Goodbye my dear
How I will leave you here
Down on the ground while I'm hanging high and dry
Can't explain things or my reasons why
I'm just sick of this world oh how I want to die
I don't want a reason to live
A reason to love
A reason to stay
Or all of the above
I want to die and rest among the dead
Be free of this world
How I've bled
For these people this way that I am
Addicted to pain a black sheep amongst lamb
I don't need your shepherd
I don't need to be guided
I just need to be free I can't continue to fight it
Get me out of this life and get me out of my head
God stop giving me second chances
I just want to be dead
I've tried so many times
I've cried even more
What does it take for death to arrive at your door?
I want these voices to stop this heartache to cease
Can you please God just let me rest in piece!
Why won't you let me die
Let me be free
Life isn't a gift it's a test for them and for me
To see if we're good
Bad eggs mixed within the dozens
So misunderstood
All of our brothers and cousins
We are broken defeated with no will
While there are still those that tell us how to feel
That just turns the knife and makes matters worse
What does it take to be free of this curse
This pain we are born with it shatters us as people
But all that don't matter as long as you have a sizable steeple
Can't you see there's no reason for me to be here
I don't want Jesus to take the wheel I want to be the one to steer
*** life is going too fast
I think I'm going to crash
The idea of my legacy is nothing but trash
So smite me dead it's one simple task... I just want to die... That's all that I ask....

You attack me with words
But I'm the bite to your bark
You can talk the talk
While I walk in the dark
I'll show the world and ignite the spark
Because that's what you get when you try swimming with sharks

Now here you go ramblin blaming me again
Telling me how crazy I am in the head
All these lies you've fed
The pride you shed
When you've found out from you fake *** friends that I wound up dead

How I've bled for you and blamed myself
Grabbed the razor and your scarf and done hung myself
How I hated myself
How I've betrayed myself
Lied and cut the nose off my face just to spite myself
So when you've ripped out my heart I hope you keep it showcased on your trophy shelf
I hope after seeing your good work that you'll be proud of yourself

I won't fight back
Ill let you cut me up
Gag me with a sock just to shut me up
While you cut off my limbs so I can't do jack
Bleeding out while you continue to attack

So clean off your blade and whistle while you work
Writing all these threats in your nice little book
Then give it back to me and I'll give back a smirk
Now the whole world will see how you've gone crazy and berserk

I walk into this containment cell of lost souls
Groping around hoping to succeed towards their parent'a goals
We are all just playing another role
A building block under their control
But when you're the block that causes Jenga, heads start to roll
They'll throw you into a hole
Where you'll live your life like a mole
An animal in a cage, a box, a cell, that's the tole
Their real goal
To lock you up and maintain control

I am myself
I live free
I pity those
Who do not know themselves

All you see
Are the people you need
The people you use
To set your mind free

It is the sin of sloth
To only think of others
You are worth not your time
You know not time
You think for pain
And ask what you have gained
Nothing

You need yourself
To be set free
To see others
Whom they really be

I was there
But my mind has been cleared
I have lost all my fears
And become a deer

Dear,
You will be there
And I'll be here
Come to me
When you're free

My good friend the darkness has betrayed me tonight
The blackness used to blind my sight of all the horrors
That cause me such angst and terror
My demons that fill me with fright

Are here with me now
The thunderous march
of their footsteps on the ground
Their laughter oh so loud
I was almost feeling proud
I had gone so long without them around

Does Death want me or not
When she's standing over me her expression distraught
Looking at her watch singing tick tock tick tock
I can't seem to fathom whether this a lesson I'm being taught
But I just cower under my covers because that's the only strength I've got

The sun has risen once again
Another dreadful night has come to an end
Another dreadful day begins
So I get up and put on my face and adjust my grin
No one will suspect anything is wrong not even my friends

I'm sorry I'm always tired
But I'm up all night while my sanity expires
A mind of my own is all that I desire
l'd like to trade my eyes for new because they are nothing but liars
That's all that I require......
Is that too much to ask?