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Blakbuttafly89 Jul 2018
don’t get on here to write a poem about for me ...
when u could have called .
matter of a fact **** u please don’t bother me at all.
u allowed me to open up and share!
for what to be a funny conversation on your next date!
I mistakenly hit call
all that time I spent on you .... waiting for you was completely for nothing
a waste of *******  time
u never had plans on being mine
u just liked the waves from my poetry trickling up and down ya mental spine
**** u and every relationship goal ur willing to climb
I know u were scared to fight that cool I’ll take the blame play the fool
I know u and her will never work cause my heart is yours and yours is mine
u know it’s real cause as I’m writing this I can already feel ya heart beat as u read my lil rhyme
And this wound you created hopefully it gets better with time
Blakbuttafly89 Jul 2018
giving up on writing cause every time I do I can’t control my pen
back at it writing about him again
everything about this man living breathing walking talking  sin
my greatest weakness was ever showing love to him
soft smooth tall chocolate skin
can’t shake these memories of him from back then.
Blakbuttafly89 Jul 2018
stop throwing hints my heart just wont get
I need confirmation and affirmations in order to know its real
I always read signs wrong
so I always tellem say what it is u want to say
cause playing the guessing game my brain never works that way
I guess that’s why u choose not to fight  u choose not to stay
u thought it would be better to runaway
Blakbuttafly89 Jul 2018
a love I thought I knew or was it just imaginary pieces that my mind made up over time
to help me heal and cover up those past tragedies I choose to leave behind
I mean was the spiritual connection really there
ya love had me stuck in a ever lasting daze I swear
when u died the strong piece of me died with u too I couldn’t breathe completely no air no u
I was 5 month pregnant with our child my baby number 3 when that young boy took u away from me
so there was no one who reached out or called I took that walk of shame everyday by myself no one Alone......
my 7 year old at the time he wiped my eyes from him my tears god wouldn’t allow me to hide I needed him more than he needed me he was There
mommy are u okay?? is the only noise I wanted to hear at the end of each and everyday

now baby boy is here and he looks up to you this is certainties for sure I know... I see the glow in your eyes as u watch him grow!!!
your not quite the man of the house but u are a king you let that show
I thank God everyday for giving me the gift to carry u inside of my body closet to my heart
so sweet and kind mostly made of everything I am not
i love that Part
  Jul 2018 Blakbuttafly89
hope west
He could never love me, I will never have his heart
no matter how much i'll try and try, we'll always be apart

He could never touch me, the way i'd only ever dreamed
with his warmth against my skin
i've felt it once or twice before
and been hoping for evermore

He could never see me, the way i've always seen him
for he has long decided that i'm not enough for him

He could never love me,but i will never quit,
for i will try until he's mine, even if i already know
that i will fail, but i want it back, to where we were at

For i would carry all my fears,a thousand miles, a million ways,
a thousand more, for a million days
to hear his voice his, to see his precious face
i'd come all this way

Just to THINK he is mine,for once in my mind
I'd still go, even though i already know
he could NEVER love me.
Blakbuttafly89 Jun 2018
one day u will look back and think of me ..
the one who was so easy for me to forget... and you’ll cry cause it was not a dream
I was truly willing to let u taste..
the better part of me....
endless  love  eternity
Blakbuttafly89 Jun 2018
ya hand is delt with to many Queens
and I’m not up for the gamble
especially when I know for sure I’m the winning hand

not finished just sitting here so I’ll share
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