Pacing back and forth like a Tiger in a cage unable to process this primal rage
Wanting to know what is it that comes next knowing and everybody thinks that if they distract me with shiny objects...
I will just go away.

Thinking if you can just hold this off just one more day, this will be the thing that you don't have to say. I know I'm the problem, I see it in myself. You don't have to tell me that you're ready to put me up on a shelf.

Medicines line these walls and yet all the emptiness inside still draws all my energy into this black hole, ******* out my entire soul.

Lying in bed
Trying not to scream
Hoping to wake
Is this a dream
Flying so high
Falling so low
Wondering
Where will this go
Every step I take
Hoping that my mind won't break
I am climbing this mountain
Searching for something
But is it isolation or solace

Listening to the words you say rattle in my brain
Tears flowing freely
I slip down in the water
Heat covering my body
Everything becomes blurry
I can't see my way through
A deep breath
Warmth filling me
The world fades away
Never to see another day

Fifty-four seconds
Straight through my soul
An aching in my bones that leaves me shaking
Thinking of your voice
Needing your touch
Always too far
Never enough

I am banging on the walls screaming
Come and get me
Can anybody hear me
Trapped in a box
****** claw marks down the sides of this cage
Free me from this pain
It's too much
I can't breath
Let me out
Set me loose from the misery
Please