Amber Rae McNeilan: Favorites

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Campbell Pennington

You're in kindergarten
and all the girls have a crush on Charlie
You pretend to like him too,
but can't help staring at Katie
You're eight years old
when your aunt takes your barbies away
after she sees you make the two girls kiss
You're in middle school
and you see your two best friends kiss
It makes uncomfortable
and you don't know why
You're sixteen,
reading seventeen magazine
There's an article about kissing girls
and you read it too many times
You're a Senior
and you're so confused
because you daydream
about kissing the girl with soft hair
You're twenty-one now
and things are much more clear
It's hard to imagine
how it took you so long to figure out

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Going, Going, Gone...

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Campbell Pennington

Going, Going, Gone...

I cannot be still
My mind runs
My legs bounce
My hands twitch
I wander
I don't know the meaning of permanence
Everyone leaves
Everything changes
How am I supposed to put down roots
when my life is a constant landslide?

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Crying Wolf

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Shaima Al-Marzouqi

Crying Wolf

Always wearing the tough guy hat
Showing others the tough wall that she has built
Making them believe that nothing and no one can break through
That the wall is made of steel
When in reality it's being put back together with cheap duct tape each night

At nights, she cracks
She can't hold it in anymore
At nights, she is most herself
Broken, but her true self. No masks no putting any shows, just herself

She can't understand what she's feeling and that is killing her
Who are you supposed to understand and know better if not yourself?

She kept finding herself leaning toward wolves and their stories
People fearing the howls not realizing it's a cry for help
Perhaps she could relate
Perhaps both are misunderstood by others and themselves
Not knowing who they are and who they should be
Only knowing comfort under the moonlight

As the silent tears find their way down her cheeks
She sleeps at night with few answers
Only to wake up with more questions that she cannot find the answers to
She keeps waking up more confused than the day before
Making her wonder: "is this all that I am? Is this all that I can be?"

#poetry #sad #depression #life #pain #lost #thoughts

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

"The Sin Sewn Soul"

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Brandon K Stephenson

"The Sin Sewn Soul"

I can see those tired eyes
Even when your heads down
I can feel all the pain you locked away
Inside your box of guilt.
Between every wall you hide behind
Behind every lie you try to hide
I have seen it all before
But I will walk
With you once more.
I choose to walk
By your side
I will hold your hand
I will give you sight
One more time
I will be your guide.
One more time
I will light your night.
Why push me away?
When I'm here to dry your eyes
Every step I've taken with you
Everyday of your life,
Why turn away from me?
When I've taken away
All your pain
Why turn down my love?
When I held your hand
And led you from above,
Down every road,
Through every shadow
And around every bump.
Why lock the door to your heart?
Why leave me standing here,
Alone in the dark?
I have felt every breath,
Your life will ever take.
I know every thought,
Your mind will ever make.
I stay even though,
I know the day
That you let go.
I was there,
I watched you grow
I was there,
I watched you sew
Every sin,
Neatly in a row.
I watched you cover,
The walls of your soul.
Although I could not watch
All of your mistakes.
Sometimes i just had,
To look the other way
But, at the end of everyday
Each and every sin,
Each time you cursed my name,
Each time you looked at me with blame
Each and every time,
My son,
You were forgave.
And I want you to know,
That I am standing here today.
I want you to know
I will stay here always
Wandering these halls,
Regretting these stains
Waiting for you.
My son,
To bow your head and pray.

- Brandon K. Stephenson

Something that just came to me

#love #sin #life #pain #god #sadness #neglect #compassion #choices #burdens

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Whiskey

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Natasha

Whiskey

She's sick to her stomach of your ******* promises,
Of the nights you promised to bring happiness and brought pain.
She swallowed you up in the pit of her being
And you Gargled inside her making her spit and splutter,
She's in the gutter.
And while she's down you pump your poison through her veins with nothing to gain, numbing her brain.
Yet again, you mask the pain.

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

The Dance

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Dred Erive

The Dance

She swayed to the side,
As their hands intertwined.
Her lips moving,
With no words to be heard.
They moved closer to each other,
Not knowing who will be the first
To make the move.
She touched the face of her lover,
As they went on dancing.
The tears weld up. As they keep on dancing;
No one stops dancing when you've danced with the devil.

#love #dance

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Promises

Aug 2015 Amber Rae McNeilan

Xiao - SparKticas

Promises

I can't promise you
that dark clouds
will never hover
over our lives
or that the future
will bring us many rainbows.
I can't promise you
that tomorrow
will be perfect
or that life will be easy.
I can promise you
my everlasting devotion,
my loyalty, my respect,
and my unconditional love for a lifetime.
I can promise that
I'll always be here for you,
to listen and to hold your hand,
and I'll always do my best to make you happy,
and make you feel loved.
I can promise that
I'll see you through any crisis,
and be with you,
dream with you,
build with you,
and always cheer you on
and encourage you.
I can promise that
I'll willingly be your protector,
your advisor, your counselor,
your friend, your family
your boyfriend, your husband,
your everything.
I promise you.

#love #relationship #her #promise #unconditional