I'm silent
But I am screaming
This isn't quiet
The lights are on
But I'm in the dark
This isn't brightness
I'm awake
But still in a nightmare
Not a dream
If only it were
I'm reliving
But this isn't living
I'm close
But not near
I'm distant
I am and I do
But this is what it isn't

I would love to hear interpretations of my poem please please comment!

Dear twin,
I know you've been going struggles from without and within
but we all go through pain
it's what balances the sun with the rain
Your an amazing person
you have so much to give the world
I'd hate to see you waste that potential on some ******* who didn't know how to treat a girl.
I'm not saying I'm better in fact i know I've done worse
but it breaks my heart to know it's you that's so horribly cursed
Your my twin and I'll stick by you to the end
You've gone through some **** before.
Now rise like the dark knight sis, your superhero story begins.

One night full of stars,
During the last summer
You broke my prison bars
In a dream which is carved in me forever:
Standing on the shore of River Jordan,
You baptized me
With a name that says who I am:
Ocean Blue.
And to life I was brought by You.

His smile is what makes my day.
The way he tell me he loves me without knowing what i may say.
He and I are so good together, it seems unreal.
I never knew this is how love could feel.
His voice makes me smile for hours.
It's like he has these magical powers.

He is broken, just like me.
It's crazy how he understands all the parts he was never supposed to see.
I haven't felt his warm embrace, i dream of his arms holding me tight.
He makes all the wrong in my world seem right.
I know we haven't been together long, but the way you make me feel..
You give my life meaning and make my shattered heart feel real..

The way this is, it's something of fantasy.
I am waiting for the dream to end, because this doesn't happen for me.
The amount of trust you have..the amount of love you have of mine.
If i lose you, i don't think i could ever be fine.
The insecurities you have, are what i love about you.
Because they give me reason to shower you with my love.
The way you talk of our future, is the peace of a dove.

I know i am not the best.
I know i am different from the rest..
But i will love you with my whole heart, now and forever more.
A Letter Between Lovers, what could fix all of mine which has been tore.
I don't want this to be like those of the past.
Because it will ruin us fast.

We can make it through anything in the world, cause lovers fight.
We fight for what is our right.
Our right to love, and this letter is our secret bond bein sealed.
You are the only one who has been able to help me get healed.
So, what im tryin to say is, i love you for who you are.
You are the best thing i have, my very own shining star.

I tired
I sleep now
But I too afraid to close I eyes
This dream, this horrific dream
Is this a river of blood I see
Where is it coming from
What is this place
I hands...
Why are I hands red
Is this hell
Can't be
I a good boy
I did nothing wrong
Are those people I see down there
I go get answers from river blood people
I run, i run
I run as fast I little legs can take I
I?
Who is I?
Am I I?
Yes, I I
I me
Me I
If I is me
Me must be I
Right?
I confused
Me confused
me no feel too good
Me lay down now
Where is me
who is me
me sleepy
Me still know no where I is
Wait...
I know me
Me no I
I no me
I am a living being
I must wake up now
Goodbye dream
Until next time