You are all I can think about all day.

Every text , I hope it's from you.

Every call I hoped might be from you.

Longing to see your face.

Longing for the smile I get on my face

wanna see you just for one more minute  

that all i wish for

Today I don't know
I just want him here want him to wrap his hands  around me
I want to hug him like a bee hugs flowers
I just miss him so much that it's making it hard to breath .
I can't make him see me cry but
I can't hide my tears in my eyes ..
I never realised when I loved him this much
it just hurts my heart now that
I know that I won't see him again
or hug him or even fight with him
I just want him back

if god gives me a chance at death
i will take it

after a certain age
even your mother won't wipe your tears
you should do it on your own
so do it on your own

when does it end?
does it really end ?
how long will you hurt me and act like i hurt you
why cant you notice i am same as you
my feelings do get hurt like yours
my eyes do get tears like yours
you were supposed to protect me
but how did you end up hurting me the most
do you even ever realize you are hurting me
do you even care?
why should i act like a parent to you
when you were supposed to be mine
why should i heal you from the scars
that i never was never part of
why should i take the blame for your mistakes ?
why cant i just be a happy child ?
why ?

how can i not cry ?
how can i not cry ?
when the pain is in my throat  and
tears are in my eyes
and the thoughts in my brain are telling me to die
how can i not cry ?
when all i see is the dark sky
and when my life is not mine
how can i not cry ?
when your harsh words break my heart
and when nobody is standing to defend me
how can i not cry ?
so please tell me how to not to cry