I don't know why I'm nervous
About you and I becoming us
But I'm a hope-oholic with a tonic


Flawed; Obscured from reality
Afraid of what's ahead of me
This happy thing it doesn't work
Watch me as I crash and burn
Help forget one thing

Now I've got this fear in me
And it makes me see
That you're worth more than I can be
I've lost myself and I can't breath
I'll fight my way to prove I'm strong
enough to love you

Dear, tell me what I need to fear
Hold me while I've got you here
Give me everything you've got
And I'll still fight my tendency
To think I'm wrong

Now I've got this fear in me
And it makes me see
That you're worth more than I can be
I've lost myself and I can't breath
I'll fight my way to prove I'm strong
enough to love you

Flawed; Obscured from reality
Afraid of what's ahead of me
This happy thing it doesn't work
Watch me as I crash and burn
Help forget one thing
Well, I thought that we could strike a useful deal
Rid me of this ugliness I feel
I see that you've got the perfect tool
Come on, love, just bend the golden rule
They'll try push me away to prove
That I don't love you
But I still do

This relationship ain't working out
You have me drowning in self doubt
I spent so long figuring out your game
Ana, I ache when people breath your name

Blurred vision, falling away from reason
You tore me down and sparked internal treason
Whispering promises in my ear
I'm tired and numb to all but fear

You wanted bones and lies
My infatuation left me blind
I couldn't see the decay with my eyes
Your undead hands held me in a bind

I broke free some how
I don't crave you anymore
I certainly don't need you now
I won the battle; maybe not the war

I'm not racing anymore I am slowing down
I fear I'm out of my depth and I'm gonna drown
Your perfect smile was making me insane
But I will never forget the searing pain

It's not coming from my mouth it's coming from my soul
I thought our love would get the chance to grow old
Through the smoke I see the definite end
It brings a tear to my eye and I begin to choke

The blood in my veins tries hard to break through the skin
You had my heart on the wall held up with a pin
You say you loved me once and that is no lie
I'll just walk on, stay strong and one day fly
Away from you

You're right on time
But I'd talk better with a mime
Smoke your cigarette and cough away the years
Yours are the driest tears
Please come from those on their knees
Smoke your cigarettes and shoot the breeze

Look at the world like a decaying work of art
You keep your feelings bottled up thinking that others will just corrupt you
All warped up in diamond cloth
Ready for whatever
Fight against a disembodied enemy

Smoke your cigarette and remind yourself your better than us all
It's ok we are about to fall

My one mistake was that I didn't make more
I spin and twirl over an impossible girl
Energy expelled on a perpetual war
Watching as the robins unfurl

From your record store I did adore
And from that ****** place I did implore
I searched so that I could be sore no more
Trying to simplify what's on the other side of my eye
Where panic and bliss fly and fear and loathing kiss
It's better to be alone then be surround by people that make you feel alone, like you have no home.
I sleep now on the fire, waking in sweat as I fight and fret over the problem of the day.  But I never bother to pray. Are we made in Gods image ?we are afraid and unhappy so I hope he is too
I don't want to be another statistic of the Suicide Production Company
In a world with an end why prolong the inevitable I want this on my own teams I'll take my live in my own hands I'll take my life by my own hands

There could be too much inside me
There could not be enough
There could be belief
There could be love

I'm afraid I'll never see
The me I want to be
Is it too much to ask to simply
Be happy?

The scars on my arms
Trigger submergence
Sounding great alarms
And pain in abundance

From the daze and craze
From the stress and mess
From the pressure beyond measure
My heart suffocates

Happiness is an alien concept
Maybe contemptment is sane
But I wonder 'Does any light remain?'

I have a feeling
I keep it locked away
I can only use it once
And I await that special day

You look at me as if it's my job
To save you from what ensues
Well, I am no knight
Girl I've got my own issues

I am not who you think I am
You'll never understand
That I am part devil
See my red right hand?

You sit and deconstruct the words
I use to deconstruct
And ask me the questions you're
Too afraid to ask yourself

I've sentenced myself to solitude
But you won't let me be
Riding high on the coat tails of fame fame

Answering the same questions differently
I don't even know if my opinions are mine anymore
Is this an origonal thought or was the seed planted
A time ago by an impalpable bellwether?

I don't want your admiration
It's leads to my frustration
I know I'm no lodestar of creation
Your mind needs some mediation
I'm near my peak of exacerbation
Please leave to give me a moments relaxation
I just crave some alleviation