Vesper

Vesper 1d

fallen

i was 14 days clean
before it happened again
i knew that i shouldnt
but i did it anyways

the pain has never fully left me
i dont believe it ever will
but this time
it might have been too deep

now i walk with a slight limp
cause it hurts to walk
and people
are starting to stare

ive got so many problems
so where do i start
ill just bathe in a pool of sorrow

ill do it tomorrow

#depression #sad

Vesper Apr 15

euphoria

cutting
      scratching
                     deeper

euphoria
takes my body by surprise
i cant stop it
do i want to?

i have to
    before
          it
            takes
                  me
                       more

Vesper Feb 28

Sensitive

It feels like as soon as I say a word
It's examined
Looked over
And they find something wrong with it
Why are they all so sensitive?

Vesper Feb 6

Feelings Changing

I don't think
That I just like girls anymore
But I don't know what I know
I think people will find out
I think people will know
I'm very confused

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Vesper Feb 3

****** up

****** up mind
****** up life
****** up world

it seems like everything is terrible nowadays

#******* #depression

Vesper Feb 3

happy snow

looking out my window at night
watching the snowflakes fall like frozen tears
wiped away from a crying face

i walked outside to catch snowflakes in my mouth
happy for the first time in while
smiling- a real one this time
not just a fake upturned mouth

rushing inside to tell my sister
seeing my mom smiling
seeing my dad sleeping
i love being happy
i wish
i was happy every day

Vesper Feb 2

Untitled

the tears fallen create pools and lakes
shimmering blue in the new day sun
dripping from my face like rain droplets
flowing from clouds of fluff
no, i dont think this life is for me