my heart is drenched
in flame
my heart
has gone
way  beyond
what you  so rightly call
shame.

do you love
love
or just the
notion of
falling into  
something
that looks
a  lot like
what love
should look
a lot like
if you knew
what love looks
like
is that what
your love would
look like?  😁

you think
this is dull
my love
it can get darker
watch me
blow the flame.

this
what we have done
together
these little humans
we have
nurtured
together
and tossed out
into the world
together
this
what we have done
together
is way more than
we could have ever
done
apart
just stand back
give it a beat
look at them
listen to them
they are amazing
and our whole
life’s work.

I am sailing on
a sea of huge regret
still smiling
but nevertheless
navigating
badly
a sea
of huge regret.

give me a reason
just one
even a little one
a pebble
if you will
then maybe
just maybe
I will change
it only takes a truth
at least half of one
to turn
desperation
into hope.

you look at me
like I am the only girl
in the world
but I’m not
there are millions of us
look around
open your eyes
there are millions
of us
just milling around !