You’re doing so well.

I don’t believe that people with common interests are really alike
For the “just sake” of an interest you two are destined
Some will say don’t be foolish and tarnish the parade
But you know well enough that’s it’s the lust that burns that bridge
For the sake of argument and honesty
Let’s call a sappy truce,
One that ignores our morals
And leaves things to rest

I’m really at war with myself
I don’t like who l am,
Nor do l like where l am
I’m responsible for my actions

Self aware enough to know
But delusional to think it’s bad
The consequences might shift me
Maybe it’s the only price worth paying

To know that I’m digging a hole
And to lose everything
Only to gain what l originally knew
I’m playing god with god

You aren’t you,
You will never be you until you lose you.

You can whisper her name
The frost departing your mouth
Because you know the warmth
The hugs that healed you

She was the one,
She made you feel complete
She gave you everything she could
She needed you more than she valued herself

Yet you’re self-destructive
What else will you throw away?
You didn’t deserve her,
Yet you miss her..

He won’t love you I would
The only reflection is me in is cornea
You know what you see,

Not in him, but in me
It’s not the way it used to be
But that’s how we live

There’s hurt still left in your voice
That time couldn’t heal
Because it’s the first and last
It was love other lust
It was genuine.
It was us.

I don’t really know who l am
I have a vague of idea of what I’d like
The wealth, the self-image
The encapsulation of life.  

Achieve what you desire
Yet again, l don’t know where to aspire
What industry, what plans,
What’s to do?

Take action and see where it leads you
That’s where it should start,
Maybe I’m just overthinking?
Probably lol.