If you saw me

unvarnished,

unscripted
would you stay?

You'd know the cost
of loving someone
who's learned to disappear
before she's left.

You might step back.

or worse,

what if you stay?

and see me crumble

in your kindness

I don't know
if I could survive

being loved like that.

I don't sleep anymore.
I can almost see
god seeing
a child.
My stomach remembers every olive.
I have two phones
but no favorite.

Your best contribution
of the day-
when you don't stand
in someone's way

I tried to believe, so often
That everyone just needs time
To change
To come back.

I tried to believe, so often
In sweet words
That promised
The universe would make room for us.

But day by day
The more I tried to believe
The harder it became to ignore
You never truly wanted this.

This is not hate
Perhaps, it's exhaustion
Tired of all the questions
That never found their answer.

And I think
This is enough
If we never set sail
Perhaps we were simply never meant to be.