Do you hear noises at night
See ghosts of ex's that were never really there?
Do you wipe ***** dishes with clean cloths and leave them there

Space out on purpose
Or act dumb
Because being smart draws
More attention

Have you ever slept so peacefully
You woke up face first in drool?

Do you brush doors and walls
With body parts
More than you touch other people?

These are the kinds of things I wonder

But I know you're never wondering
About me.

He is always there, always taunting, always waiting.
Leading me round and round, killing me slowly.
Everyday I am ready for him to find my secret,
A sin so dark he has no choice but to take me.

Death is a promise, not a threat.
Everyone dies.
And there is no way to escape it.
Death will find you.
Count your days, our time here is limited.

Flashback to three years ago
Sensing what’s next seems foreign
Grasping this and that as if it’s everything
Even when it doesn’t come to you

Trembling lips, crumbling vision, ringing mindlessly
During that blink of an eye,
record it to review  
In different angles, it could be anything

Flash forward to three years more —
Choose what arrives often,
to erase bizarre questions that may crawl
into you

You mustn’t get swallowed
by self-made potion
Before you realize, it’ll paralyze everything
When it doesn’t come to you

Loving him was beautiful.
I was overwhelmed with emotion,
Showing my heart to him,
Piece by emotional piece.
Every night, he was the last person I talked to.
He made me so full of worth, so amazing, so perfect.
Our love was so pure.
Then something shifted.
Another girl, more amazing and perfect, caught his eye.
It was the most painful goodbye I had been through.
I knew then that I would never again fall in love,
Never give someone the power to crush me.