I surrender to You in both fear and hope
But fear dominates more
That my hope is fading away
I'm scared to live as much as dying
I feel guilt in happiness
And sometimes I tremble upon joy
I'm jealous of others smile
Though I knew they had their pain too
I feel the worst of myself
I ashamed.... I'm not good nor enough

O happiness
where else do you know it reside?
It is there in the past of your present
And could it be the last

I put all my hopes up before the morning
And I woke up still dreaming
It's possible, it's possible
I chanted
But the the spell wore out
Everything cracks and crumbles
What's left is a wet wound
Dripping blood stains my road back home
What should I do? What would this be?
I stare beyond the stars into the wonder
There is nothing left in my power

Even a messy paint can be an art
When the value shines over its colour
Even in the worst we can make a new start
When you put your hope as a humble believer

All the pieces inside me is screaming
They cry for something...
I'll take forever to give

I hoped he wouldn't notice
If not, it'll be a shame
Had he knew I loss focus
When I turn at him upon hearing his name
Had he knew I froze from awkwardness
When my eyes accidentally got up to his
We are definitely nothing
And I **** all my hopes and expectations
There's not a thing left so please
Stay in the different frame
For at least
I can just look and admire
Just this far and not nearer