I clench my teeth so hard
that I've given myself
a permanent headache
always have an advil
in my back pocket
except I used to chase it
with a tall glass of him
because he was like rain
the kind of downpour
you'd go outside to feel
without an umbrella
opened up your mouth
and looked up to the sky
didn't you feel so alive?
as the water reached
every pore, even the ones
you never knew you had
(but now the rain is gone)
and this was before
we disconnected
my body from your soul
removed the morning dew
from the cold grass
traded evergreens for oaks
droplets for ice
only to realize
a new coast
was not a new life
so now, every time
the clouds form
I think of you
and your rain jacket
when everything feels so heavy,
I miss your light love
the way it trickled
down my face
as your hands trickled
down my spine
didn't you feel so alive?

Short and sweet
like the life of the diabetic

We're all hypochondriacs
To the human conditioning

We've been taught
to be themselves
not ourselves.

No child left behind while evolution is staggering
Tripping our own feet divided by class systems 
Get off my lawn

They're still asking,
"where do you see yourselves in 5 years?"
and I still don't know,
this short-term impulse control needs to learn longevity

If I could only dream of blissfulness.
Oblivion and oddity riddle my sleeping mind
and my closed eyes make
hallucinations
which never seem to fade.
The shutters open, mother draws the curtains
but still the shadows dart beneath the bookcase.

We drank myself into an unbreakable stupor
and just a year since I vowed to feel nothing in extreme,
I could not cry if I tried.

And trust me, I try.
But things change, I've changed. While all you remain
and wonder why I'm throwing my life away.

I only breathe when I sing,
feel the rain on my skin and the warmth of the sun
and
with your fingers through my hair I am happy again.

But love or fear is not an option.
Only eventual dreamless death.

Moonshine on me crazy
Kick back and dive into my lunacy
Drink of my wine
and intoxicate
so the words are ever so
contagious
for another to drink
Spin with me and learn to keep
your eyes in place
Although the world is blinding
you'll see once your mind is tamed
Then stumble around with your heart on
your sleeve and watch as others hesitate
as you seem obscene
It's funny how when you speak the truth
Society turns away
I'm treated like the village drunk
my mind is blown away

Its the line we all dread to hear
and once the card is on the table
everyone screams *******
but in some cases
it holds true
I was always the one to step in my
own way
preying upon my mind
illuding myself at every turn
I regret this matter it leaves me cold
shivering at what people may have felt
left wondering in an after thought
But I can assure you it was never you
it was my twisted mind and bent will

Out of focus fuzzy figured dancers
dancing the step of life
spin and shift moving with the tides
and tho there was an effort to learn
I failed and bailed to find room 101
To the hustle and bustle of blurs and
white noise
'I bid a soundless farewell
and when you caught me glancing
a moment too long
I guess you should have known
I was never built for this world

It was many and many a year ago,
  In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
  By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
  Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
  In this kingdom by the sea:
But we loved with a love that was more than love—
  I and my ANNABEL LEE;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
  Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
  In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
  My beautiful ANNABEL LEE;
So that her highborn kinsmen came
  And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
  In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
  Went envying her and me—
Yes!—that was the reason (as all men know,
  In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
  Chilling and killing my ANNABEL LEE.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
  Of those who were older than we—
  Of many far wiser than we—
And neither the angels in heaven above,
  Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
  Of the beautiful ANNABEL LEE.

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
  Of the beautiful ANNABEL LEE;
And the stars never rise but I see the bright eyes
  Of the beautiful ANNABEL LEE;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling, my darling, my life and my bride,
  In her sepulchre there by the sea—
  In her tomb by the side of the sea.

Beauty dies, angels blow away.
I scream with my memory forever of you.
Makeup covers your lips and cheek.
I scream, you really pick a fight.
Not there, one night,
No one saved the love.
Always in my heart,
I only dream I’ll fall in love with someone else now.
Running more,
Hoping to never remember you.