each one has a reason
a purpose that faded away,
another time someone broke your trust,
broke you.
each one is for a specific person,
or people,
for a thought or memory,
for satisfaction, control or punishment.
each one is shaped differently,
yet you recognize every single one.
the sight of them fading fills you with a need for more
as you go deeper.
at this point im not even trying to stay clean, there's no point. i'll relapse anyway. it's quite ironic how someone you thought you could trust becomes the reason you want to disappear (in my case its my stepfather and a few other people)