How I’ve missed you
You came fast and out of the blue
Without thunder or lightning
But really, you ruined everything

So no, I do not want you here
I wish you could just disappear
You made me feel alone in the darkness
I already was bad but you made me regress

Tomorrow is a new day
Then I will not astray,
Bring this fight on
And after that may you please be gone

After the storm, there is calm
They think
After the war, there is no more bomb
They think

I know the truth

After the flood there is damage
I know
After the game there is a rematch
I know

Late in the morning, I get out of bed
Feeling dizzy in my head
I look in the mirror and see what is me
How can that be?
I look like a fat swine
But truly, I'm fine

My stomach makes the sound of thunder
What a horrible blunder
I see everyone staring
The problem's not what I am wearing
Don't look at me
I'm just thirsty, I'm not hungry

I'm starting to see double
It's not going to be trouble
I continue my day
But faint, are you okay?
I wake up looking beaten
Don't worry, I've eaten

These are the lies I tell
and every day I excel
I tell them because I want to succeed
Even though I know it's not what I need
I ignore everyone's worries
But someone help me, please

Chaos walked into my life
Threatening me with a knife
I had no choice but to fight
To take control, and make it right.

Little did I know that I wasn't in control
That something else was controlling my soul
My enemy has changed into something I lust
To be thin, I must

My enemy is the number on the scale
As he is ruling and I am in jail
I am conflicted about its reign
Cause we have the same goal and the same name

Sometimes I see a brief glimpse of light.
It is shining on me like the sun in the evening
It is so beautiful, so gold and bright
I can't believe I am the one receiving

I realize that I am fortunate
To be the one to witness this stunning view
I never again want this door shut
And to be left in this dark room with nothing to do

If only I had the power to open this door
Just enough so that the wind won't close it again
I wish to watch this sunset a little more
I need a plan

The doctor says I’m ill
Unable to function so they give me a pill
Still unable to get rid of this condition
But trying to fix me seems to be their mission

My muscles are weak
Poisoned by those drugs, I can hardly speak
Is this cure supposed to be this bad?
Because if this is I’d rather be mad

The constant storm that is raging inside my brain
The flames in my head spreading further until I drain
Not enough loudness, not enough wildness
But still wishing for something cloudless
This whirlwind is spinning me around
and finally leaving me dazed on the ground

They see me washed up on shore
But no one seemed to care anymore
The movie of memories started to play
And I realized it was my role
that drove the audience away

So to me, my flames are unkind
But mostly they failed to remind
that in the storm I am blind
To what mess I leave behind