The cold tickled me
I tickled the wind with breath
I screamed from top of the hill
Invincible and unstoppable
Thinking to myself
Will I ever be invincible?
Will the world see me as I see me?
Do you?

I and U
Yes, I and U
I is me
I is unstoppable
U is you
And I will stop you
I will stop you from destroying yourself
I will stop you from destroying I and U
I Love U

All that I have ever wanted
Is all that I have

Born on Mars
Raised up as a Scorpio Goddess
Destroying the demons in my path
Loving everyone who can be loved
Hating the ones who've betrayed me
Living on as a Goddess
An egyptian goddess who speaks words of life
A goddess

It's 8:30
I'm laying down
In a huge room
A room filled with loneliness and matter
But nothing matters at all
The moment you realize the people you thought were there for you are not
So I sit and lay and cradle myself
Nights like this are the worst
Only thing I want for Christmas are my loved ones but they're dead.
Angels
Look down and heal my broken heart on thus night

Hate it when he's high
It's something that's missing from his life that cannot be replaced
I wanted him to get high off me
High off the movements of my body
High off the carressing words I speak
What do he need to know that I am his?

It's words
If he never spoke prolifically to me
I would never let him be with me
Words are so powerful
Because it makes you happy
Makes you sad and mad
Can't be with a person who does not use the words I want to hear
Words could be love or hate
Just Words

Art bursts out my veins onto the canvas.

They say love is real
It's a feeling that you can't describe
I never felt love
I've felt hate
I've felt the feeling
The feeling of pressure on your heart
I've tasted the salty tears from hate
I've felt the punches of hate
I've had the bruises from hate
But how does love feel?
Does it feel so good?
Will the feeling be stronger then the hate I've felt?
Will it?
What's the difference of love and hate?

Hope you smoke away
Because all you do is smoke
I can't have you for a second
You're always high
I want you
I love you
But you ignore my feelings
For that last "high"
Tired of you saying you're done smoking
When you're not
But I'm done
I'm done with you
Have a nice life high
Once you get back to reality
You're going to realize that I'm gone and won't be coming back
But that's life
It's reality

I'm always there for people
But it seems like no one is there for me
Can someone be there when I need them?
I don't ask for much

I fall in love with words
I'm so sensitive
I'm so happy
But it's just words, not actions
He says I'm meant for him
But he hasn't fully showed me
It's just words

I did it again
I let him back in
He's my Bestfriend
How can I tell him no?
Art is what brought us together
My paintings his graphics
For the love of art

I'm going to miss my pink and blue walls
I'm going to miss the squeaky noise
I'm going to miss the nosey neighbors
I was ready to get rid of the pain of emotions of this house
But tomorrow morning it's happening
I'm moving on to better
I cherished the past
But wow my future is so bright
Moving on to better things....

You asked me what's wrong
When you're the problem
You hurt me and you knew it
How can I be so strong from intentional hurt? It's just not right
Then you ask me why I'm still mad because you said SORRY
Sorry! I hear it all the time
You are sorry
I'm done with you
How can I act the same way towards you when you hurt me where it hurts the most?
Why would you even?
I can't
I can't
And I'm done
I'm done
Done with the hurt
Done with the lies
Done with the sorry
Done with the betrayal
Baby I'm done with you

Betrayal hurts
It's the feeling a person gives you when they hurt you intentionally
It's the feeling he gave me 15 minutes ago
It's the feelings that's going to make me not love you anymore
It's the feelings that I've losed for you
I'm done with you have a nice life
I supported everything you did
Just to have betrayal knocking on my front door
Remember that karma is a *****

You never noticed me
When you did
I was nothing but a friend
My heart told me to do everything for you
But yours told you not to
I wanted more
You took my heart away
You pricked every vessel with your words
I bled to death because loving someone who doesn't love me
Is death to my heart

Everything I am is everything he was
Everything he is
Is everything I will be

He lured me in
I fell for it
He took control
I was so young
Body count was triple my age
I felt alone every night
Every old man who touched me
Every man who took a part of me during the night sky
Every man who hurt me
Killed me each year
My mind is mentally gone
I can't think on my own
All I want is help to live again

****** your ears
Reduce the pain
Smooth words
Rough ending

Dark soul
Bright thoughts
Killer words
Dead Thoughts

I just realized I would want a world like brave new world. Where death comes at age 60 expectably instead of unexpected death and the feelings that it causes. A world where feelings are not among us only on given days. A world that uses soma to relieve there pain. It's quite a nice new world a world unattainable.

Land of the wicked
Land of the famed
Land of the people that done called my name
Land of the grateful
Land of the kind
Land of the murderers who **** for a living
Land of the brave
Land of the free
Land of the corrupted cops who **** for a living
Land of America
Land of the wicked

There so called "flotsam"
I'm standing on millions now
Walking down the alley where I use to lay on the sidewalks
Saw the men who called me "flotsam"
But they didn't recognize me instead they complemented me on this Hermes apparel
I let them talked
Asked them where they work
They work for my company
I decided to leave
But before I left
I turned back around
I told them I'm the man that's so called "flotsam"
By the way you're fired

They bickered
They called me flotsam
They thought because i was homeless I didnt have the intellect to know
They called me flotsam
Am I worthless like they say
Am I debris to society
Realizing I can never think like that
Because if I did I would be dead
But I'm trying
I'm trying not to be that so called "flotsam"
Bet you I'm smarter then them
But my circumstances are inevitable
The sad life of a so called "flotsam"

I want more of you
Want more of your love
But that's not you
Pretty soon I will be leaving you
Wanted you to take this journey with me
But the love is not there
It's you, not me

Let your money go
Doesn't declare the happy
Doesn't declare the sad
But it declares the greed
Declares of wanting more
Declares of sacrificing goods
Sacrificing every minute
Wanting more

The excitement of a child
Is in you when you get a new artist tool
Write,color,paint
It's an artist tool
It's all new
It all you
You figure out what you want to do first
With the new tool
Your a child
Full of joy and happiness
I'm that child with a new tool

I break down
I sit down
I feel a hurricane
My eyes rain
I sit in a flood of salt water tears
Eyes red as a blood moon
Head pounds like the drummer
Realizing how easy life can fall apart
It falls apart so easily
Wow

Daddy was ashamed
Of his little girl
He knew his little girl was all on the Internet
He knew his little girl nudes leaked
He left his little girl feeling all alone
And that little girl felt like she was alone
So baby girl ran away
Ran away from home because she wasn't loved, so she thought
She ran away to a wilderness so far away
No one else could get there
She ran away and went to heaven

Drowning my misery with some hennesey

Why don't you love me, like I love you?

Let my art be the sound of my soul
Let it reminisce of the good times
Let it scribble the lines of the bad times
Let it bloom with excitement
Let my art be a representation of me
Just let it be me

Looked into his eyes
And it looked into my heart
The feeling that spread through my body was unrecongnizable
It was quite beautiful
A sight to behold

Miles apart
But still connected by heart

He said he loved me
And I didn't know what to say
He said he loved me
And I looked blank in his face
He asked me if I loved him
But I don't know
I don't know how love is suppose to be
He said he loved me

Yesterday you couldn't tell me I wasn't in love
Today you can

That invigorating feeling I have right now
That I can't stop
Stop painting
Stop writing
It's a sense of adrenaline
That was lost in an artist heart
Unkept but still groomed
Of an artist heart
My heart

The life I live can never be depicted in a movie script
I'm afraid that no actor can ever feel what I've felt
I'm afraid no one has the word for it
It would take years for them to depict 2% of my life
The audience would cry but would want to find out more
But I wouldn't want them to dig through my dark secrets that could cause a terror.
Terror, of a cause that can never be depicted

The heart is in my art

Your not just summer time fine baby
Your winter time fine
Your the fine of my dreams
Babe your just fine

Would he stop making me feel so good inside. Making me bloom like the rose I am. Making my thoughts think like his mind. Making my heart beat with his.

Would he stop
Making me blush like a rose
Making my smile bloom so much
Would he stop
Giving me butterflies
Making me feel like I'm his queen
Would he stop
Hard to get affection if you've never been loved

When he holds me
When I'm mad
When he kisses my neck
When I'm as blush as the rose
When I lay and rub him
Because I love him

Thinking of the **** you said
Thinking whether or not I should say *******
Not giving a **** about your feeling no more
Treating you like you treated me
Like ****
You ******* hit with low blows
Knowing **** we'll how sensitive this heart can be
You tell me you love me the next day
You said it was the beer
But **** didn't you say that the last time
******* and **** your **** man
I'm leaving and I'll be the queen that I am

Do you know who I am
The irrelevant fact that will always be relevant
Do you know who I am
The queen of your dream
The queen of my days
If you don't know who I am
You should know

It's a whole different story
About the glory I've been through

Your full of lies
Your the story of why I cry

Every word you say is
every lie you will tell
I'm quite tired of your words and lies
I'm quite tired of you

Let my paintings become the words that bleed out of my mouth