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  Dec 2014 Hannah Turek
SMN
she is so lonely
sitting over there
in the corner by
herself
her so called friends
are more worried about
themselves  
than about their friend
who’s hurting herself
and hiding from them
she’s dropping hints
but no one picks up
they simply don’t care
she’s been hurting for so long
that she’s numb inside
she doesn’t feel pain anymore
she’s used to it and used to
being ignored and left out
the only time that she feels
anything is when her eyes
lets out floods of tears

*(s.m)
she, is me
Hannah Turek Dec 2014
See, when i was in second grade i thought i was going to be the typical cheerleader football player couple
But the truth was, i didn't know anything about football and i was as flexible as a chopstick

As i got older elementary school i thought i was going to be popular and date the hottest guy in my grade
As of now all the "hot guys" think they are cooler than everyone or they are not even that attractive as everyone says they are, looks and personality

It's weird as you get older, you change on what you like in a guy
i thought "hey hot football player, i'm in"
and now its all like " i'll go for the adorkable guy in band"

As you go on you realize you can't control who you like
who you get the butterflies for
it could be someone you never expect
sometimes it happens and you don't know why

and thats how i feel about you
the whole "i feel something and i don't know why"

yes i don't even know you
yes we only had one period together last year and we never talked
yes i purposely wore those shirts so maybe you would spark up a conversation with me but you probably thought i was some weird girl who wore the same shirts every week
yes i go and talk to my friends that are talking to you because i just want to hear vibrant words come out of your mouth
yes i might laugh really hard at your jokes because 1) i laugh at almost anything 2) they are really funny and 3)you're saying them
yes i draw attention to my self so that i know I'm visible in your eyes but i know i will never be because i feel like you are way too cool for me

as of right now i will try to talk to you
i will try to become one of your best friends
i will try to be as intelligent, funny, kind and sweet as you
but i know i will never be on the same level of perfection as you are on

you may never know this but i have read too many fictional love stories in my life time that it has affected the way i think love and relationships should be
  Dec 2014 Hannah Turek
Madisen Kuhn
he’s telling me about the girl at school
he can’t get out of his head,
and how he feels like
it’s always this chain of
"i don’t want all these people that want me,"
(i winced)
“and the one person i want doesn’t want me
in the same way.”
(i inhaled sharply)

i told him he’s overthinking it,
and when he asked, “how do you not?”
(i forgot to breathe)

my eyes got watery, but i blinked quickly
before they could settle
(i exhaled)

and replied,
“i'll let you know.”

— The End —