the troublemaker who knows no rules
a soft warm heart under a pile of stone

he is the stoner
a free falling soul just trying to live out loud
always lashed upon but never was punished

he is the winner of the blame game
all fingers point to him when trouble arises
it must be him they say
he had to do it
just because he doesn't care

a misunderstood teen fighting for his life
innocent until proven guilty I say
behind his back I stand
watching it like a mother

he is the web spinner
spinning lies to hide the truth
they hate him for this
I say spin your lies
in the end no one can stop him
so why try
easy for me to say
he doesn't spin his lies on me

the determined transformer
wanting nothing but to prove he can rise above
emotionally bound to show them they were wrong

he is my brother.

The best words I every heard were be true to you
be yourself
that's all you can do
there's no point in being someone else

Second best words I ever heard is just one word
that word is no
no no no
you cant ever be afraid to just say no
let no one guilt you to utter the other word

Third best words I ever heard are just two words
speak out loud
ask the question
speak your mind
don't be afraid to just speak..

I'm Laying on the floor
with a knife in hand
holding back tears
arguing with myself
I need an escape
freedom from this haunted cage
there is no escape
the shadows of my mind will never leave
reminding me of every mistake
questioning every joy
turning everything upside down
leaving me with nothing
here comes the tears
as I shake and shudder with fear
perhaps the life I love is just a waste
all my hope is buried deep
covered by dead willow trees
I want to draw blood
watch it slide down my arm
its not the pain I'm after
just the blood, a lake for my trees
a temporary fix
when morning comes I'll be back at square one.

a piece of my soul is on you now.
the curves and curls of my life so entwined yet simple to branch alone.
let the music flow in your ears and lay still on your veins seeping into each cell that which flows freely caring your DNA.
a piece of my soul is on you now.
the pain Ive felt from every hurtful word.
the joy from each smile Ive formed.
every love and lost a piece is on you now.
a tiny crumb of truth and lie.
carry with pride.
one day you'll see.
thinking back breathing slow.
a piece of my soul is on you now.