Standing tall and electrified
Standing next to self built fires.

All alone, but still antagonized.
Disconnected from living wires

Disorganized spoken static, through flawed systems
beg, beg, beg again for updated standards
Play the game, we're still just victims
Break the rules, we make the systems

who's to say our past lives aren't present
who's to say I wouldn't go for second's

If we are, from before.  
I'm here for you, I'm here for so much more

How many times will we recur before we say no more

Darling if we existed now and before,

I'd love you more then ever before.

As humankind shivered
it cut down trees,
it overcame nature.

So we were sheltered

As humankind hungered
it hunted its prey,
it took control.

So we were fed

As humankind worried
it overcame nature.
it took control.

So we will with tyrants

Ray
I know we'll never speak again.
And maybe this is me writing like a journal.
In all reality only a handful of people know you existed in my life.
And maybe its been for the better, for you.

When I think of you. I find myself full of regret.
Some of the choices I made were influences by family.
Some of the choices were out of fear of complacency.
All of the choices were mine.

Before I met you, I was a *******. I did awful stupid things as an adolescent.

Broke hearts, hurt, and manipulated people because I was played with.
It's no excuse.

It's no excuse for devaluing the people around you,
It's no excuse for taking the easy way out.

There was one thing you reminded me of.
You reminded me of a knight.

You reminded me of honor.
I was once taught the principal by a woman who twisted my brain.

"Honor is doing the right thing when no one is watching."
which is true.
But,
Honor is also being yourself, despite what the world throws at you.

If you find this.
Know that I'm sorry I didn't give you the closure you deserved.

Let me make this perfectly clear for everyone from my past.

You won, you got the better of me by just being yourself.

Now, lets move on.

It's kind of hard to when you leave a piece of you behind any time you feel the need to burn a bridge.

That there's something you forgot to take with you or you left there because maybe it was to much baggage.

We've been there, am'i'right?

I broke off pieces of me at a time and left them there for better or worse

And I've done that for every person I can think of.
Some larger, some smaller.
Don't feel lucky that it was minimal or you weren't given your fair share

I broke off pieces of myself until there was nothing left, and I didn't think of what those pieces meant

I couldn't because it was too "rough" to think about.

But like tomorrow always comes, I had to think about it at some point.

And I hated the hell out of myself too, with good reason.

Wasn't a felon, but I wasn't a great person.

I demonized and hated myself with good reason.

Didn't save my foster brother and I ***** about my past.

But then I realized something about me not being a good person but actually caring about how people felt and the fact I want to change.

Out of all the things I went through and every piece of shell shock or excitement I created.

You were all amazing people despite what you did.

I didn't idolize you. I just knew that I couldn't ever judge you for being you.

And I thought you were awesome for one reason or another.

Today, like many other days.

I left a piece of me behind

I had to move on,

But I want you to know

I will think about those pieces of myself I left behind

For your sake.

and mine

My words have always been reserved for the people that mean the most to me.

I've burnt my bridge,
I've delved my dives
I broke my word
I died so many times.

I hoped you'd see
I thought you'd think
I wrought my self
I scared myself.

There's no need
thesis fed
broken found
thoughtfulness made bound.

I'm scared to care for others
I'm aware of fair play
at least I thought about your heart
But we were better off from finish to start.