a grain of sand on the shore?
Or the waves that holds it's Course?

Who am I?

The man I choose to be?
Or am I possessed by Love and it's Deeds?

Who am I to Speak?

With the worst past ever,
to speak in the presence of a Holy Endevor..

Who am I to Walk?

Down The streets of Gold,
Or the Ghetto where the Smile a kid touches me like soft petals.

I'm great full for who i am and whatever reason i was made..to know that is there is a Creator who loves me is better on the days that i feel like dirt.

But whatever reason i live when i remember of what you have made I consider myself and for that i praise