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Laurel Selby Dec 2024
He came into my life 12 yrs ago,
A wall of destruction, a life without a pulse
A toxicity that filled my veins head and heart
The worst comedown in my 41yrs
was rehabbing you out of my mind
Today I am free but our child does bind
She didn't see the alcohol fuelled vile
You spat in my face year after year
the touch ups the tears
The broken lives that filled this house
She only sees her dad, her pedestal is high
Today was your day as I kissed her goodbye
But tonight I am filled with so much anger for you
For her I give my strength to endure the lifetime ahead
Promises made and as broken as I
placed your evil look in my baby's eyes
Instead of kisses hello mum and a hug
I got abuse attitude and hatred tonight

Because of you,
I AM THE BAD ONE


29/03/2012
I had never spoken ill to my daughter regarding her father, she is now 22 and has a beautiful mind of her own.
Laurel Selby Dec 2024
I've cried all my tears the well is dry
Let's not make this hard we can't deny
It's time to move on
No more years we should waste
Good times are remembered
though bitter-sweet we both taste
I must let you go for insanity rears
I have finally put to rest all of my fears
I am stronger in heart mind body and soul
Without you I must find my own self control
The path I have chosen, my decision to make
You lost that right long ago with the road you did take.
Goodbye to you, I wish you nothing but well,  Finally I am free from my own private hell.

14/2/2012
I wrote (just realised the date!!) this after leaving a domestic violence relationship of 12 years, it took another 8years to stop being scared.
Laurel Selby Dec 2024
The table is older and faded so the time between shows
The scenery a little different, less the chairs still in their rows
The drinks are down by one now,  and so our tears do flow
Our hearts cry out for justice
That only karma knows
The void that's left now your not here,
Is the same in size of all our fears
That solemn day comes once a year,
The day you left, one filled of tears
So tears do flow, when the sun does rise
For the 1st of June is when we said goodbye,
Forever in our hearts they say, not a day shall pass as well
For me my heart is shattered and my eyes an endless well.
The grief I feel near every day
has not wavered in its pain,
Your death is still so **** surreal
My tears I cannot tame.
Nothing has brought you back
No wishing on the stars
No begging Jesus' sweetly
Will ever heal my scars
The first of June  I lost you
From two brothers down to one
Tomorrow marks the day our boy
When your forever 41


31/05/2023
Written for my little brother Johnny tragically taken from us 01/06/2020
Laurel Selby Nov 2024
Death without warning embraced my brother.
Now silently, painfully stealing another.
For now it's my dad, not long for this earth
So clear in his eyes how he questions his worth.
Creatures of habit as we humans are,
Death and dying seems to be so afar
Why don't we stop,
hold our loved ones so tight,
Not believing that death
will come creeping one night,
Because we feel so invincible
That time is just a clock on the wall.
Everything put off, due to love, due to hate.
Whatever the reason time does not wait.
I may not be the first to say this
I certainly won't be the last,

"Please make time for your family, don't wait till they pass"

For death without warning will appear in your night
Embracing your loved one into the light.



Laurel Selby
12/8/24
My dad was diagnosed with cancer throughout his Lymph nodes as well a rare aggressive bone cancer in July 2024, dad passed away 9th December 2024.
My dad Ron Selby was a founding member of the Australian Bush Poets, my dad was my world and I miss him greatly.

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