Writing of the Unknown

Apr 25

Dirt

Little bird,
Your cage is not of my making.
Little bird,
I see the weight you carry, silent, unseen.
Little bird,
My hand is open, only if you wish to land.
Little bird,
I promise not to squeeze too tight.
Little bird,
I'd never clip your wings.
Little bird,
I’d never take your sky from you.
Little bird,
Let me build you shelter, not a cage.
Little bird,
I’ll walk beside you, not ahead.
Little bird,
I ask for nothing, only that you know,
Little bird,
You are free, even here with me.

Writing of the Unknown Apr 21

Access Denied

Slowly
one by one
as Time ticks by. so dose the access
One by one
removed and blocked
slowly becoming hidden from view
back into the shadows I live in
your ease of use
your simplicity of speech
now dwindling

I gave a warning
I spoke truth
I didn't bring out the matches
but I like playing with more then just bombs
My fuses long, but they have burned enough
I didn't light the bridge of trust on fire
I just had it rigged

How much longer
till you hear nothing
but a dial tone
and the silence
you feared so much?

Writing of the Unknown Apr 20

Not this time, Not this life.

"i want you in my life"
"I care deeply about you"
"Your voice makes my day better"
"I am so ******* when it comes to you"
"I want you"
"I need you in my life"
"Please don't go"
"I, I love you"
"Just for me, please"
"Oh come on, its not that bad"
"I think you'll cute"
"Just for me, please"
"No, were not doing that"
"I will not do that"
"Because I said no"
"Why does it mater to you"
"Do you even love me?"
"Here let me make it up to you"
"Oh come on, don't be cold"
"It was just a joke"
"Why are you distant"
"Why don't you listen"
"Because I say it's so"
"Like you said, I'm all you have"
"In my house this will be the rule, no exceptions"
"You will do it because I say so"

Countless words
unlimited breaths
all for what
for history to repeat once more?

Not this time
Not this round
Not this year
I won't break under your thumb once more
Because for once, I am choosing myself
And learning to love myself
more then I could love
the false man you played
Your greatest fear, only coming true
You are more like him then you think
And I am glad I am not my mom

Once the clouds part, and sun shines down, only then can I see what damage the abuse caused. And how strong I am for getting out and not letting it continue.

Writing of the Unknown Apr 18

Phantom

A thrill when together
A longing for more
The rush of adrenaline
The endless soul searching
Trying to fill upon the gaze of another

But the kind devil
And mean trickster
Have all vanished
And left the phantom in their place

A hope
A plee
But in the end it was foretold of pain
So why does it hurt when truth was shown
That you were nothing
But a ghost in my mind.....

Writing of the Unknown Apr 18

A forgotten bitterness

Why am I broken?
Why am I traumatized?
Why can't I be loved?
Why can't I be safe?

I share my hopes and dreams
Only for the knife to be sharpened
As it gets pushed into my back...

Is this really suppose to happen
Or is it just the real life
Of my own plot

One where the happy ending
Isn't for the daughter.....

Writing of the Unknown Apr 15

Just words...

Simple and sweet
a sugary high none can match
a endless taste upon the lips

a bitter cup
coated in venom
Endless torment from the remains

Constant attempts
dwindling hope
but in the end

there all just words
so why do they hurt
when told to stop?

Writing of the Unknown Apr 12

Battle

A constant fight
A constant war
But in the end
was it really worth it?