I stretch my eyes because i can't close my ears
i stretch them so no tears fall out
if i could close my ears like i could close my eyes
i would do it any second
because words and sounds hurt more then sights,
you'll remember things you hear more then the things you see.
I stretch my eyes hoping i stretch enough so i can get to my ears,
I stretch and stretch until my eyes fall down.

she doesn't know how much her words hurt
she shoves them down my throat
she puts my hand around my mouth so i can't spit it out
she loops around my throat
until i choke up and my thoughts turn purple.

All I can think about is what I lost.
What I lost before,
What I lost in the process,
What I will loose after.
Winning doesn't count when you're consumed by your loss.

It will never be the same.
Ill never look at it the same.
Ill never pull on the grass and dig in the dirt like i used to,
ill never sit there again,
ill never walk through it again,
even if its for the better.

waiting for my phone to light up
with a message from you
but instead i'm laying down holding a teddy bear
pretending its you,
writing a poem instead of texting you.

I lay down every night wondering,
is this all i will ever get in love?
is this all i will ever receive?
I lay down every night thinking,
With only one thing in my mind.
It starts with a J.
I wonder if he lays down in the same way,
with one initial in mind,
would that initial be E?
or would it be another letter in the alphabet?

I feel some sort of grief
A sort of grief that I can't pinpoint
because I miss you
but it's a type of missing that won't go away
that i can't force to go away
because i want you back just to talk
just to stop the avoiding
And as I see you touching that other girl,
i wonder if she's experiencing how I felt an year ago,
and if she will ever feel the same way I do now.
It's the type of grief that i will always experience,
because you will forever not go away.