When you look in my eyes, what do you see?
Do you see my pain
the fire I felt in my muscles?
Do you see the billions of tears
that had ran a marathon across my cheeks.
When looking into my eyes,
do you see my desire
for revenge
Do you see past my eyes, and into my soul,
my restless spirit?
Do you see my wounds
that still linger beneath my scars?
In my eyes, do you see my love?
Do you see my passion for loyalty?
My deep desire to be loved?
In my eyes,
do you see my confusion
my curiosity for everything
In my eyes,
can you see that I have been in pain.
The kind of pain that is worse than physical pain.
the "****" in my eyes.
The disappointment
the failure.
*my eyes hold a lot of secrets

You are the sun.
So bright and warm.
you make everything okay.
You.
You are so much to me.
I cant explain.
May be cliche,
but may I say,
you are beautiful.
No song can be sung,
no poem can be written
to describe
you.
You can light up my day,
your words worth more than anything.
You, my dear
shatter my heart,
making me fall to my knees.
You make me wanna pray,
you make me wanna sing
you make me wanna cry
you are you
something that cannot be reckoned with.
Forgive me,
but I am in love
cliche, cliche,
but may I say,
Come with me today,
I want to hold you
close to me.
I want you to love me.
not ***
not lust
just...love me.
You.
love me?
Do you love me?
I wanna know
*do you love me?

Child,
keep your brain pure and clean.
Please,
don't fall with society.
Lust has taken over,
innocence is fading.
These people,
they have stopped caring
about everything.
A value no longer seen.
everyone has done something
even me.
Which is why you,
the innocent
are our last hope.
Keep your values strong.
Never forget how to see light,
even though earth is shrouded in darkness.
Keep everything special.
Love everything
hate nothing.
darkness is everywhere
but you must keep things bright
Innocence
a word lost in time.
Advancement in the wicked
takes over the good
and darkness begins to appear.
Child,
do not be afraid
this world is just plain ****.
But you live here too.
Make this ****** world
become your paradise.
Stay innocent
stay,
just stay
*innocent

Once upon a time
You opened my mind
With ****** inter course.
Now your so deep into your flaws,
Your closed.
For refurbishment,
You heard my thoughts.
I miss you.
These issues are beyond the metaphors
Of what's mine and yours.
Behind closed doors,
I think of you
When you dismiss me so easily,
Whilst I think about how it used to be.
Buts that's a memory
And reality is mystery.
I don't know why you don't want me anymore.

I stay true.
I'll always stay true.

And hopefully,
We can be what we used to,
Someday,
Sometimes
One day.

I held my breath and died

I failed.
I failed
I failed
I could have stopped it
everything
But
you guessed it
I failed.
I failed at keeping myself okay,
I was worried on keeping everyone else happy.
I failed at knowing how to love.
I failed at remembering how to be happy.
After what feels like a lifetime being shrouded in darkness,
I have failed to bring lightness to the world.
I bring darkness,
like a storm brings destruction.
I failed to gather the joy
I left it to die.
I failed
But,
its okay.

I heard him,
Telling stories about her..
How much he loves her,
How much he misses her,
How he cried for her,
How he stared at her..

I smiled,
I hope someday, I will find that one.

The one who will love me that much,
The one who will miss me, as much as he do.
The one who will cry for me,
The one who will stare at me, like the way he stares at her.

I hope I will find someone who will make me think that
"he is the one",
And make me feel that
"I am the one".
.
.

****
sometimes that is all someone can say.
****

Children
stop your tears
this life
is just a diversion
This pain you feel
will end.
It has to end

What do we do?Our spark of life meant for...nothing?
What do we truly do?
The spark of life for...nothing?
I often ask myself
what were my origins for?
My origins fall on an early spring morning.
Spawn of a ****,
I was born to the world.
They often tell me I was always meant to be.
I was a perfect baby
I never cried, and always behaved.
I look at pictures of me.
I was so happy
I never knew what pain was, or what abuse felt like.
It was me and my mom.
I was the light in her life,
and she was mine.
I often see my picture.
The little boy I was.
It all changed though.
Happiness never lasts.
My mother married,
I died.
This person that stepped in
my "dad"
sent me to hell and back.
He never understood
my meaning of life.
The **** he's done,
ruins my origins.
Instead of talking about a happy life,
I am forced to tell my childhood as abuse.
I will never know the life of a boy scout.
wasn't allowed
I will never know summer camp
wasn't allowed
I will never know what it is like to go to a friends house and stay with them for the weekend
wasn't allowed
Though I show you my smile,
it screams pain that echos through my body.
My origins are not worthy of speech.
My origins
*have been corrupted