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 Mar 25 Jay
Kalliope
Delusional
 Mar 25 Jay
Kalliope
I fell in love with our delusions
Promise of love, a home, a life
With no fear of the obstacles or outside intrusion
But that blew up and now I'm stuck
Convincing myself it was all an illusion
I don't want to know if you miss me
Because I'll allow myself to miss you too
And when I start missing you, I'll wish I was kissing you and that's just not what we need to do
 Mar 25 Jay
Kalliope
2014
 Mar 25 Jay
Kalliope
Two tattoos, 10 years, many moons
No one could have told me I'd spend my life without you
You saw it all, my rise and my fall
Every girl that I was,
And the woman that I am
Saved a special place next to me
Where always you could stand
You held me when I cried
Cleaned my room when I couldn't move
Came to me from hours away
When I faced my darkest doom
Without you, I'd never be me
So I'll always love you from here
Even if you never see
You blocked me in the middle of the night,
No argument, no fight
I can understand how you outgrew me
But the weight of losing a decade long friendship is so, so heavy
 Mar 25 Jay
Kalliope
Idle
 Mar 25 Jay
Kalliope
I showed you all my favorite activities, included you in my hobbies.
I wanted you to see my soul and know I held you close.
But now everything is tainted with thoughts of you.
I cycle through games that now I can't play
So I just lay here and let it sink in
It hurts quite alot, but you're my every other thought
And I wonder if you feel the absence of what we could have been, like I do.
 Jan 22 Jay
Kalliope
The feeling of safety, a net that you've woven, a thoughtful connection with a person you've chosen.
And though you were fine, and you gave up on yearning, his charm was unmatched, your affections he was earning.
Never were you bitter about being alone,
Look at you now, hand glued to your phone.
He was a kind man, a soft man, not mean,
And that's why it hurts worse that it's not meant to be.
The worst part about meeting someone after you've established being content being alone, is getting reacquainted with the loneliness when they're gone.
 Jan 21 Jay
Kalliope
I walked through your doors and it was cold,
Cathedral walls made of stone.
Everything towering over me,
Intimidating and exciting.
It was midday and the light through the windows cast rainbow lights, hues of blue and yellow against cold stone floors.
Mesmerized I couldn't move, desperate to study every intricate detail.
But now the day is done, darkness so thick it's suffocating.
So quiet and still the only thing I hear is my fear, I don't know how to get out.
I lost the entrance studying your walls, and now I pace in silence.
Everytime I get closer to the exit, the sun shines again.
And I'm drawn deeper into your maze following the beauty, until it's night and I'm lost more than before and craving your daylight.
I had to close my eyes and seek escape with my feet,
'For if I'd looked at you again I would never be free
 Jan 16 Jay
Kalliope
Cravings
 Jan 16 Jay
Kalliope
I want something sweet on the tip of my tongue,
a strawberry, some coolwhip, and coconut ***
I need it to send dopamine to my brain,
I want to stop laying here, going insane
Ice cream and syrup and sprinkles could do,
But after it all,
I'm still craving you.
Salted caramel cheesecake,
This separation's hard to take,
Peanutbutter French toast,
You are what I crave the most.
 Jan 16 Jay
Kalliope
I was made of fabric
Hair like silk framing my face
Naive eyes looking every which way
And through rough palms
I was strung along
And changed into tattered lace

I was made of leather
Firm but flexible
Looking for pleasure
I thought I knew better,
Had found the right way
I had to learn it hurts just as bad
To bend but not break

I am made of steel
Solid and sturdy, I don't have to feel
I can keep myself safe
It's okay to be alone at the end of the day
I built myself up, I filled my own cracks
It haunts my heart to think of my reckless past
You turned me into glass
A kaleidoscope heart
On display for your art
And I don't know how to revert back
 Jan 15 Jay
Kalliope
The tide rolls in, the tide pulls out, with every wave I'm drowning no doubt, totally surrounded, pulled deep in the undertow, my senses unfounded,
but you're where I want to go,
I'm thrashing and paddling, I'm searching for air, the current I'm straddling will take me somewhere, without reason I flow away from the shore;
Diving with intention?
I've never done that before.
If love is an ocean
I'm best left on the shore
I mindlessly dipped my toes in
And now I'll fade away to maritime lore
 Jan 15 Jay
Kalliope
Unraveled
 Jan 15 Jay
Kalliope
Unravel me like ribbons and bows,
Unravel my heart, my mind, and my soul.

You'll dance around every nerve in my brain, delicately driving me madly insane.

It's honey dripped words, it's deep chestnut eyes, a delicious combination I've slowly realized.

It's the way you made art, from the strands of my heart, I'm not made of steel, you reminded me what it is to feel.

Yet something so good, so yummy, divine,
Is easily tainted, like overnight wine.

And I want to be entangled whispering late into the night, but that's hard to do when everything's a fight
It started with my clothes,
Then soon came my heart,
But you've unraveled my mind,
And that's the hardest part.
 Jan 15 Jay
Kalliope
Life Map
 Jan 15 Jay
Kalliope
If I go to the left I miss out on the right,
And I'll never know what's right for me.
But I sit and feel doom, and plead with the moon to illuminate what I need to see.

The path was a fork, cut black and white
A simple 50/50 decision.
But under moon light, it's more than I thought, with unpaved paths through the grass that have risen.

A beautiful maze, all of these ways I could get to my destination,
But each road I turn too, the next one I yearn for, so I'm stuck here in purgatory station.
I don't want to be one thing,
I want to be all,
A mother, a lover, a friend, successful
But I can't shake the feeling,
That choosing a path
Puts one of my dreams to an end
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