I thought once that my lips would comfort you,
Instead I realize they are nothing more than covered in razor blades
And it doesn't matter how hard I try,
How delicate I am,
Blood always stains our clothes when you get close

You were right there,
In arms length
And my hand was outstretched towards you,
But my fingers couldn't find yours quick enough
And I know your arm was tiring
So I let you let go
Even though all I want to do is hold on tight, tighter
Til my knuckles turn white
But exhaustion is on your face
And I can't be the cause of that look ever again

And I lay in pieces on the floor.
Little do you know I kept my promise, and I'm free
free from the chains that bound me,
Like we always talked about, like we dreamed
and I could show up at your door and tell you, but the damage is too grave
Because the minutes ticked past due and
Your cuts are too deep I fear my bandages cannot heal them
So instead the silence will be all my own
And I'll fumble with the glue
Trying to piece myself back together
And even though I can taste your forever on my tongue,
I should let you move on,
Because my love won't be able to quench your thirst
Because it's the hesitation that kills you, that killed me

And when my eyes finally find comfort in this dark, empty house
Its you I see
Standing beside me on a bridge, telling me don't be afraid
Holding my hand in a field full of sunflowers
Kissing me on the hood of your car
Laying in your bed with your arms wrapped tightly around me
I never knew so many places could feel like home
Yet these places are just places
And you are my home

You speak to my heart
Sometimes through tiny scraps of paper
It's just ink
But I save every one, clinging to them when my mind goes dark
Sometimes through melodies,
Words that are not your own,
But convey your every thought and feeling
And sometimes through your kiss
As the taste of you lingers on my lips, begging for more
It's been seldom lately that I hear your voice
But I've come to realize
That with you
spoken words aren't necessary
For me to know,
To feel your love
Because in every way
Even in those I didn't know you could
You speak to my heart

I had raged a war inside myself.
And I was unmerciful
In a war that has no victor.
I was holding back
How can I utter these words,
destroy someone's entire world
All that they think they know,
Nearly every inch of their life
But since I've come to realize
If it's their world I don't shatter, it's mine that will.

...i love you
In the most innocent of forms,
In the way that I hold your hand while sitting in the passenger seat
In the way that Ill run my fingers through your hair when you've had a rough day
In the way my entire body exhales when you wrap your arms around me
And in the way i search for you in every poem I read, every movie I watch, every song that comes on the radio, every photograph
I long to find better words to describe it,
But until then
I just, whole heartedly,
Undeniably, chaotically,
love you.