When I grow attached to someone, there's a chance I may come to love them

You'll know when you truly are in love with someone when you see just faintest smile on their lips and you feel the warmth of a sun's strongest hug binding you to them

What if I truly didn't have any control over what I do

What if I'm just watching a movie set in the first person about a guy who thinks he can do what he probably shouldn't even attempt

That'd be nice, moving the ***** up to different shoulders.


But only mine would be willing to carry that burden

You tell yourself,

"Hey, maybe it might work out"

Yeah, maybe. But maybe not

You always should be ready for failure

Maybe you fail yourself

Maybe you fail the ones you care about

You need to accept that sometimes things aren't alright, and that you can't do a thing to fix it

You're just chasing the ghosts of dead dreams

You can still choose to feel the same as you had, but don't let that ruin things you've worked so hard for

I am not completely afraid of death, nor am I unafraid of it.

I don't intend to go peacefully if I may

I want to go out of this world as I came into it

Kicking.

Screaming.

We don't have control over how we go, but if I did

I want to go knowing my loved ones are safe.

I want to go protecting those that I hold dear and close to my heart.

Some people are just naturally alone, they don't choose to be, it's just how they've always been and how they always will be

I chose to be alone, but not on purpose.


I chose to be alone by pushing people away and not even knowing I was doing it

I guess now I'll be the type of person who's just naturally alone since I can't manage naturally to not be alone.

Does time really have the healing power so many say it does?

Does it make scars fade away?

Does it make the most heinous of crimes forgiveable?

Will it help me forgive and forget?

I just want to move on from this

I've had enough tears for a while now.

I once said I was like an open book with a few pages torn out,

I still have those pages

I'm just hesitant about putting them back

I'm worried they'll be ripped out again

Leaving nothing but shreds.



but... I hope you'll read my book and encourage me to keep adding page after page

The ping of the notification

the pop up of the phone ring

Every sound

Every sight

A distraction

The strength taken just to focus

Distracted by this, that, you...

Always putting yourself first should be a priority of life, but sometimes you don't do that

Sometimes you stay up the whole night to make sure you have all your homework done

Sometimes it's because you want to make sure someone is going to still be there in the morning

Sometimes you get angry that you're not where you want to be at,

Sometimes you get angry that others aren't where they need to be at

The future is a scary thing. It's unpredictable in every way imaginable. You can try and guess what will happen, but there are never any assurances.

I heard once that courage and fear are just how you react in the face of danger, will you allow what's facing you to overcome you? Or will you be the one standing on top when the dust settles

Every young person wants to have a successful life. They all have wants and needs, for me that's a lot of stuff


Most importantly to me is that I someday meet the girl that's special to me, someone who can support me through anything, someone that I can support through anything, my best friend and girl of my dreams, maybe I've already met her... maybe I haven't. I won't know until I finally marry her and give a sigh of relief that someone truly loves me

I also want kids eventually, I don't know how many, and I don't care if its a boy or a girl, but someone I can pass on what I've learned in life, I can see the succeed and fail and help and support them it all

I want a good job, I want to go to college and get a degree, I struggle now but maybe there's a me out there that doesn't

I want to grow old with my wife, raise a child with pride and happiness, I want to get paid doing what I love, but who knows if that'll all happen.

Maybe I'll just never be able to find that special someone..

Maybe I won't ever have kids of my own with the woman I love,


Maybe I'll just barely graduate high school, because I'm not all that smart


Well. That got depressing fast didn't it. The point is you don't need to worry my friends, life goes by at different paces for different people. Be someone who makes every second count