It doesn't matter if I'm enough
It doesn't matter I don't see you enough
It doesn't matter if I've had enough
Getting to the next day
Is enough

Too bad un oeuf costs so much today
And I don't have enough to give
Or care enough to convince myself
Enough is worth the pain of
Getting through today

i need them more than they need me
I text first and often repeatedly

I share about my day, my thoughts,
My dreams
Or more like my nightmares

And all they do is push like. Push heart.
Push haha. Push !!

No words. No outreach.
No more friendship
No more
No

So what if I love him
That doesn't mean my life is over

I just have to find some way
To get closure

Sometime i wonder what's healthier
How to cope best

People stand aghast at my oldest method
Thinking anything is better instead

But in the long run
A little cut won't **** me

But drinking night after night
A dependency that's crept up on me
Is harder to fight

Which will **** me faster?
Which can i handle and master?
Before my life turns to disaster

Something doesn't feel right
And I wonder if I have time

Impulsivity is a matter of perspective

I've thought about telling him
For a year

I've thought about quiet after life
Just as long

Is it impulsive
When you've thought it
But reservation demands inaction

When you finally shout
When the time finally comes
They all say what have you done
Think it through, hold your tongue

I did
For so long
The time had come
And now that I've blown us up
I think i'm done

Did you know I saw a razor blade
In the grass on my walk home today

And it made me stop mid-stride
Imagining what it would feel like
on the inside of my arm

Did you know, when I saw that story about
the pedestrian, the thought that went
through my head

That it could've been me instead
And I wouldn't much mind being dead

Did you know I would be the one
to flame out

There's no purpose in work and life
Nothing to care about

Did you know that after six months
apart and away

I still cry over our friendship,
our loss, nearly every day