The crushing weight on my shoulders
In my ridiculous brain
Slowly destroying me,
From the inside out.

I am a liar
No!
A pretender.
I don't intend to hurt anyone,
But me.

My body
My mind
And my soul
All feel the weight of protending.
It doesn't matter if I die from this weight,
Or if I just live with it,constantly.

The weight of pretending
Is heavier than anything
In the world
Because it explodes,crushes and destroys
All at once.

High school kinda stinks
Everybody wants to get to the top
People talk before they think
I'd like to take a moment and just stop

Take a look at what's become
See who's really there
See where this is all coming from
Nothing's fair

One moment you're high & mighty
Until you're hit with sticks & stones
Until its not worth fighting
When they've broken your bones

It gives me satisfaction
And a heartfelt smile
That you'll be my lover
For longer than awhile.
I love you.
Me with my flowers,
And you with your game,
A hippie and a nerd,
In love without shame.
I love you.
What a sight it will be
When we make it to the end.
What sights we will see
At every curve and bend.
I love you.
My first kiss was with you,
Who holds my desires.
My last kiss will be you too
At the fall of our empires.
Guess what?

(totally unedited)



what is this madness in the world??
how is this even happening??
so, we have not enough scourges...??
matters little what creed or colour

these are human beings
just like you and me
and children...

no, this is insane
perhaps I have not enough in me
to understand this level of madness
to cope with this


this is insane




st64......thurs, 22 aug

is it possible to be perfect?
because you're pretty **** close.

i cannot imagine
how it must feel
to actually want
what i pretend i crave

do not bother me
let me wallow alone,
in self-pity and half melted bowls of ice cream.
is that really too much to ask?

i want to wrap you up and keep you in my pocket

                                 so that you always feel close to me

and so that i never have to deal with you again