As I look up the stars in the sky
It help me find the reason why
Though the constellation we made glitters in the night
Your star shines brighter in other constellation without me in sight

As to a gathering on the hall
I tried standing out of them all
But as someone walked in the ball
It casted shadow on my whole

Springtime stings more than any time
Because I've always wanted to show my love
The clarity that hits, felt like a crime
Showed me that I'm the only one in love

The stars that shines so bright
Grabs and takes hold of my sight
These stars that guide you throughout your life
Gave a sense of security, like husband to a wife

As the stars, you’ve dreamt to reach one day
Turns out were black holes that turns everything into gray
As beyond the brightness it shows
An overwhelming darkness it impose

Did i fell to the trap? Was i tricked?
Or was it me who tried to believe
In the end i realized, i was the one who tricked
My mind to embrace a lie and believe

I really hated my skin
Not because of its color
Neither was it for its complexion
But it was supposed to make me feel

On the contrary, it wasn’t my skin that feel
But my heart, that feels like it was going to peel
The one that aches whenever i tried
The one that break whenever i cried

As I tried hurting myself physically
It wasn’t my skin that is malfunctioning
It was my heart, that not only does beating
But also destroys me mentally

I ask myself the question, what lies beyond rock bottom

Wondering if i can get any lower than this
And everytime, life just knows how to do it
Now, even in my comfort space, it feels like an abyss
Then people just grabs my head and to the ground they drill it

To think it was a safe place was wrong
Oh how dumb was it that i haven’t notice it for so long

Dancing on fire was i, long before i realize
I was in hell disguise as heaven, fooled with lies
Ever wondering why would i need to crush my pride and ego to feed their own with my lies and compromise
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It started with the unknown
This special feeling that have grown
A special person that with one smile could make me live on
And makes me want to bet my entire life on

As i knew, being an average person
I couldn’t expect anything on anyone
But, you on the other hand, swayed my heart that I lay down on submission
An impossible dream, as i reach for you, my only one

Time as always is the essence
But when it comes to you, i want you to know
Time also is the truth teller, that I hope it makes sense
That you are the reason I grow

In Solitude, i find something special yet cruel
Despite of caring too much, expecting to be reciprocated wouldn’t end well
How i envy those people who I must’ve called friends
For they have a someone as obsessed to care for others as their friend

In Solitude, i see peace in chaos
For it was the loudest noise that brings voices of ghosts
In Solitude, i see chaos in peace
Though stability is immaculate, it will cease to exist

In Solitude, i found me
A side of me that yearns more than what i am
A side of me that is more than it seems
For it was In Solitude that made me who i am

And I return into nothingness
A vision that just ends in hopelessness
Voices that would herald change
But the script of this play is still playing on the stage

Made a vow to myself to be humble
But the ego is so strong they just won't fumble
Neglecting logic and embracing emotions
Sacrificing understanding, minds in a constant state of erosion

Would Change be a cancer that kills?
Does the outcome it bring, gives the chills?
Does the false stability it brings gave you relief?
I hope that the future would not be cruel as how you were stiff